SunsetWay Posted June 27, 2018 Share Posted June 27, 2018 Did you really think it was acceptable/sustainable to expect me to only be a part of your world where I would be forever in awe of you, your awesomeness while forgoing all aspects of me, myself and my world? I'm not a damn dog to punish when I'm disobedient. I'm not someone to forever be seated at your feet in complete submission and adoration. You should of gotten to know me better. But you didn't want anything to do with the parts of me that you couldn't control. It's really too bad. Link to post Share on other sites
SunsetWay Posted June 28, 2018 Share Posted June 28, 2018 Why didn't you take the time to get to know me? You were happy when I was only able to spend time in your world. When I wanted to show you mine, you had every reason in the world to not be .Do you have any idea how much this hurts me? I thought you love me, but it sure doesn't seem like it any more. What are you so afraid of? Link to post Share on other sites
ElKay Posted July 9, 2018 Share Posted July 9, 2018 I met a really sweet and very attractive guytwo days ago. When we were talking about our pasts, I told him about my last relationship... You know what? The more I've dissected it and heard people's opinions about what went wrong, none of the potential reasons for your actions show you in a positive light. You were a jerk and I wish I knew why you felt it was right to treat me this way, degrading my self-esteem at every turn. You had so many heartbreaks- did you feel happy to hurt someone like this to somehow balance your life out? You were my "first", but I'm happy to say that you won't be my last. You'll never find true happiness based on your actions so far. Have fun growing old alone and unloved. Link to post Share on other sites
Saz37 Posted July 11, 2018 Share Posted July 11, 2018 I hate you, but I wish I didn't - I wish I felt indifference for you. I have wasted 10 years of my life on someone who doesn't care about anyone but himself. I hope one day someone hurts you and you feel exactly the way I feel right now. I will pick up the pieces and the kids and move forward and I hope all you face is hurt.. I hope everyone see's through you. Link to post Share on other sites
indifferenceiskey Posted July 12, 2018 Share Posted July 12, 2018 (edited) I’m glad you called me 2 weeks early to wish me a happy birthday while tipsy on the day we were supposed to go on a trip together and watch a Michael Buble concert for which I had bought $800 tickets for...never liked the guy by the way he sounds like a punctured bagpipe, but I did it for you. Glad I can look at this call and laugh about it at this point, despite how selfish and self-centered you were and still are, you’ve taught me a lot of valuable lessons and for that I still love you. At the risk of sounding self-centered, I now know that I’m the best you’ll ever get and I deserve way better than someone who treated me like an option, disrespected me, and decided to ghost me after leaving myself vulnerable to you and wanting nothing but your happiness. It’s all good though, my experience with you showed me a lot about who I am and if there’s one thing I want to apologize for is that I’m sorry I put you on a pedestal when I was the catch in this relationship. You were flawed and so am I, but I still accepted you for who you were and saw you as my catch. I remember one day when you told me my good qualities outweigh my bad, unfortunately the case is not such for you. It hurts to see someone you love change for the worse, but I hope someday you do your soul searching and mature both emotionally and as a person. Despite the things you put me through, I still wish you nothing but happiness. Love always, Your passive aggressive ex who can’t hold his tongue I told you guys and gals I’m flawed, but that was poetic huh lol. I wish everyone finds their peace like I did, yes it will continue to hurt for the rest of your life if you truly loved that person but you can live with it and the hurt becomes one of pleasure and nostalgia. Just remember, you are who you are, you are not perfect nor are they. Your life should revolve around your goals, if a man or woman doesn’t want to be with you when you put yourself out there, that’s fine. Your exes don’t owe you anything, nor do you owe them anything. It’s perfectly alright for them to move on, so should it be for you. Sometimes when you think you click the other person realizes you don’t, so you tend to make sacrifices...don’t do that. Just be yourself, I realized your relationships shouldn’t be about sacrifices and putting yourself out there so to say. Rather a relationship is about two independent people merging their worlds together and sharing in each other’s happiness. If the other person doesn’t feel happy, who are you to stop them from seeking that happiness elsewhere. Take care everyone. Edited July 12, 2018 by indifferenceiskey Link to post Share on other sites
jonsnuh Posted July 15, 2018 Share Posted July 15, 2018 Fated to see you again. You got the life you wanted. I imagined destroying your car, and things much worse. But these things won't happen, just in my mind. You existing is my torment to bear. Link to post Share on other sites
NomiMalone Posted July 24, 2018 Share Posted July 24, 2018 I miss you. Do you miss me too? x Link to post Share on other sites
Beachead Posted July 24, 2018 Share Posted July 24, 2018 (edited) I would have said "It's been nearly a year since we ended" except looking back on the time we spent together.. was there ever a "We.."? How I was chucked to the bin and how easily you made moving on look..doesn't really feel all that meaningful anymore. I feel shame to say I still miss you sometimes. It's crazy to me how fast a year flew by. I've improved overall but I got long ways to go. Edited July 24, 2018 by Beachead Link to post Share on other sites
