I'm Dying Inside.. Help me Please

[heartonfire]

Umm ok here's the story, fell in love with this girl she used to be in my chemistry class and she's quite possibly the prettiest girl in my school. We've not spoken for a very very long time now.(a whole school year) but we still have weird encounters. Last year her friend used to keep asking me things during the chemistry period (I presumed it was her curiosity and interest but she never ever said anything to me) When I did speak to her I broke up like a kid I am when it comes to love.

The funny thing is this year she isn't even in a single class of mine. The only time I see her is during the first 15 mins of the day where we check in to school.

I know its love because its been over one year now another girl really liked mea nd tried everyday but my heart felt so numb even though there's nothing wrong with her.

The girl I liked I thought she wasn't interested in me. I didn't go to the prom because of her and she didn't show up infront of me for the next 4 days.

Then at the end of a school term on the last day of school for some reason we couldn't help noticing each other. I actually turned for no specific reason each time and saw her there or felt her. It's weird It's like I know she's there at every instant and now I fall in back in love with her even more deeply that my heart hurts so bad for no reason at all I feel so much pain. She tried to walk my way on the last day of that term and perhaps hit a connection but I was hurting to much I just walked away. I know her friends seem to be looking at me and I seem to see that as well. She came and sat right in front of me the hardest bit is she hasn't ever said anything to me aswell and neither have I. I'm not really good, I lose all my confidence and become so insecure as I'm not the kind of guy who talks to girls a lot. But there's just something in her that no one makes feel the way she does. Heck I wake up thinking of her.

I know she thinks of me too. Problem is she's extremely pretty but that's not what I like her for and another problem is the girl I fell in love before her played with me (she was with another guy but kept it from me) and then I moved countries and now here I am. I'm not sure what I'm going to tell her after I get past telling her how much I feel for her but I know that doesn't matter..

 

Somebody help me.

[allaboutchoices]

What exactly do you base your feelings on?!

Before you spill out your feelings, ask her out and see how it goes.

Your feelings might change as you get to know her.

[heartonfire]

Everything about her. Her personality what I can't seem to find in anyone else, everything about her as a person the warmth she brings. She's a dancer and music touches me like nothing else. I'm addicted to music. She actually came and sat right next to me last year but never said anything and neither did I. When I used to tap on the table and move my feet to the music she used to do it subtly as If trying to get my attention. She now sits behind me. If I could get around to going up to her again, it would all fall into place. She's been waiting for me as well, I've just got a lot of other problems in life that keeps bringing me down. And now when she's actually doing everything all the signs and everything I feel cold and numb inside. We've actually ended up wearing the same coloured clothes alot for on the same day to a very precise detail of colour and pattern and I've got a lot of clothes and so does she. Everyone seems to know the way we feel for her. I just wanted her to say anything to me but it doesn't seem that its going to be that easy. If I do tell her how I feel about her, I'm afraid that my insecurities with life that's been keeping me down for a while may cause me to lose her and being in a new country and new school its even worse. Reason why I'm asking help on a forum atm.

[allaboutchoices]

Like I said, ask her out. You won't get a chance unless you take a chance.

I wouldn't rush with telling her about how you feel, that might come across a bit creepy. Nothing wrong with telling her you like her, but I would keep the deep ones insideand save it for better times.

ASK HER OUT

[heartonfire]

I've got like two weeks left in high school and we have both applied for college somewhere I don't know where she's going and in november my final exams begin. Boy this is getting harder than it seems. Umm yea I guess what I'm lacking at this moment is the confidence to pull this off and not worry about this if I can this off my head.

How do you reckon I go around breaking the more than a year long silence.

Where and when do I ask her or tell her how I feel? Do I wait for her 2 leave the class and ask her in the corridor. Do I write stuff on a paper and give it to her as welll? Flip..I'm scared that I've turned her away so many times now that she might just walk away but then again she's come back to me after more than a year.

