zincmagnesium8 Posted December 1, 2020 Share Posted December 1, 2020 I just wanted to post something here because I've no one else to tell and wanted to get it off my chest! Without going into the details of previous posts, I was still hung up on this girl that I broke up with because she kissed another guy in the early stages of our relationship. I still really cared for her and thought that it was worth giving it another chance. She gave me the impression that she was still interested but never explicitly said it. During a video call we had recently I asked her where things stood between us and she said that she's not sure and that we should meet in person to chat about it. Definitely gave me the hint that she wanted to try make things work again. I was finding it hard to move on as she was always on my mind. I kept thinking "what if I'm letting her go because of her one silly mistake". So I bit the bullet and asked her to meet in person. Turns out she couldn't meet because of covid restrictions. I couldn't wait any longer so I just laid it all out in a message. I just asked her bluntly if she saw anything happening between us but she gave me the line "not right now, but who knows what the future might bring". I pushed it to her again, and she finally told me that when we broke up something changed and that she forced herself to move on quickly. In reality I think she had already lost interest and was happy that I ended things. I believe she had the best intentions, trying to be nice and not hurt me, but all it was doing was leaving me hanging on in hope. Once I heard that she forced herself to move on and that she wasn't interested in rekindling things right now I knew that there was no chance of anything ever happening again. It's funny that the moment I heard this my mind started to immediately think of all the bad things she had done and how she was wrong for me. It's like my brain finally accepted it. I think my decision to move on was validated when I noticed she stopped posting stories on insta. Decided to log out and check her page and saw that she did have a story but was just hiding it from me. She was being needy and posted a scantily clad photo of herself saying that she wasn't feeling well and needed "cuddles" which I can only assume is code for sex. I know it's not good to be snooping on her social media, but it was genuinely just to see if she was blocking stories from me. I've since hid her profile so I won't see any updates from her going forward (if she ever decides to unhide them from me that is). I won't lie, it hurt to know that it was truly over and there was nothing I could do, but also sweet relief that I could finally move on. Not to have the "what-if" hanging over me is a huge weight off my shoulders. The only challenge now is to avoid any reminders of her, and not giving in to the temptation of checking her social media! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Voivoda Posted December 3, 2020 Share Posted December 3, 2020 Cheers, bro. I'm happy for you that you have your mind in peace Link to post Share on other sites
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