Madd_hatter Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 I know you know this. I know you’ve always known this. But I could never bring myself to say it to you. Everything you do drives me crazy. Every word you say sticks in my head. Every time you look at me my heart melts. When I know I’m going to see you I hyperventilate. I get so excited and scared and nervous. When you leave it’s like someone is taking away my air. Being without you is painful. I dream of you almost every single night. Every song reminds me of you. Everything I do is somehow linked to you. I’m trying to be strong but I don’t know how I can be strong when I feel like I’m falling apart. Do you ever think of me? I miss you so so so much. I wish you would feel the same. How can I feel so strongly and you feel nothing at all? I feel like a failure. Like I could never be good enough for you. I want to be happy for you, I want to be a good friend, but it’s really hard to be happy about the same thing that’s destroyed you. It’s going to sound dumb but I still don’t feel ready to let you go. I need you in my life. Even though you ripped my heart out of my chest I still want you around me, even if only as a friend. Your presence in my life is what makes me thrive. It’s what keeps me going. I just want to hear your voice. I want to see your eyes looking into mine. I want to feel you breathing. I want to touch you. I want to hold you. I want to kiss your lips. I want to be in your arms. I love you. I have loved you since I was 10 years old and I will love you until I’m dead. I won’t ever “get over” you because I genuinely love you. Can a mother get over her child? No. Real love is unconditional. I love you with all my heart. I truly love you. :* Link to post Share on other sites
Madd_hatter Posted July 29, 2018 Share Posted July 29, 2018 I’m thinking of you again and I can’t stop it. My heart is in a thousand pieces and all I can do is cry. I feel so alone. I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. I’m going insane. I miss you so much I feel like it’s hard to breathe. I know I’ll see you tomorrow and it’s making me so nervous/excited/scared/happy and I don’t even know what else. It’s going to take a lot on my part to control my emotions. I wish we could be together. I always felt in my heart you were meant for me. Life isn’t fair at all. Tired of crying. I’d like to smile for a change. Link to post Share on other sites
Realitysux Posted July 29, 2018 Share Posted July 29, 2018 I was hit on yesterday about three times and told I had the most beautiful eyes they have ever seen by someone while running out to get whip cream for berries. Not one of those people were my type. It made me realize that my hard work was paying off and I should be proud of myself for how far I've come. There is still a certain level of fear coming from where I've been, but I guess that is going to be what drives me. I'm not doing so well in my English class. I am learning; however, I still have a lot more course time to do. I was thinking if I should thank you for what I now know about education and a professional career but the truth is I dont. I only asked myself that because it was said I should thank you, as if you were doing me some sort of favor. I never want to see or hear from you again and that makes me so happy. I still think about this because of what transpired and how offensive this all really was. I truly feel sorry for your partner and I know 100 % that in time, I will meet someone I like again. No rush! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Realitysux Posted July 29, 2018 Share Posted July 29, 2018 Message has to be ten characters but all I really want to say is dumb a## 1 Link to post Share on other sites
NomiMalone Posted July 29, 2018 Share Posted July 29, 2018 Do you miss me? Link to post Share on other sites
leepetrus Posted July 29, 2018 Share Posted July 29, 2018 All I want is to move on and never see or hear from her again. Link to post Share on other sites
Cora Posted August 1, 2018 Share Posted August 1, 2018 It’s hard to believe it’s been three years since you left me without a goodbye. Three years in the arms of another woman. I’ve moved on for the most part, but you still cross my mind from time to time. I don’t really miss you so much, but rather what we had. You seem happier than you’ve ever been with her. Guess she’s everything I couldn’t be. It must be pretty serious because I heard you guys are having your dream house built together. I never took you for a family man, but she already has two kids from a previous marriage. So looks like you have a little ready made family there. Glad you found what you were looking for. Glad you’re happy. Only wish you could have been man enough to properly end things with me first instead of just falling off the planet and ignoring my calls and texts. It was more hurtful than you could ever know. To feel like I wasn’t even worthy enough to deserve even a goodbye. I never got that closure. You left me thinking something bad had happened to you. I didn’t know if you were hurt or dead. How silly I feel for worrying. I now know all those nights you missed coming over for dinner and movie night claiming you overslept.....you were really with her. It would be easy to hate her, but what good would that do? It’s not her fault. What’s done is done. Just promise me one thing....that you will treat her better. Don’t break her heart like you did mine. I’m done with being angry at you. I used to pray that someone you cared deeply about would leave you in the same hurtful way you left me, but now I truly hope from the bottom of my heart, you are never treated that way... Link to post Share on other sites
