No Contact Support Thread. Post here instead of contacting your ex.

[Onajourneynow]

In my drawer, sits the card that came with flowers you bought me a long time ago. It says "Love you forever." I guess forever's come and gone...

 

And tomorrow is Valentine's day. I keep dreaming that you'll drive to see me and tell me you love me, but I know it won't happen. The morning after I'm leaving on a flight... and I know I'll feel sad, knowing that the prior day was closure. That you didn't care to show your love.

 

I hope it won't tarnish my vacation. I won't let it... I'll try to make as many friends as possible, and keep busy. Hit the gym, the steamroom, and wash away all this pain and toxicity.

 

You're leaving my mind, body, and soul.

[szy123]

Hi Guys. My break up 1,5month ago. NC 5 days. Today is valentine's day . She going out with her new boyfriend. I'm devastated as ****. I can't stand it ...

[Draper]

Well ****, I wish I wasn't posting here again. It just sucks today is valentines day and all so this time a year ago I met your folks for the first time and really it was the first time I had a real relationship for valentines day so I remember how thrilled I was experience it.

 

I still have no idea what went through your head when you decided to end it, since you never gave me an ounce of honesty when you ended it (which was pretty cowardly imo). All I know is that you moved in with a guy you cheated on me with less than 2 months after you dumped me. Like everyone, I've been treated ****ty by different people over the course of my life but i have to say that this was hands down the most hurtful, humiliating, and disrespectful thing I can even imagine having pulled on me.

 

I was always worried about him in particular but you always assured me my worrying was unfounded. Hell, you almost made me feel like I was some kind of paranoid freak. Turns out I wasn't crazy after all, I guess? In any case I'm still disgusted at the way you ended things and the way you moved on, telling me over and over that the breakup wasn't forever when it has since become abundantly clear that you knew exactly what you wanted to do.

 

I still to this day wonder why you told me all that when you dumped me. Why lie? Why tell me you wanted to keep talking or that it wasn't forever if you had no intention of doing either? Why tell me how much you care about me and that you 'still see a future with me' when you clearly planned on shacking up with that dickbag?

 

I know those questions will never be answered, but they haunt me from time to time and lately I'm terrified that they'll never stop haunting me. I just wish I could erase you from my thoughts but it's not so easy to forget betrayal or losing someone who you would have given everything for.

 

I've spent a lot of time feeling like I lost some competition to the other guy, which implies that your the prize. I see much more clearly now that you certainly aren't a prize, and I didn't lose anything. I'll admit this whole thing has really destroyed my confidence and I'm still working on it but I do know that I didn't do anything to deserve this, and it will be your loss in the end. I treated you great, and you even gave the old 'you treat me like gold and i dont deserve it' garbage when you ended it. In the future I'll be more careful who I treat like gold, but I know there is someone out there waiting for me who will respect me and our relationship rather than hop over to the next new thing.

 

In hindsight you weren't even a good girlfriend, and you definitely aren't wife material, for me anyways.

[mariababy]

Yesterday I was convinced I had let you go. I was in a good mood. However today, I woke up feeling depressed again. Why am I feeling that way? I realise I still yearn for your messages, despite the fact you have moved on and put this behind. How can I be like you and let go too? I think I am more upset over the way you broke up with me than anything else.

[Onajourneynow]

I sit here in the hotel room, crying because I loved you so much. Why do the sweetest hearts always get crushed the most... I remember thinking that if the airplane I was sitting on this morning were to crash, I'd regret not telling you I love you. But the truth is, I told you in so many ways, so many tears, in my actions, that I did.

 

Why did you do this...

[DrMario]

It hurt seeing you today, you looked right through me and walked on by, it made me wake up to the fact that I really am a stranger to you now, I don't really mind anymore, I don't really want to be with somebody who doesn't want to be with me, I deserve better than how I was treated by you in the end, one day I'll find somebody who wants to spend time me and who appreciates the good things that I do, I never got that from you, no matter how hard I tried.

[whylovewhy7]

It has been 3 days. We said we would still be friends but we both know that won't every happen.

 

You were not at fault. I was the one who did not love you anymore. And to subdue my own pain, I made the break up as painful as possible so that there was no way back. You were clingy, and I felt we were both wasting our time. You knew I had secrets. You knew what they were. There was no more communication between us. Just snooping and lies and deceptions. I'm sorry I made you feel like you failed me. I'm sorry I made you feel like you could not save me from my addiction. My life and my lie were more important to you and I hate that for it. I want to kill myself for my stupid decisions. Now I have no one and I threw away everything that we had. Every lovely moments.

 

I wish that you would contact me. But I know I've destroyed you beyond repair.

[K2z]

I am free of the compulsive drinking. Getting off work in the morning and wondering how fast I can make it to a bottle of vodka.

 

I am free of drinking in the morning. Not even a thought of coffee or tea in the morning for fear it will jangle my nerves. These days I even drink coffee.

