Starting my no contact with my ex

[Instantme]

I really miss him, we would always argue or be so up and down but I don’t know I miss him still. He said he still loves me but he’s confused about his feelings and the future with me and that really hurt because we have been on and off so much and I really thought this time around we would be better but for him to be confused about me when I’m so sure about him it really hurt. However I know that he maybe too immature for a relationship or doesn’t have the capacity to have the emotional intelligence to be with me. He is 25 and I’m 30, still I really miss him. I’ve blocked his number because I don’t want him to contact me right now but there is a part of me that has a glimmer of hope that he will contact me on my email and tell me he’s changed and he will commit to me… Everytime we breakup and or he feels like he has to walk away because maybe he feels too much pressure he always comes back. I don’t know what the right thing to do is, I think I should let him go and get over him as we are just going in a loop but I second guess myself and I feel like I did push him away and I may have put too much pressure on him. However I also feel like anyone who wants to be with you truly wouldn’t be confused and need to walk away. 
 

I just don’t know if it was my fault or his or if we can reconcile but it really hurts that he wanted to walk away. I thought we would at least talk about it.

Can anyone relate to me? 

[glows]

Yes, of course. It takes awhile to recover after a break up. When either one of you cave within weeks or months it’s out of loneliness and withdrawal. It has nothing to do with actually liking or wanting to be with that person.

Be gentle with yourself and allow those emotions but react to none of them. the kindest thing you can do is accept when someone isn’t as invested or interested in you the same way you are in them. Focus on other tangible aspects of your life and stay productive. Anticipate these emotions. There’s no avoiding them. Ride the waves, so to speak, and let yourself go through those stages of grief.

[stillafool]

How long ago did you break up and how long was your relationship?

[ExpatInItaly]

5 hours ago, Instantme said:

 However I also feel like anyone who wants to be with you truly wouldn’t be confused and need to walk away. 

This is key. 

When someone is confused about their feelings, in my experiece, it's often because they know that you're a good person and good catch on paper - but they just don't have the right feelings for you to sustain a relationship anymore. 

It's hurtful but the right person for you won't involve so many on-off moments. It's best to let him go so you can one day find a guy who is sure about you.