Madd_hatter Posted August 2, 2018 Share Posted August 2, 2018 I feel like I need you today. I saw a video you posted of a project you’re working on and I heard your voice. It stung my heart. I miss you so much. Tomorrow will make 4 whole weeks since the last time we hung out. I have been thinking of that night for the passed 28 days. Not more than 20 minutes go by without me thinking of that night or about you. I can’t get over you. You’re a part of me. I wish it weren’t so, but you are. No matter what you do, where you go, who you’re with, you will always be in my heart. I was looking at old family photos and saw a picture of myself when I was like 16. I was smiling. I was ugly. I didn’t know it then, but I was. I could never understand why you never paid attention to me. Now I know why. My eyes filled with tears for the little girl in that picture that was madly in love with you, and for the woman I am today who is still in love with you. I wanted to hug that 16 year old girl because I knew exactly what was in her head and heart at that minute. She was just as scared as I am now. But she had so much hope. She felt so strongly that one day that boy she was so crazy about would fall for her too. I wanted to tell her to stop waiting but here I am, all these years later.. still waiting. I’ve never felt such pity for myself as I did yesterday. Im so broken. Link to post Share on other sites
Haydn Posted August 2, 2018 Share Posted August 2, 2018 I feel like I need you today. I saw a video you posted of a project you’re working on and I heard your voice. It stung my heart. I miss you so much. Tomorrow will make 4 whole weeks since the last time we hung out. I have been thinking of that night for the passed 28 days. Not more than 20 minutes go by without me thinking of that night or about you. I can’t get over you. You’re a part of me. I wish it weren’t so, but you are. No matter what you do, where you go, who you’re with, you will always be in my heart. I was looking at old family photos and saw a picture of myself when I was like 16. I was smiling. I was ugly. I didn’t know it then, but I was. I could never understand why you never paid attention to me. Now I know why. My eyes filled with tears for the little girl in that picture that was madly in love with you, and for the woman I am today who is still in love with you. I wanted to hug that 16 year old girl because I knew exactly what was in her head and heart at that minute. She was just as scared as I am now. But she had so much hope. She felt so strongly that one day that boy she was so crazy about would fall for her too. I wanted to tell her to stop waiting but here I am, all these years later.. still waiting. I’ve never felt such pity for myself as I did yesterday. Im so broken. It`s tough as anything, really one of the hardest things. But NC, really will put you somewhere you need to be. Of course you rebel against it. I did. But it does work. Takes time to get it right. And it`s never to get them back, it`s purely for keeping sane. Good luck. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Madd_hatter Posted August 5, 2018 Share Posted August 5, 2018 I’m ok. I’m really ok. I’m not mad at you. I still love you very much, but I’m learning that just because you love someone doesn’t mean you should be with them. I’m learning that it’s ok for me to love you. It is selfish of me to expect anything in return for my love. That’s the funny thing about love..it’s selfless. I’m supposed to be putting your happiness before my feelings. I still love you and wish you well. I miss you and still wish we were together but I am ok. Link to post Share on other sites
maybejune Posted August 5, 2018 Share Posted August 5, 2018 Almost everyone says NC will change how you think about ex, usually the good memories will overcome the bad ones. But to me, it becomes much clearer he treated me so bad, he was mean to me, he treated me so bad the way no guys had ever done to me. He was a jerk, a true jerk. I will never wish him a good life. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
sorano Posted August 7, 2018 Share Posted August 7, 2018 It has been nearing two years. The desire of wanting you back is gone. I still get upset on how you treated me. How a human can do such hurtful things to one another. The animals in the amazon have more heart than you. Heartless and cold. That is what you are. You put on a very good act. we all believed it. All the crying you did on my shoulders on how men treated you badly in the past. How they bruised your heart. How you told me that I was the most amazing man and had no idea people like me still existed. Talking about family, kids, showing me wedding rings. Then in a blink of an eye, I was nothing. I was that pair of dirty nike sneakers that you just throw away in the garbage. Good hearts don't belong in the trash or lost in found. But that is where you put mine. I gave it my all. 101%. I went above and beyond just so I can see you smile. I wanted to make you happy. Not because I had to, I wanted to. I sacrificed a lot for you. But you would not do the same. I realized that and I should have seen that earlier. I should have walked away. But I stayed. shame on me. I have learned a lot from you. From the relationship. It was a life lesson. I grew as a person. I no longer date. I no longer desire a partner. I no longer get that feeling of starting a family or falling in love. My mind, soul, heart, body is tired. I am fine being alone. I am happy with myself. I gave up on you, but I will never