 

I am free of moment-to-moment obsession with you. I am free of wondering if you will come back to me, because you decided to betray me and latch on to the next most convenient thing to come along, replacing me like a pair of socks.

 

I am not free of the images of your wedding I saw on Facebook. They remain in my head till I die.

 

I am not free of the now and then stumbles into memory, when I would join you in Thailand and we would spend time together, and I would stack building blocks of hope for a future life together.

 

I am not free of the craving for the woman I thought you might be. Was she only in my imagination?

[Cora]

I miss you, I'm hurting, I'm heartbroken and I'm afraid that there's a part of me that will never get over you. I thought I knew you, but you're like a stranger to me now. I look at you and your new girl and you look so foreign to me holding her in your arms. I don't know you anymore. The man I thought I knew only had eyes for me. You lied to me and then you left me with no closure...no warning...no goodbye. How do you think that feels?

 

But you don't care.

 

I'm dead to you...

[K2z]

When I am alone, and not busy, and it gets quiet... that's when the pain comes.

 

Do you feel any of it? Is life just bliss for you? Am I garbage that has long since been hauled from the curb?

 

I bet you're pregnant by now. That was your agenda all along. Congratulations on raising little citizens of that puny, pukey European country. I bet you turn 80 without ever learning the language. I bet your husband turns 80 without ever successfully pronouncing your last name.

 

I will turn 80, and my heart will still ache. Thanks a whole lot, betrayer.

[Cora]

I had my first date tonight since you left me. It was nice for once to get my mind off of you if only for awhile. To feel that rush and excitement of getting to know someone new. I had a good time and I really like him. He cooked me dinner and it reminded me of that time you cooked for me. Damn...still so many reminders of you when I'm trying to move on. Why do you haunt me so? I don't haunt you so can't you just leave me alone? I should be sitting here still feeling the euphoria from my date, but instead all I can do is think of you and miss you. My darling I have to let you go. The dream of us is dead. You made that very clear. In my head I know it's over, but my heart is still lagging behind in what used to be the story of us. The memories of you make me so sad and my heart so heavy.

[K2z]

Go ahead. Offer me the red or the blue pill.

 

The red pill is never having met you in the first place. I'll swallow it before you can even finish your sentence.

[K2z]

I still love you so much.

 

He said, to the ceiling.

[fireflywy]

A year and change later, and I still think about everyday. Today I was watching a show where one of the women, also in LE looked so much like you that my heart dropped.

 

I wish I could go back to May of 14, there along the beach, in the moonlight, and just sit for a while knowing what I know now and how it was all going to end.

 

Wherever you are, I'm still loving you.

[DrMario]

I don't think you'll ever really know how much you have hurt me, you really put me through it over the last few months, you blamed me for everything when in fact I wasn't doing anything, I was terrified of you, you changed your mind about me constantly from one moment to the next, I couldn't open up to you anymore, if I did I would be broken up with and discarded, that's how you handled things, in the end I couldn't do anything, I couldn't enjoy myself without feeling guilty for it because everything I did wasn't approved of by you, even now I feel so anxious about accidentally bumping into you, not because I love you, not because I miss you, because your presence is frightening and I'm scared of what you would do to me if you ever came back into my life, I have one last hope, I hope that I never see your face again, for as long as I live.

[Onajourneynow]

You unblocked me on fb and whatsapp for a few days now. I sit and stare at my phone trying to figure out what to say to you but all there is silence.

 

The truth is that I love you very much, but you don't love me. I don't need that in my life. I want someone who loves me as much as I love him.

 

I deserved more than what you gave me. And I know that karma will come back around to bite you in the butt. You won't get away with breaking hearts for long.

 

It's my time to love myself and to find someone who loves and appreciates me as much as I do for myself.

 

Take care.

[Murek]

You unblocked me on fb and whatsapp for a few days now. I sit and stare at my phone trying to figure out what to say to you but all there is silence.

 

The truth is that I love you very much, but you don't love me. I don't need that in my life. I want someone who loves me as much as I love him.

 

I deserved more than what you gave me. And I know that karma will come back around to bite you in the butt. You won't get away with breaking hearts for long.

 

It's my time to love myself and to find someone who loves and appreciates me as much as I do for myself.

 

Take care.

 

 

Good for you to realise that your worth it!

Truly love the "I want someone who loves me as much as I love him"

 

Stay strong

[K2z]

My life bleeds from the moment you left. I cut off a fourth of my fingernail (unintentionally) while cooking the other day, and within 30 seconds I had a bandage on and was back to cutting. I suppose it's because of you that I learned that pain is a constant and there is nothing for it but to press ahead.

 

There's no particular succor to be found at the bottom of a bottle anymore. You have given me a strange gift in knowing that nothing, anywhere, can really be trusted... at least for the moment... there's only what I do, and what I can show. Intentions, thoughts, beliefs, plans are only so much vaporware.

[Onajourneynow]

Yesterday I unblocked you and said hi. You said you want me back. You then went into a big discussion about how much better I am compared to the woman you had a rebound relationship with. I was speechless.

