I plan to divorce but I can seem to gather the strength

[NHU]

I have been discussing divorce since November of 2020. I am partially moved out but can seem to cut the ties and sig the forms. I don't love my husband he is a terrible spouse and very emotionally abusive and at times physically abusive.

All this started in March 2020 when my husband laid hands on me.  I tried to forgive him, talk it though have couples therapy but non e of that played out. i am very traumatize by him. Hearing him walk and talk makes my stomach sink. I have had to on an antidepressant.

I have an 8yo child who saw my husband lay hands on me and the consequential depression. I moved out for short times and i feel better like a load is lifted in some way. not constant triggers but i miss me son. He doesn't want to come with me. He wants to stay in his home and school.  The lawyer says his abuse is difficult to prove as for my son it isn't really physical. I feel terrible without myself and guilty for leaving him. So i come back but im not functional instantly depressed. I need to leave but i dont know how to live with myself if my son isnt with me. 

We are an interracial couple - im white he's asian. I work about 2 hours away so I wont stay near our family home is not marriage to him. Seeking advice support and maybe a push to wrap this up. 

[Keridan]

On 3/28/2021 at 1:59 PM, NHU said:

I have been discussing divorce since November of 2020. I am partially moved out but can seem to cut the ties and sig the forms. I don't love my husband he is a terrible spouse and very emotionally abusive and at times physically abusive.

All this started in March 2020 when my husband laid hands on me.  I tried to forgive him, talk it though have couples therapy but non e of that played out. i am very traumatize by him. Hearing him walk and talk makes my stomach sink. I have had to on an antidepressant.

I have an 8yo child who saw my husband lay hands on me and the consequential depression. I moved out for short times and i feel better like a load is lifted in some way. not constant triggers but i miss me son. He doesn't want to come with me. He wants to stay in his home and school.  The lawyer says his abuse is difficult to prove as for my son it isn't really physical. I feel terrible without myself and guilty for leaving him. So i come back but im not functional instantly depressed. I need to leave but i dont know how to live with myself if my son isnt with me. 

We are an interracial couple - im white he's asian. I work about 2 hours away so I wont stay near our family home is not marriage to him. Seeking advice support and maybe a push to wrap this up. 

I'm so sorry to hear you are going through this! No one should feel like that and no man should behave like that. 

If he did it in front of the kid, that's even more horrible. You need to file whether he agrees or not. Just get out of that situation and get your kid out. Staying in a bad relationship is worse than being a single parent by far.

Talk to a lawyer, get your affairs in order, get the hell out.

I wish you so much better in the future.