John Grogan Posted August 18, 2021 Share Posted August 18, 2021 My dad is dying. The story is as stupid as it can be. Call it bad luck. Dad, 66, was an semi healthy man, had nothing bad, just some Tuberculosis in his youth days. He managed to stay afara from COVID, however, in october, grandma, his mother in law, had suffered an accident and a few days later, while recuperating at my parents home, her hidden dementia kicked off. There were 4 hours of horror for both of my parents. We managed to take her to a care home where she is well now, but after that moment, dad was never the same. First he had a swollen body, then water on the lungs, then both. He was in and out of the hospital 6 or 7 times. More of half of these happenend after he talked with doctors and got so scared his body started to fail him. Finally the results came and they told him he had pericarditis and needed to take a surgery. Last monday he got check in for the surgery. It was supposed to be last tuesday, but they couldn't find places at the ICU so he had to wait. Saturday his colleagues from the hospital room told him he slept agitated and I (my intuition) think they told him they were afraid he was suffocating. That was it for him, he started again having a panic attack and he was intubated. He can't breath without the machines. He was operated monday, but he still can't breath without machines and from my discussion with the medics there, no one came back from his situation. Last night talked with his family doctor and she told me she is certain that the delay is the reason this happen. As I am writing this, I am trying to stay sane, cry and be a rock for mum. But I cannot take it anymore. I was not ready for this. He called on saturday and asked me to call him back when I arrived home and I didn't, that was my last interaction with him. Now we just wait, probably for his body part to collaps one by one, all because of stress, all because of this stupid night. Link to post Share on other sites
d0nnivain Posted August 18, 2021 Share Posted August 18, 2021 I am so sorry you are going through this. The death of a loved one is very difficult. He's not dead yet. He could still pull through. Don't give up hope just yet but do prepare yourself. Tell him you love him. Give him permission to go if it's his time. Be there for mom. When I lost my parents, my faith got me through. Although I had been raised in a religious household, my faith was not that strong until after my mother's final days. Death is a part of life. Somehow we muddle through 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author John Grogan Posted August 18, 2021 Author Share Posted August 18, 2021 (edited) I am torn of the idea to see him. I made a request at the hospital that is pending approval (because of COVID), but he is sedated. Not sure if I want to see him like this, not sure if it will be fair for mum to see him like this. I am not ready to let him go because it's not fair. He is still young, it is a stupid way to die, to be killed by a collapsing medical system and by your own fears. Edited August 18, 2021 by John Grogan Link to post Share on other sites
d0nnivain Posted August 18, 2021 Share Posted August 18, 2021 Go see him. You will deeply regret it if you don't. Kiss him before you can't anymore. Link to post Share on other sites
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