XmX Posted March 14, 2021 Share Posted March 14, 2021 (edited) Hi all, If you have time please read the following. Basically my girl (21) left me (23) few days ago and i m in shambles How it all started... One day i installed tinder just for fun and literally at the same moment saw one cute girl, we started texting for some days and weeks before deciding to see each other. Tbh in this period (and when i first saw her) i didnt think it would last, i didnt know if i would want to be with her but i decided to give it a go. Because of that i am grateful to myself because we fell in love with each other and it was all soo perfect. She was my first love and my first serious relationship. One day (6 months of our relationship or less) she texted me that she cannot be with my anymore etc, i was in shock cuz it was all of a sudden. I asked her why and her response was she doesnt know what she wants, i am too good, our relationship is a bit boring etc. After these texts i decided to go and see her and it went great, we didnt breakup. After this moment i promised i would change (more interesting relationship, going out more etc) and it worked PERFECT. Then corona virus hit (lockdown) and our relationship was well kinda colder but after restrictions were lifted (last april) everything was so perfect again. We were having so much fun, we left on some vacation, it was maybe the best time of my life and hers. Then late december and start of january (this year) exams started and we stopped seing each other that much. This period is maybe why we re not toggether anymore... I wasnt so interested in chilling with her that much + whenever i had some free moments i would rather be with friends or play one idiotic game and this kinda hurt her cuz she was the opposite. We would see eachother maybe once in 10 or 15 days and when that moment came, she was so filled with joy and she was so hyped and happy while i was behaving like we chill everyday. This doesnt mean i stopped loving her or anything, its just that i was lazy, felt secured in this relationship and well thought this was OK. Mid febr she wanted to have a serious talk with me regarding our relationship. She were saying that she doesnt feel the same anymore, she doesnt feel hyped, she doesnt feel thrilled to see me like she did before. She felt like she got bored + kinda cooled off. At that moment she ended things with me. I was heartbroken, cried for that day but was determined to get her back. The next day we talked, see each other and decided to give it another go. From that moment i really changed, i was so into this relationship, i was all over her, i did everything she would want and it looked like everything was totally fine. One month after that (11th of march) when it was excatly 1.5 year of our relationship she seemed so odd the entire day but i thought she was just stressed cuz of exams so let it go. In the night she started texting me we need to talk... and everything she told me the first time she broke up with me she said it again. She has periods when she is happy but then period of cooling off come and so in circles. That night she broke up with me. The next day i thought we can give it a go again (like before) but i was so wrong. She started talking like it was totally off the line, like we wont get back toggether. At that moment i realized i have lost her.. I dont know what to do, i love her, i want her, i need her. I dont want anyone else.. I m feeling so empty and depressed, i have memories of her in my head all the time and it just feels so weird not to do some things with her. You know that feeling when you re used to something and now its no more? For instance, everytime after my gym lessons i would call her, every night when she wants to sleep she would call me on a video call and now its gone... I still dont understand how and why.. Literally last week when i came to see her with her favorite snack (suprise) she was sooooo happy, she was jumping with joy. This monday (international woman day) i came with some presents, we chilled, it was so perfect. She even texted me that (2 days before the breakup) she is so happy everything was back to its normal. She was so happy... How can someone change their behaviour in such a short time? How, why? One also key factor about our breakup is that she kinda felt terrified of staying in a long relationship (i was her first) while she is so young + she said that we might met to early in our lives. Every friend of my is saying she will eventually come back but i hardly believe that will happen and i m not sure is it good to be with her again.. I just wanna get back to some happier times with her.. What would you do? P.S Sorry for my grammar, i feel like i m not able to function properly so i cant think that well hence the grammar errors hah Edited March 14, 2021 by XmX Link to post Share on other sites
d0nnivain Posted March 14, 2021 Share Posted March 14, 2021 This was your 1st relationship. It won't be your last. It hurts now but you will get over it. You know she wasn't a priority for you. You didn't want to chill with her. You wanted to be with your friends & play video games. Well your wish came true. Now you have all the time in the world for those things. You are 23 & in school. Play the field. You will be glad you did. Link to post Share on other sites
Author XmX Posted March 14, 2021 Author Share Posted March 14, 2021 But i feel so sorry, i dont want that, i want her I just want to get back in the past and correct my mistakes Link to post Share on other sites
Cookiesandough Posted March 14, 2021 Share Posted March 14, 2021 5 minutes ago, XmX said: I just want to get back in the past and correct my mistakes Don’t we all. Sorry you’re hurting right now. It will get better with time Link to post Share on other sites
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