Blade peterson Posted December 31, 2020 Share Posted December 31, 2020 As of lately I haven’t had any emotions. I’m not mad, sad, happy. I’m kinda scared. I get really bad anxiety sometimes and as of lately that’s stoped. I just don’t care about anything. I don’t feel sorry for anyone. I don’t feel bad for anyone. I’m just kinda living not In the moment. I’m just kinda alive but not living if that makes sense. But I don’t wanna be like this I wanna go back to the loving and caring person I was for me and my beautiful girlfriend. Can someone help me. Link to post Share on other sites
Ellener Posted December 31, 2020 Share Posted December 31, 2020 1 hour ago, Blade peterson said: I’m kinda scared. It's been a scary year. Traumatic. Shocking. 1 hour ago, Blade peterson said: Can someone help me. You could talk to a counsellor or doctor if you are worried about stress or depression? What is your girlfriend's perspective? Has she commented that you seem down or different? 1 hour ago, Blade peterson said: I just don’t care about anything. I don’t feel sorry for anyone. I don’t feel bad for anyone. Sometimes we have to just get through the days for ourselves and those closest best as possible. 'Batten down the hatches' times... Prioritise self-care, good diet, exercise, fresh air, breathing and meditation: I have anxiety disorder and these are all important for managing it for me. No alcohol or caffeine, and minimising news and difficult people or situations. Hope you feel better soon. Link to post Share on other sites
Wiseman2 Posted December 31, 2020 Share Posted December 31, 2020 See a physician about the numbness and despair. Get a referral to a therapist for ongoing support. Break-up suck, but protracted negative emotions need to be addressed. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Blade peterson Posted January 2, 2021 Author Share Posted January 2, 2021 (edited) Do I love her or am I wanting to? I care about my girlfriend very much I would do anything for her I think. Sometimes I question myself about that but then a couple of minutes later I feel better about the question and I wanna smack myself in the face and say of course you do. . I wish I could giver her the world. I wish I could give her everything she wanted. She deserves that. She’s so beautiful and smart. But the problem I’m not how I was before. When we first started loving each other I was for sure. And never even questioned it. Now I am. I searched up how do you know if you love someone. And they all mostly said the same thing. Do I check up on her? Well yes when we FaceTime. But not just randomly. Are her losses your losses ( when she’s sad am I sad?) and I said yeah but when we first got together I felt it more in my stomach. If she would cry I would cry and tell her everything is gonna be ok. But now I don’t cry but I still feel bad because I know she doesn’t deserve that. Do I ask her if she’s eaten or how her day was. I always ask her about her day. But sometimes I forget to ask her what she ate. I feel like I’m too worried. But if I don’t love her I want to love her so bad. I hate the world right now. I just want to live happily ever after. A couple of days ago me and her were texting. I told her I wasn’t happy anymore. She broke down so I broke down. I started crying. And I spilled my heart out to her telling her how much I care about her. How beautiful and how smart she is. And stuff like that. Because I do care about her. I hate this feeling. Someone please help. I’m sick of not knowing. I just wanna love her forever and be happy. Edited January 2, 2021 by a LoveShack.org Moderator language Link to post Share on other sites
trident_2020 Posted January 2, 2021 Share Posted January 2, 2021 (edited) I think you need to chill out and stop trying to determine if your feelings for her meet the definition of "love" which is a word that means different things to different people. Go to a local gift store and read some romantic cards and see how differently love is expressed in each one. Just roll with it and enjoy her for whatever it is and if you ever get to the point that you don't want to be with her or the negatives outweigh the positives Edited January 2, 2021 by a LoveShack.org Moderator removed off topic Link to post Share on other sites
ShyViolet Posted January 2, 2021 Share Posted January 2, 2021 Is this your first relationship? How long have you been with her? I think you are overanalyzing this. There is no magical definition of love that you are going to find. If you're happy with her and you care about her, and if it feels right, then just stick with it. Link to post Share on other sites
Wiseman2 Posted January 2, 2021 Share Posted January 2, 2021 5 hours ago, Blade peterson said: Well yes when we FaceTime. Sorry to hear that. Have you met in person? How long have you been dating? How old is she? If you haven't seen each other recently or regularly, it's easy to lose interest. Link to post Share on other sites
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