I have an addiction to pain pills

[Juliet]

I wish and pray I can kick this habit. I feel so guilty when I am around those who love me because I know I am slowly killing myself. It's not fair to do to them. My BF is going to try to help me...but thingss are already stressful with our relationship. I worry that my ever changing moods from cutting back will hurt us more. I don't want to quit cold turkey because of the side affects. I never get a high or feel drunk off them. I take them to feel normal.

[jadedalways645]

I know what you are going through. For 4 years, I was a heroin addict and I know the desperation that comes with something as serious as that. The sickness is something terrible and I would not wish it on my worst enemy. I don't know how it is on pain pills, but on heroin, take the worst flu you ever had, multiply it by a thousand and you are still nowhere near it. But you have to ask yourself one question. Just how bad do you want to quit? Until you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you want to stop, you never will. I lost three of my best friends to overdoses and two of them died in my lap and that was enough to make me stop. But everyone has a different level of tolerance that they can take. No matter how much treatment you get, it will not matter until you decide that enough is enough. I did quit cold turkey, but it was not easy and if my girlfriend was not there, I would not have made it. You have to ask yourself, what is more important? The ones you love or the pills? If you post your progress, I will monitor it and will give you advice on things you can do to help. Just know that you can not quit until you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you want quit. Good luck to you.

[JosiePosie]

Your post caught my eye as I just broke up with someone who has an addiction to codeine and sleeping pills. He didn't tell me until we moved into together. If I didn't notice the empty pill bottles, I would have never been unable to tell he had an addiction. Maybe it is a way for him to feel normal as well.

 

When he said that he is going to quit, I told him that I would support him as long as he actively recovers, not to hide things, and talk to me when the tough gets going. A few months later, I found that he picked up a new prescription of sleeping pills. I don't know if his addiction was one of the reasons he needed space, but when I moved my things out of the apartment, I found a new supply of pills.

 

Anyway, I hope you are able to seek the help needed.

[westernxer]

You might need to check in somewhere so you can detox, or just wean yourself off of them (could take weeks, or months).

[99teggsr]

I am on day 4 of detoxing myself from Herion. How many, and what kind of pills are you taking every day ? are they OC's, vikes, percs ? If they are vikes or percs your liver is probably shot from eating all that acemetophan. Either way, you gotta ween yourself down to a small habit, then quit cold turkey. Or you could go on suboxone or 'done for the rest of your life.

 

 

after 3 days cold turkey isnt all that bad, you can do it!