Heartbrokengay Posted October 25, 2021 Share Posted October 25, 2021 My story is long and complicated. I am a gay man. I have been in a pretty toxic relationship for 4 years. A lot of bad things had happened and we had a lot of breakups and makeups. We just had a breakup a week ago. This one seems different in a few ways but the same in other ways. We block each other in every way. He started texting me a few days later like usual being mean. Mad because he heard that I had made plans to leave state for awhile. Then silence. The thing is I still love him and want to be back with him(my toxic trait I know). So I let my emotions get the best of me and text and email him. Today I called him from a text app and he hung up but then called me right back. The conversation did not go well..he told me he didn't love me or hate me and that he didn't want to talk to me right now. He makes sure I know that he isn't seeing anyone as a matter of fact he told me he was with my cousin when I questioned him. But he told me he used to love me but just didn't now. I want to be with him and I feel like I'm dying inside. Any help to deal with this? And I know I shouldn't care but I do and can't seem to get over my feelings. Link to post Share on other sites
ShyViolet Posted October 25, 2021 Share Posted October 25, 2021 You're right, this relationship sounds completely toxic. It's not normal to keep breaking up over and over. If you keep breaking up repeatedly then that's a huge sign that the relationship needs to end for good. This is just going to keep happening. Link to post Share on other sites
ExpatInItaly Posted October 26, 2021 Share Posted October 26, 2021 On 10/25/2021 at 2:47 AM, Heartbrokengay said: Any help to deal with this? And I know I shouldn't care but I do and can't seem to get over my feelings. It might be time to seek some professional counselling. This relationship sounds horrid, so you will likely benefit from seeking some guidance as to why you have these unhealthy habits, and how to leave this mess behind you for good. This isn't what love looks like. Link to post Share on other sites
glows Posted October 26, 2021 Share Posted October 26, 2021 On 10/24/2021 at 5:47 PM, Heartbrokengay said: But he told me he used to love me but just didn't now. I want to be with him and I feel like I'm dying inside. Any help to deal with this? And I know I shouldn't care but I do and can't seem to get over my feelings. This sounds very painful. Thank him for the honesty and don't reach out anymore. Caring/not caring or the way you feel is not always a choice but you can choose how you wish to act or react. If you're feeling anxious and afraid, take deep breaths and think of things you need to do for the day. Focus on things you can change and improve or alter in your life. Bit by bit things will become clearer and the fog will lift. Don't keep contacting him, especially someone who's telling you these things. Link to post Share on other sites
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