CantDecide... Posted October 18, 2005 Share Posted October 18, 2005 hey guys i posted this in the coping section, but got not feedback, maybe its more of a second chance forum things Hey i havent really posted in a while, but latly i have been pretty good. if anybody knows my story, or parts of it, been apart for 3 months now. been doing Nc for a month but its been strict NC for 2 weeks. Im not really sure why im having a rough day, well actually i do. the other night i ran into my oldfriend the guy she hooked up with infront of me at a keg party. Him and i never spoke untill 2 nights ago. The conversatiion between me and him basically evaned things out, he apologized prefusely, and said what i did u just dont do to somebody who ur friends with or who u usto be. I said well yea it was messed up but w/e. He then said and man when that happened we were drunk, were not gonan be hooking up again, i dont want to do that to you. Then he asked if i thought me and ***** were ever gonan get back together. i said u know man, i dont know, w/e is ment to happens happens. He then told me u know ive become good friends with her and after talkign to you tonight., hes like theres still something between you guys, just the way she talks about you, and the way u talk about her. I then kinda opened up to him, (alcohol) and just told him that u know i am moving on but i still am in love with her and just wish she knew how mcu hi know i screwed up, and how much ive tried to be a better guy. and hes like u know man i dunno why but i wanan tell her what ursaying, hes like i feel like i owe it to you to say this to her after what i did. and im like well u can tell her how i feel or not, but this is how i feel. I just feel wierd now. Now i just want to call her but im not going to. I want to look at her myspace, i want to read her xanga. But i know none of this will do anything for me except put me at day 1 all over again. i dont know if he said anything to her about my feelings, i dont knwo what her reaction is, or was. i just know i love the girl like crazy, and evan though ive been going out, clubbing hanging with a lot of girls, i just know at night when i go to bed shes the one i think about. not as much as before, but its still there. Anbody have opinions or advice?? Link to post Share on other sites
Free At Last Posted October 18, 2005 Share Posted October 18, 2005 Maybe I'm wrong, but it sounds like you were using this guy to communicate something to her that you weren't strong enough to tell her yourself? Then again, would it really make any difference if you did tell these things to her yourself? I don't think people get back together based on just love necessarily. As the saying goes 'love isn't enough'. She probably knows how you feel... (??). But what else is there that is holding you two back from being with eachother? Have you worked to resolve the original issues that came up between you to cause the break? This can definitely be done on your own, and will make you a better person..... and then next time you see her, you will have something more to offer than what she already knows, which is that you care about her. Good luck! Link to post Share on other sites
Author CantDecide... Posted October 18, 2005 Author Share Posted October 18, 2005 well her goes, broke up in end of june, becasue iwas neglecting her, and more or less just got bored of eachother. when she was gone i relized how much she ment and i spent all sumemr showing her, like we hung out everyday, talked on hpone, only kissed once, i took her to movies, to diner, was there for her, spent hours recording this song i wrote her a long time ago, and pout it on cd for her b-day i tried to show her how much i care, but she finally was just like i jusyt dont wantto be in a relationship anymore, so i relzied i have to do NC, and i have been, weve talked here or there but only becasue issues arose. she was very hurt and pissed i told her i couldnt be friends anymore, then we saw eachother at a party, she hookdd up with somebody in my face, and i was a mess. she knows how i feel, i love her like crazy, i wantto be with her, shes in her wild stage right now but so am i, i have been clubbing hanging with newe girls, hooking up a lil, but i still miss her at the end of the night, i dont go to her myspace, i dont go to her xanga, i dont check her Sn to see if shes on.. i just want to call her and be with her, but right now were both dooing are own things, but i still miss her like crazy. and the kid that i spoke with said things like i think u guys are gonan get back, the way u guys still talk about eachother blahdy dy blahdy dah. im just so confused and such a mess a ll over again. andbody got any words Link to post Share on other sites
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