 

At first I was happy, and then suddenly I was angry and depressed. I told you I wouldn't accept this treatment. After all those nights I spent wondering where and what you were doing, it appears you were in another person's arms.

 

I became so angry and so hurt. You could feel it. I couldn't take it anymore, and told you to go back to the other woman. To leave me alone.

 

I sit here and I wonder did I do the right thing? The pain was so immense last night that I kept thinking I wanted to end my life because the pain was so bad. I ended up going online and finding a therapist to speak to. Four words resounded in my head, "this too shall pass."

 

You told me you became so depressed about a month ago that you took antidepressants for three weeks. I believe the pain will hit you twice as hard as it did for me because you destroyed something beautiful.

 

I can't worry about you anymore. I can't wonder how you're doing anymore. I don't have the energy to keep tabs on you.

 

I can't care about you, anymore.

 

Good for you to realise that your worth it!

Truly love the "I want someone who loves me as much as I love him"

 

Stay strong

 

Thank you.

[benB]

Ugh, its only been a day since you broke up with me and I want to contact you so bad. I miss you so much, I wasn't ready to fall in love but I did and now I am hurt again. The pain is immense. I know contacting you will do no good so I wont, I've been down this road before and know what it takes to move on but man this is hard. Sigh

[sorano]

I think you really jumped the gun on this. you rushed it and broke up with me. You broke up with me when I was in pain on my bed bc of my back and said we stopped doing things. we weren't growing. How can you change your mind in two weeks. we were busy with the holidays, my back went out. what did you want to do??? where the hell did you want to go??? You can't be all sweet and ready for the long haul than in two weeks change. Thats bipolar ****.

 

My family treated you like one of our own. Like a daughter. You told me we were going to get married and do all this stuff. All lies. lies. You told me I was special. You were happy and you wanted to be with me. More lies.

 

Then one day out of the blue, we had a little argument, and you just dropped me. You told me you weren't scared to start over. How can you say that when you wrote me all those love letters, talked about marriage and kids, showed me rings. You dont care if you loose me? You are heartless.

 

You lied to me, dragged me along, and made me feel that I was the one. Lies.

 

I never met a woman like you before. You even told me in the beginning you were a handful. You were right. You are someone elses problem. I pray you don't break his heart how you did to me.

 

The gum that is stuck on the bottom of my shoes, is worth more than you. You came into my life and shook it apart. why did you have to come into my life with your lies and ruin it. You are heartless. I will light a candle for you because you need it. I will pray for you. Even though I would love to see you suffer alone for the rest of your life, I will still pray and hope god heals your soul.

[K2z]

I wait and I wait for a shoe that will never drop. I'm still in a state of disbelief. How could you possibly go like that. How long were you planning it. How deluded was I. How do I even begin to reclaim the ability to dream and love again. It feels shredded. I feel shredded.

[loveandhearts]

He's a 20 year old dude going on 21, and I'm a 19 year old girl who feels broken, lost, and alone. He would no doubt accept me if I agreed to hanging out as "best friends" and started coming on to him. I'm already lonely, in pain. Why can't I just feel his body again?

I could have never had enough of it if he didn't stop wanting me.

We just feel wonderful together, and he gets turned on so easily and instantly by me. All the way to the end of the relationship...maybe it had nothing to with me though.

It's only been like 2 days since we last saw each other and 4 since we broke up....it wouldn't be much of a setback. I just want to smell him and feel the intensity we always had.

Yes I sound like a weirdo, but I'm sure most of you can understand.

 

I feel like I won't find someone for a while. Before him I wasn't romantically involved with a guy for 3 years. Maybe it won't be as bad now because I'm 19 and stuff happens more easily? Even though I'm shy and anti-social, people at least find me attractive looking.

 

Even if, I think it will be a while until I can comfortably feel a guy's embrace. His body is safety to me. Why can't I?

[K2z]

The inner voice that weeps for you gets fainter. My autonomic systems have seized control of my brain chemistry like some kind of Central American coup d'etat, and I go out and date and laugh and joke whether I want to or not. Sometimes I wonder where the wit comes from. But like a sprained ankle, I ache for you. Like a missing tooth, I keep checking for you. Where you are missing in my life, and where you life may have gone. I am sad. This all makes me sad.

[Cora]

Just wanted to let you know you no longer rule my life and my thoughts. I've been on three amazing dates with an amazing man. A man who makes me forget about you and who makes me wonder what I ever saw in you or why I ever allowed myself to put up with the way you treated me. I no longer spend every waking moment thinking about you or crying over you. What a waste of tears when you don't even care. You've moved on long ago so why shouldn't I? My thoughts of you have been replaced with him. Of course I still miss you. I suppose there will be a place in my heart that always will, but I am no longer consumed by the hurt. I never thought I'd ever get there. I am finally able to see a bit of happiness again...that light at the end of the tunnel.