Ex's apology - unsure of his intensions and what he's hoping to achieve

[hannabolics95]

Ex has apologised many times before. His most recent was that he understands I won't find this satisfying, that he does feel horrible about what happened. That I didn't deserve it and my pure-heartedness makes him feel more guilty. That he wronged me and I didn't deserve it. Nor does he expect me to forgive him. Then he went onto say a few other things which he believes I may have misrepresented him and that the bad intentions I thought he had, aren’t exactly true. He continued.. I appreciate however this has probably been my way of expressing my hurt. He hopes I'm in a better place, that I'm very special and deserve all the happiness in the world. I plan on not responding. I'm finding this very difficult to work around. 

[elaine567]

Did he make contact with you or did you make the first move?

[Wiseman2]

22 minutes ago, hannabolics95 said:

Ex has apologised many times before. . He hopes I'm in a better place, 

Were you in a bad place/depressed? What does he mean by that?

Replied in your other thread on this identical issue:

 

[hannabolics95]

14 minutes ago, elaine567 said:

Did he make contact with you or did you make the first move?

Since the break up or regarding that message? 

[hannabolics95]

5 minutes ago, Wiseman2 said:

Were you in a bad place/depressed? What does he mean by that?

Replied in your other thread on this identical issue:

 

I think I just took the break up hard. However, he apparently did as well too, telling me numerous times that it's been very difficult for him and he has teared up quite a bit since. I think we both have equally possibly taken it as hard but I've expressed it through, long, sad and arguably angry messages to him. 

[Wiseman2]

2 minutes ago, hannabolics95 said:

 I've expressed it through, long, sad and arguably angry messages to him. 

Yikes. Stop. That's no good.

[Alpacalia]

2 hours ago, hannabolics95 said:

That he wronged me and I didn't deserve it.

How did he wrong you exactly? 

[elaine567]

2 hours ago, hannabolics95 said:

Since the break up or regarding that message? 

I guess he broke up with you is that correct?
Does he keep reaching out to you, or do you contact him first?
If you went total NC, would you ever hear from him again?

[hannabolics95]

12 minutes ago, elaine567 said:

I guess he broke up with you is that correct?
Does he keep reaching out to you, or do you contact him first?
If you went total NC, would you ever hear from him again?

I tried to end it at one point but he really pulled the plug and broke things off yes. I would say our contact is pretty even. Sometimes he initiates more, sometimes I have. He has been the one who has offered for us to catch up and talk, but I've declined as I don't think he was interested at getting back together then. Good question - it does concern me if I went full NC and never heard from him again. However, he knows. A few months ago we both agreed that if we ever reconsider the relationship, it's once we're in a better place. So he knows where to find me and I sort of made it clear that I'm only interested in catching up if we're both interested at trying at the relationship. 

[Nothanks]

You are still hung up on this guy.  You won’t move forward until you cease contact and give yourself space to fully detach. Right now you are in a strange limbo where you aren’t together but keep an emotional connection alive. It will negatively impact any other relationship you try to have and stop you from moving on.