No Contact Support Thread. Post here instead of contacting your ex.

[flooded]

Am getting a little anxious as he's coming back into town today/tomorrow. We live in a teeny town of less than five-thousand people and would run into each other pretty regularly when we were dating (I had just moved here). There isn't really a way around it.

 

I'm also feeling some type of way that he hasn't called or texted since Saturday. I know I should block him but he said he would be in touch. Part of me wants to stay in touch, but there's no way in hell im initiating contact!

[fireflyingaway]

I texted you right before new years eve telling you I hope you move forward and be happy in 2018.

 

I know breaking NC wasn't the best thing to do, especially since the holidays make us weak, but that text was me forgiving myself for what I did in 2017.For not walking away when I should have. For being weak. I don't want to be angry with you or the situation, I wanted 2018 to be a fresh emotional start.

 

I didn't know if you'd even respond, but you did. Nearly two days later and for the first time, I had no desire to say anything back to you. I know it's ridiculous, but I am doing my best to keep you out of 2018. I feel like 2018 is my protective bubble, you can't hurt me here.

 

All of last year revolved around you. ALL of it. For the first time in years I am doing my best to make this year about me. Not another year that I will think back to and the highlight was which guy I was dating at the time.

 

You put me through so much and I am emotionally numb right now. My soul is bruised, but I am doing my best to try and be okay.

[Samantha.Leo]

We are not actually broken up, nor were we actually together. It's been this slow pulling away kind of thing. The last time I reached out to him was Monday. He reached out Wednesday. I haven't heard from him since Wednesday. I decided that I will go NC with him. There is so much going on in his life, I just don't think I can be there with/for him. I feel so torn. I'm trying NC to get my own head around everything that has happened with us. I just don't know what else to do. I'm sure he will eventually reach out again, I just hope I am in a better place head-wise when he does.

[flooded]

And crumbled inside. My intuition told me I would see you and my intuition was right. Today marks one week that we have not spoken, and that neither of us has reached out to the other - the longest time period since we met (which was only four months ago). Hard to believe that I had such freedom before we met. I wish I could forget you.

[Jimmy3858]

So today is 10 days of NC and I feel amazing without YOU in my life. I’m assuming you thought I was going to wallow in self pity, right? Guess what? I’m doing the complete opposite you narcissistic cunt. My days are no longer filled with questions and concerns, I can go to bed without being confused as to what in the **** is going on lol. I’m grateful that you showed me how deceitful and manipulative people can be, you’ve changed my life for the better.

 

Things I’m excited about:

 

Going to bed without worrying about your crazy ass

Actually getting laid and it being good

Not having to drive to see you, Satan’s child.

Being able to spend my time growing as a person

Not having to drive to see you.

 

Overall I hope you don’t try to ever contact me, you are for sure out of my life for good. Till next time when I need to vent.

[Fever of love]

Ok so I know why I'm posting today, and I want this post for when I look back on my journey. Been feeling 'better' for longer periods, especially yesterday. But today's another sunny Sunday, and today being what it is, I reached out, because it's still important to me to recognise our history. I was willing to take the setback.

 

So things went as expected, my support was appreciated, but my offer of company and coffee was rebuffed.

 

That's OK.

 

Let the circle be unbroken.

[Beachead]

Ok so I know why I'm posting today, and I want this post for when I look back on my journey. Been feeling 'better' for longer periods, especially yesterday. But today's another sunny Sunday, and today being what it is, I reached out, because it's still important to me to recognise our history. I was willing to take the setback.

 

So things went as expected, my support was appreciated, but my offer of company and coffee was rebuffed.

 

That's OK.

 

Let the circle be unbroken.

 

Did what you needed to do. Stay strong friend.

[flooded]

God you're gorgeous. It was like everything around us disappeared. You told me what you'd bought and what you were up to. Great. No hugs, we both just said see ya later (at least I had the dignity and sense to end the conversation first.) You didn't call or text afterward. Fine. When will I hear from you again? Never? Damn it all.

[flooded]

Texted him about half an hour ago "Hey" then, a few minutes later, "Will you give me a call?"

 

Hate this.

[wishyouneverleft]

I saw your smile everywhere during the weekend. I just don't understand how you keep running around in my mind; so much time has passed and yet there are moments I feel the split was yesterday. Your hair dancing against the sunlight was seen only a few days ago as well, and your voice.... why am I remembering your voice? This whole weekend you kept popping up. Is it witchcraft? I even received a fortune cookie that said, "Someone from your past is going to return to steal your heart". I don't want that, I don't want to be that vulnerable again.