[allaboutchoices]

Obviously you have nothing to lose here.

Find time where you are alone and ask her. I wouldn't count on relationship since you both are going to different colleges, but if nothing else you can stay in touch and then who knows. Life has funny surprises for everyone.

I still wouldn't tell her all of your feelings.

[heartonfire]

I don't know where she is going.

[heartonfire]

thanks anyways.. Time for me to cross the bridge.

[heartonfire]

But I think she feels the way I do. She's just so similar to me as a person. She likes me that says a lot.

[allaboutchoices]

You won't find out unless you ask!

Get her email while on a date . Btw wouldn't that be the perfect break; if you don't know what to talk about, just ask her about the college she is headed to

[heartsonfire]

I'm writing her a letter. P.S I've been on a date before. Go easy on me. I'm like a kid when it comes to this matter. (I'm 18)

How do I deal with someone who is the prettiest girl in school and going on a date. Oh I don't drive either and I think she does :S

Where to? How much do I spend? Email hmm yea... sure If i get past not stammering like an idiot.

[heartonfire]

I'm writing her a letter. P.S I haven't been on a date before. Go easy on me. I'm like a kid when it comes to this matter. (I'm 18)

How do I deal with someone who is the prettiest girl in school and going on a date and who isn't what you'd expect one of the prettiest girls in school to be like. Oh I don't drive either and I think she does :S

Where to? How much do I spend? Email hmm yea... sure If i get past not stammering like an idiot.

[heartonfire]

Ok I wrote her this letter and gave it to her friend who gave it to her today. When I saw her afterwards pass by me she looked nervous and uneasy and sort of went the other way. Am I doomed for good? Or give it time or really did I **** this up?

[Ruff Ryder]

tell me something? Is this a school romance or not? How often do you see this girl?

 

I have on many occasions been shy but i read a few books did some reashearch and the way things turn out is she might not want to talk to you however ATTRACTION is something that is out of her controll. The trick is you have to make her feel attracted to you (and NO you dont have to be brad pitt)

 

The biggest mistake most guys make is that they ARNT them selfs when arround or talking to girls we feel that we have to impress girls by saying and doing thing that are out of character.

 

Picture this 10 girls a day come up to you to pick ypu up but all of them do and act the same how boaring? Maybe it will be fun for a while but after lets say 2 weeks you will never want another girl to approach you not so?

 

Now out of no where comes this girl who is 100% natral BANG there is attraction.

 

So next time you see this girl just be yourself and hey maybe just ignor her for a day or 2 that will set the mood. Then be yourself be causal dont try to impress her keep it natrual. Keep her laughing that is the best if you make her laugh you will stand a far better chance.

 

Give it a bash let me know how it goes. Ive beem in your shoes so just chill and be relaxed. Also keep a bit secrititive about yourself thats always good.

 

Have a good one

 

Ruff Ryder

[heartonfire]

Guess what the note i wrote her i passed to her friend to give it to her whom i trusted, and guess what seems like the whole high school knows what I've written in it and on the last day of week at the start of day she doesnt show up to class which is today , ha man am i stupid to think that she could like me ****.. what was i thinking i mean... what.. pfft wat the hell life goes on.. I think

She hasnt even replied to my note which I gave to her (whom I thought I could trust sigh)on wednesday how Fu*k*ed up is that

The funny bit is I meant everyword I wrote in it and seems like everyone knows the words to that letter. She must really not like me.. not even a reply sigh.!

[heartonfire]

Never Trust A Letter/note With Someone Besides The Person Who You Want To Give It To>> Seriously Trust Me On This One<<< Rather Give It To Her In Person Or Don"t<<<

[blue16]

How bout don't give notes to a girl you're interested in, in the first place? Stop blaming her friend and take responsibility.

 

Next time you're interested, talk to her in person and don't hide behind a note/email. You never get a clear answer back. Like what are you expecting? Her to write a long note detailing why she isn't interested, or what?