canadian87 Posted August 28, 2021 Share Posted August 28, 2021 (edited) Reading a lot about personalities and depression problems I got to know more about covert narcissism and I am afraid I could be the one. I feel like I can't have any longer happy relationship. I usually get bored with people, I love attention, I am shy and reserved to speak about my problems, sometimes I cannot expres the anger directly but with passive agressive behaviour meaning withdrawing from relationship without explaining etc... I find myself unworthy, have very law selfesteem and usualy wondering why would anybody be with me and love me, so at the begining of the new friendship or relationship I feel like I have to FAKE my personality. I don't tell lies but I present myself as confident and secure person knowing what I want and what I can give but under that "mask" is my unsecure and suspicious self, always in fear that person can find me unatractive, boring or unworthy and could find someone better whic make me feel jealouse and in need to control the others to ask different people about them, look inside their phone to see if there are some profs they are cheating or planning to leave me etc etc. If I think they are going to dump me, I dump them first. That unsecurity ruins my relationships and when I cannot feel that secure I just leave making the ex partner wondering why didn't I try harder and why they couldn't make me happy. Two of my exes told me they felt drawned with me, it was impossible to make a stronger relation, I had trust issues and jealousy. I miss some of my exes but I know I shouldn't ask any of them for a second chance because I somehow think I will behave the same way and its more safe to stay single. Does this have any sence, am I the onlyone feeling that whay and how can I help myself if thats even possible. Edited August 28, 2021 by canadian87 Link to post Share on other sites
Wiseman2 Posted August 28, 2021 Share Posted August 28, 2021 42 minutes ago, canadian87 said: I usually get bored with people, I love attention, I am shy and reserved to speak about my problems, sometimes I cannot express the anger directly but with passive aggressive behaviour meaning withdrawing from relationship without explaining etc... Ok. Rather than trendy diagnoses, get to a physician about your anxiety, anger and depression. Start there. Then, get a referral to a qualified licensed therapist who can work with you on real issues and real diagnoses. Interpersonal problems with people and relationships can indicate any number of underlying mood or personality disorders. Link to post Share on other sites
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