[Jadedbyluv]

Ahhh. It’s hard to believe it’s been almost a year since we officially ended things. It’s hard to believe I am still not over you and miss you terribly. A memory popped up today which brought back so many emotions. I hate that I still miss you. I hate that I still wonder if you think about me or miss me in the slightest.

[Beachead]

I've started to notice, things are becoming a little hazy. Almost like I'm beginning to forget how I felt with you. It's been 5 months. You're gone and you're not coming back. I loved you and I probably still do. You played me for a fool and that's fine. It speaks more about who you were than me. I don't need your love to validate my worth. You're not the source of my happiness. There was a life before I met you. There's going be a life afterwards.

Edited January 9, 2018 by Beachead

[igotoverit]

I've started to notice, things are becoming a little hazy. Almost like I'm beginning to forget how I felt with you. It's been 5 months. You're gone and you're not coming back. I loved you and I probably still do. You played me for a fool and that's fine. It speaks more about who you were than me. I don't need your love to validate my worth. You're not the source of my happiness. There was a life before I met you. There's going be a life afterwards.

 

 

There has to be. If the guy that you are referring to is with someone else, or will be then we need new besties. They rejected us and it kills me too. I hope that I come out of this sounding as strong as you all are. I feel jealous and envious and the only thing I want to say is I am sorry please contact me, I don't even recognize myself, I am so broken.

[Beachead]

There has to be. If the guy that you are referring to is with someone else, or will be then we need new besties. They rejected us and it kills me too. I hope that I come out of this sounding as strong as you all are. I feel jealous and envious and the only thing I want to say is I am sorry please contact me, I don't even recognize myself, I am so broken.

 

Girl*. I'm a straight guy loll.

 

But yea long story short..my ex went back to her ex right after we broke up and the only reason we did was because I knew she wasn't over him. She'd talk about him a lot, compare me to him. He was very much present in our lives trying to win her back. Things just got to a point where I had enough. She wasn't all there and I was tired of complicated situations in my life. She went back to him 2 days later and within a week had already promised the guy she wouldn't speak to me again. They've been together ever since. It's been about 5 months since then and about 3 months since I last talked to her so some time has passed but I do still feel a lot of ways about it..mainly anger. It'll be awhile for me.

Edited January 9, 2018 by Beachead

[Samantha.Leo]

Texted him about half an hour ago "Hey" then, a few minutes later, "Will you give me a call?"

 

Hate this.

 

Did he call you back?

[flooded]

Did he call you back?

 

Lol NO! Texted around 8:30, he sleeps late. He answered when I called at eleven. All of our recent conversations - in the moment I'm fine but afterwards - everything feels so muddy and unclear.

 

He hasn't reached out AT ALL after calling me last Saturday despite saying he'd be in touch "soon." Yesterday, same deal - "I'll be in touch" (seriously, is there a worse phrase out there?) He also told me he was glad I'd called to clear the air, and said he'd like to spend time together.

 

Ugh. He didn't even hug me when we ran in to each other. I know, I know, he's just not that into me (anymore). It sucks. I fell for his game hook, line, and sinker.

 

I'm especially mad at our mututal friend for giving me the green light with this guy, knowing full well he's a player/commitmentphobe/heartbreaker. Like, thanks dude.

[flooded]

I'm finally getting rid of every trace of him. Today I dropped off his comforter outside of his door. Didn't feel a need to contact him but then saw him going into his building - we saw each other, he smiled, waved and said hello. So I impulsively texted that it smelled because my drier is broken, which is true, but now I feel like a dummy. Ugh. Ugh! No matter what I do with regards to him (other than complete NC) I just feel like a huge dummy. I guess it's a testament to the importance of NC, but even when I waved back today I just felt silly. What's wrong with me!?

[flooded]

The way I look at it is this: I've been in serious denial. I thought that because we slept with each other a couple of times, because we had a few text exchanges, he wanted me back. Right? Wrong. Duh. If he wanted me back he would let me know. He would send me flowers, come to my door, beg and plead and apologize. That is just not going to happen.

 

In the meantime, I'm looking at my phone periodically hoping to see a text or call from him. That's also not going to happen. Keeping myself hopeful about something for which there is no hope is a mind****. I need to release myself from the false hope so I can let go and move on. Hopefully blocking and deleting can precipitate that.

[Beachead]

Alright..tonight's one of those nights. Not a "I want you back and miss you kind of night." Those nights aren't too common anymore. It's a "I want to see your relationship go up in flames" kind of night. This isn't about being the bigger person. This isn't for you. Tonight is for me.

 

I want to be right about every crappy thing I thought of when you went back to him. I want to know that people like you don't get what you want but get what you deserve. Because what's the message here? What's the lesson here for me? Don't let anyone in? Never trust again? Always be paranoid? That people who use other people and ruin them end up happy?

