Wont stop getting online and cheating

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I'm sorry this is long but please someone give me advice I really really need it.

 

I'm 20 years old and I just had our son in August. Aaron and I have been together since I was 16 soI dont have alot of experience in long term relationships, really this is my first. When we were younger we used to go out more. He is a little bit older. We actually met out of a chat room as stupid as that is.

 

Anyway he continued to use aol throughout our relationship, A friend told me he was on really late at night talking to a bunch of girls in rooms. Well he ended up talking to him online pretending to be a girl ( I know this sounds childish) anyway he ende up saying he was single and giving out his number really easy. This happened again and again and to be honest I put up with it because I didnt have any other friends, I was new to the area and I didnt know anyone else. I liked hanging out with him and I loved him.

 

Anyway he would promise to stop. He kept doing it I would find numbers he would say it was nothing just talk and then he would delete his aol account then he would make up a different name. I thought things stopped he swore he would stop we kept breaking up and getting back together. When I was 18 we moved in together, there wasnt really room for me at home and I wanted to be independent. Well we didnt have a computer and but he had AIM on his phone and of course made up another screen name at his parents house. OneHotGuy4u82...... anyway he kept picking fights with me and this is what he does when he is up to something anyway, I barrowed his phone and he had a little AIM icon in the top corner and I checked out his text messages and some girl was "really horny" and wanted to give him a lap dance.

 

Well of course I confronted him but where was I going to go? I could stay with a friend but not forever. I kept putting up with it. He started to go to bars and give me flaky stories about where he had been. girls numbers kept popping up in his phone, He didnt hide it. I kept asking who is Tonya who is so and so. oh jsut friends from school. At this time at work I had a friend, Neil. He told me that he was going trough the same thing with his girlfriend she was horriable and he was stuck jsut like me, he would tell me how pretty I was and how I was so great and deserved better.... he even told me he was falling in love with me, I thought I was too. he told me he wanted to be together but he was going to the marines and when he got back "he wanted to marry me". I slept with him twice.

 

I thought I finally had my way out that I wouldn't be alone. He was so nice opposite of Aaron. I really fell for him. then I found out that it was one big lie, he used me. He never broke up with his girlfriend. I found out that he used the same BS on another girl we worked with and was sleeping around with anyone who was stupid enough to beleive him. A huge liar. So then I went back to aaron ( he doesn't know about this) i forgave him because Iwas up to no good either, I'm not innocent.

 

Well a month later I see if his aol account is active and it is. I demand his password, he gives me the wrong one first to by him sometime. When I finally get the right password everything his delted but if you go to recently deleted files you can see everything which I did and He got on adult dating websites, like adultfriend fidner, meet me hot ornot and the list goes on. I could see in his e-mail that he told girls he wanted to "see their fine ass bodies up close and gave out his cell number over and over to strangers" He was going to sleep with strangers and paid for these sites 25 bucks a month while I work overtime trying to pay my half of rent.

 

Anyway I moved all my stuff out when he was in jail. I slapped him when he tried to deny it (i'm usually not violent but I was so upset", he called the cops, they arrested him because earlier in the day he pushed me down trying to get my phone so I couldn't leave. my friend and her family and friends helped me move in like an hour and all my stuff was in my car and I stayed with her for a few days and then I went home and my dad told me I could stay there and he would move to my grandmas which he never did, he would just sleep on the couch, i told him I would but he wouldn't let me, he had back problems and he couldnt get any sleep I ended up going back to my apartment with Aaron.

 

We ended getting back together, I ended up finding out I was pregnant and we gave it another shot. But when I was pregnant he went back to his old ways and now i'm really stuck, I gave up my car my job and we are living with his parents because we cant afford rent anymore. I'm a full time student, I want to be a nurse, I cant go to school full time and work and take care of our son on my own. I need him. He got online today and told me he talked dirty to this girl because he couldnt' help it and then since we shared an account he suggested changing it. We did and then I questioned him on why???? he then confessed because I kept asking him jsut to be honest for once with me. He was and now i'm really upset again.

 

Should I stay and try to get an education and then I can afford to make it on my own. If I leave now then I'm never going to be able to go back to school full time.