Miserable

[ShatteredGlassHeart]

My depression and anxiety have been the worst it's ever been. I'm completely withdrawn, unmotivated, lethargic, hopeless. 

I just recently lost my grandfather and my relationship with my ex ended (I have a thread about that on my profile) so those definitely added to it.

All I do anymore is seek people to talk to online. I just feel it's easier and less anxiety for me. I know I get stuck in this pattern but I have no one else to talk to.

I am starting a new therapy tomorrow so yes, I will discuss this with them.

Just want anyone else who feels like this to know they aren't alone. 

[Foxhall]

Sounds like your going through a lonely time,

loneliness can be a tough one to bear

main thing you are above ground anyway, life is precious,

Yes reach out to people in whatever way you can, online contacts are something I suppose,

try to think about going back out into society also, at your own pace, 

have you any old friends you could turn too, they may be more open than you realise.

it is good to talk.

[ShatteredGlassHeart]

I don't like to burden my friends or family with my issues. They have enough going on themselves. I'll be starting medication tomorrow and have talked with my psychiatrist about possible in-treatment care.