 

I can't process that out of ALL the people in this world that made me want to abandon the promise I made to myself ..it was a piece of trash like you. After the misery I went through in my last relationship..you. Charmed your way into my life, got me to care about you with all your bs antics. Got me to feel a love for you. Convinced me you cared too. And then you left with a sorry, hope you understand and hopped back to your ex like you were transferring between subway stops. Goodbye, see you later, thanks for the good times. No biggy. You ripped me apart and ended up getting everything you wanted out of all of it. I feel so ashamed to feel some type of way about you still. But I do. And it makes me angry.

 

I can't wait for the day to come when I'm over all this.

Edited January 12, 2018 by Beachead

[flooded]

I know this sounds a little woo woo but I cast a spell to release you energetically, to free myself from you, to cut the cords betweeen us so I can move on. Then you were in my dreams all night.

 

Today I'm bringing the last couple of vestiges you left to Goodwill. I'm giving up hope and focusing on self-worth, investigating why I'm clinging to a man who showed himself to be incredibly selfish and self-centered, a true alcoholic, prone to possessive/abusive behaviors.

 

Just because you're tall? Good in bed? Charming? It's not enough. There needs to be character behind the personality, morals and ethics and values, maturity, mutual respect. These things weren't present between us.

 

With determination I will move on and I WILL get over you.

 

Sadly only two days into NC but this time I'm sticking to it. Next time I see you I won't engage, won't smile, won't chit chat because we're "just friends" (we are NOT). It will be tough because you're so disarming, but I will be strong.

 

Every day I summon and invoke God, my spirit guides, the divine feminine, and my angels to fortify me and give me healing. I turn over the pain and confusion from our union and our break up because it is too much for me to handle.

 

I'll be totally healed one day.

[maybejune]

I broke NC one month after BU, then I kept going back to him but he won't talk to me anymore. Last VM was 37 days ago. the first week of not hearing back from him, was really hard, I saw the hope of reconciling is dying, it took away my joy and made me crave his attention.

 

Now, five weeks later, and four months after BU, I came to the point that I know he will never come back, but my heart is so reluctantly to let go. Yesterday, I was almost crying out to give him a call, but I held it until later and I called my friend. I miss him, I miss my date nights and intimate time, his giggling, his place, his cute face, his story, but he will never share anything with me anymore.

 

I know I have no excuse to contact him and I shouldn't bother him if I can't move on. I need to take care of myself, I don't know where my life will go, who I will be happily talking to, if I will ever find another man making me feel special again.

[flooded]

I'm letting go of the anger, the whys, the poor mes. I can see why you came into my life when you did, and I am grateful for what you've shown me. Love and light and blessings. I freely let you go.

[wishyouneverleft]

You have no idea how much I miss you. Your smile, every love song dedicated, the impact you had on my life. I miss you so @#$#ing much. What I wouldn't give to be celebrating our anniversary now instead of you being in the past. There's nothing I regret, there's nothing I could have done. I gave you my all. I just wanted you to truly be the person you portrayed. Follow through with your promises and commitments. I miss you everyday and not a day goes by that I am convinced that the level of happiness you brought on to me I only deserved as a glimpse of what could have been should I have lived a better life.

 

In a way I'm grateful I felt something like this. I'll always cherish this and unfortunately as much as I try to forget you and move on, you'll always be in my heart, in a little box in the corner labeled, "Head over heels love".

Edited January 13, 2018 by wishyouneverleft

[maybejune]

I missed you when I went to the museum, which we only went together once. On my way home, I passed by the restaurant we had drink there, you said you like to go there for a drink with coworkers after work. I looked through the window, and tried to find if you were there. I really want to see you, even if you are with a girl, I want to see it. I don't know how much longer I can hold up without contacting you again -- I shouldn't for your peace of mind and for my own sanity. It's just hard, knowing you are so close by but I couldn't know a word about you. I know you have no interest about me, what a shame on me.

I know you probably already forgot me, or you will avoid me like plague, so the odds is like zero. You know I won't be around for long, eventually I will leave, I will have to leave. I have too much memories with you in the city, I don't know in a few years, if I will hate this city or I will miss this city.

Edited January 16, 2018 by maybejune

[fireflyingaway]

You don't remember, but we kissed for the first time a year ago today. The first time you came over to my last apartment.

 

I remember walking you down to the parking lot and wrapping my arms around your waist. I looked up at you and we kissed. I remember feeling butterflies and so happy when I went back upstairs.

 

It was the best first kiss I'd ever had. Still ever had.

 

I miss you a lot today, but I'll keep it to myself.

 

You wouldn't remember anyways, but I do. At least for right now I'll remember.