Another issue with my husband!

[Allie21]

Ive grown up as a Christian women, and my husband said he is a believer. i mean I can see it sometimes but sometimes i don’t marriage life has challenges and some misunderstandings sometimes but as the way his treating me in times just I felt he is not a christian he is very quick to get mad, he shouts at me, making me feel stupid, especially when he ask something me he would tell me are you blind, deaf, or like did you really graduated in college how could you be that stupid! , or he would say why it took you so long to look for it, its literary just in your face. I am so sensitive hearing all this words makes me feel so low bout my self, my self esteem becomes so low, and also he would say sorry for all but he just keeps doing it again and again whenever he needs something or ask me for things or when hes mad. 
and here’s the thing every time we have sex he keeps telling me he wants to have another guy to make love with me and hearing those just make me out of excitement when we make love. I asked him many times not to say it but still he will. 
 And there’s one time he took a sausage in the fridge and use it and put it inside my private area without my consent, I mean don’t get me wrong I know some couples wants to use this kind or do this kind of things but I don’t, 

so that time instead of having good time with him and when I knew he was using a sausage I then stopped it and Idk why I felt so much in pain in my heart like why does he needs to do that. 
he was addicted to porn before by the way but now he is not watching it just wondering probably this is all his imagination before. 
 

every time he talks bout sex or he wants I honestly don’t don’t feel excited to it. there are times that I refused a lot of times and doesn’t make me excited at all anymore. 

pls advise me what should I do with this! 
married 3 yrs has 15mos old bb, i felt like I fell out of love for him. 

[glows]

Others already told you how disrespectful your husband is. He's also abusive. Speak with a lawyer in private and look at battered or abused/domestic abuse shelters in your area if you cannot turn to friends and family. Belittling you and verbally abusing you is emotional abuse.