give up on me. People tell me to forgive you to move on. Forgive her and the positive energy will take over. It will all be ok. But I am not sure I can do that. I am not sure I can forgive you. You are heartless. Like CHRISTINA PERRI said, WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, RUNNING AROUND LEAVING SCARS, COLLECTING YOUR JAR OF HEARTS AND TEARING LOVE APART. YOU ARE GOING TO CATCH A COLD FROM THE ICE INSIDE YOUR SOUL. Who do you think you are..... Please do me one favor. please please please heal yourself. Fix your damaged heart and soul. Cleanse your soul. Fix all the damages before you START ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP. Do not put another man through the same pain I went through. You may up getting married, fall in love, whatever. That's great. I will never wish you harm, but, I will never ever wish you well in life. The universe has its ways. It is called KARMA. On that note sweety? **** you and have a nice day. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Realitysux Posted August 8, 2018 Share Posted August 8, 2018 It has been nearing two years. The desire of wanting you back is gone. I still get upset on how you treated me. How a human can do such hurtful things to one another. The animals in the amazon have more heart than you. Heartless and cold. That is what you are. You put on a very good act. we all believed it. All the crying you did on my shoulders on how men treated you badly in the past. How they bruised your heart. How you told me that I was the most amazing man and had no idea people like me still existed. Talking about family, kids, showing me wedding rings. Then in a blink of an eye, I was nothing. I was that pair of dirty nike sneakers that you just throw away in the garbage. Good hearts don't belong in the trash or lost in found. But that is where you put mine. I gave it my all. 101%. I went above and beyond just so I can see you smile. I wanted to make you happy. Not because I had to, I wanted to. I sacrificed a lot for you. But you would not do the same. I realized that and I should have seen that earlier. I should have walked away. But I stayed. shame on me. I have learned a lot from you. From the relationship. It was a life lesson. I grew as a person. I no longer date. I no longer desire a partner. I no longer get that feeling of starting a family or falling in love. My mind, soul, heart, body is tired. I am fine being alone. I am happy with myself. I gave up on you, but I will never give up on me. People tell me to forgive you to move on. Forgive her and the positive energy will take over. It will all be ok. But I am not sure I can do that. I am not sure I can forgive you. You are heartless. Like CHRISTINA PERRI said, WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, RUNNING AROUND LEAVING SCARS, COLLECTING YOUR JAR OF HEARTS AND TEARING LOVE APART. YOU ARE GOING TO CATCH A COLD FROM THE ICE INSIDE YOUR SOUL. Who do you think you are..... Please do me one favor. please please please heal yourself. Fix your damaged heart and soul. Cleanse your soul. Fix all the damages before you START ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP. Do not put another man through the same pain I went through. You may up getting married, fall in love, whatever. That's great. I will never wish you harm, but, I will never ever wish you well in life. The universe has its ways. It is called KARMA. On that note sweety? **** you and have a nice day. Wow! Those are amazing words and I wish I wrote that. I hate the piece of sh#t and I am still angry. The only thing that keeps me going, is that he is gone. Thank you God for that. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
sorano Posted August 8, 2018 Share Posted August 8, 2018 Thank you for the kind words. I know how you feel. we can all relate Link to post Share on other sites
M1128Y Posted August 8, 2018 Share Posted August 8, 2018 I should have treated you better and you could have treated me better. I would have changed for you, but you had already moved on... and I don't blame you. I'm going to miss your cooking, smile, laugh, and the room you took up in my bed. I hope you find what you're looking for. Link to post Share on other sites
Lessonsinlove Posted August 14, 2018 Share Posted August 14, 2018 I'm in such a comforting place right now regarding "us" how I loved you, what I did for you, and what I achieved whilst we were together. I gave it my all, all my love and I'm so happy I didn't hold back. We had lots of fun together but, nothing you say from this point will make me want you back in my life again. I hope your heart finds peace and that you find the relationship you're looking for. One day you'll look back, not favourably, on how you've treated me. It's already too late... Good luck "mate" Link to post Share on other sites
everyoneComesHereOnc Posted August 14, 2018 Share Posted August 14, 2018 Oh well it’s the start of NC. I held in for too long to try save us knowing we were properly finished this time. I shouldn’t feel so annoyed. I did love you. The personal problems killed us. We were doing so well. I wanted to bring you to my hometown. We would have done so well. Instead I tried to stay with you through the anxiety. It was hard. Any slip up I made or any mood I was in seems to have been counted against me. I couldn’t win. I couldn’t get back to where we were. Anything I said or done that hurt you isn’t what I mean and was a product of the anxiety. You went too far in hating on me. We can’t get back now. It was gaslighting. God we could have been going forward so much as we head into fall and Christmas. Link to post Share on other sites
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