Author edith Posted March 8, 2020 Author Share Posted March 8, 2020 17 minutes ago, K.K. said: Oh yea right cause having his dick in her mouth 6 times with all the cum running down her throat and dribbling over her lips still counts as being a lady but having his dick in her vagina would just be sinful! The horror! That’s exactly how I feel, I think it’s ridiculous. At the same time, I think it has helped to keep him from being emotionally involved with her. And I’m really looking forward to hear what people think of his lying. He 1 Link to post Share on other sites
assertives Posted March 8, 2020 Share Posted March 8, 2020 6 hours ago, edith said: But I am right - he forgot he was supposed to meet her in NY and decided to lie to her!! I almost passed out. I was so happy. If this doesn’t prove that she means nothing to him, I don’t know what does. 5 hours ago, edith said: I’m really looking forward to hear what people think of his lying. I'm not sure how can you be so happy to the point of passing out over this. Is this all you expect from your husband? It doesn't matter what others think, at this point, you will think/feel whatever you want to to fit your own narrative that he doesn't love her. Only he means something to him, everyone else means nothing to him. Also, what about his LYING TO YOU FOR HOWEVER LONG YOU'VE BEEN MARRIED TO HIM? Does that not also tells you he doesn't love you too? Or that you mean nothing to him? Goodness. What exactly do you and all the other women see in this man?! 6 Link to post Share on other sites
Author edith Posted March 8, 2020 Author Share Posted March 8, 2020 Very good points, thank you. But I’m looking for confirmation that the fact he forgot about their get-together and then lied to her means that this affair isn’t important to him. That he doesn’t have feelings for her. I mean, what else could it mean? Link to post Share on other sites
BaileyB Posted March 8, 2020 Share Posted March 8, 2020 (edited) Nobody here is going to tell you that your it’s good news that your serial cheat of a husband hasn’t met this woman and had sex with her. It feels significant to you, but it is rather inconsequential if you look at the big picture... Edited March 8, 2020 by BaileyB 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Amethyst68 Posted March 8, 2020 Share Posted March 8, 2020 So while you've been concentrating on this woman has your husband been meeting up and having sex with his other OW? Link to post Share on other sites
Author edith Posted March 8, 2020 Author Share Posted March 8, 2020 Yes, but it’s one that he only sees once every few months. It’s not serious. Why? Does that make a difference in relation to this long term affair and the fact he lied to her? Link to post Share on other sites
IndigoNight Posted March 9, 2020 Share Posted March 9, 2020 21 hours ago, edith said: Very good points, thank you. But I’m looking for confirmation that the fact he forgot about their get-together and then lied to her means that this affair isn’t important to him. That he doesn’t have feelings for her. I mean, what else could it mean? How are you checking his messages without any trace of your having checked them? Or, is there a history of you repeatedly checking for updates in their conversation? That he can see. You want confirmation that he doesn't have feelings for her, but honestly, I do not see him (or anyone else) continuing their relationship on and off for as long as he has unless there were, in fact, feelings of some kind involved. There has to be a benefit, if since kind, for staying in one another's lives. Otherwise what purpose would it serve, for either of them? As for they've only engaged in oral sex six times, I find that hard to believe. Maybe the oral sex is just that good, and there is no need for PIV sex. 🤔 Is your husband aware that you seem to be giving him a free pass on the oral sex, and the relationship that he has had with this woman for 12 years? Maybe they have engaged in more, but just talk about oral because you have allowed it to continue. I realize that you want someone to tell you, "nope, he's not having an emotional affair" and reassure you that she means nothing to him, but based on what you have shared, I am sorry, but they are far too connected for it to be harmless. Sorry. In my experience you don't keep someone around, discussing sex in dirty detail, for over a decade, and it means nothing. Whatever it is, they provide something to one another that they feel is missing in their personal life. As for what that is exactly, it's hard to say. Only they could answer that. I highly doubt that he forgot about her in NY. I think that you just haven't figured out how they contacted one another. If it were me, aside from the fact that I would have left 12 years ago, I would be searching for the account (s) that haven't been found, yet. I'd be looking for websites that have a message, guestbook, or chat feature. It's so much easier to hide in a harmless gaming, hubby, out lifestyle website that has a chat or message feature. They could also be using the hotel phones. You have no way to track that option. Does the hotel they stayed in have a lobby phone for hotel guests to use? That is an easy, and untraceable, way to communicate with other hotel guests. If you really want to bury your head in the sand, clouds, or wherever you need it to be, and act like everything is okay because they have only engaged in oral sex 6 times, and he "forgot" her in NY, causing you to swoon in relief, you should stop reading all of their messages to each other. Choosing to believe that she means nothing to him, and they aren't in a relationship, and having an emotional affair, because you deduced from his messages that you frantically kept checking while he was in NY, have convinced you that he forgot to meet her. Believe any way you choose to. It's entirely your choice. You might not want to ask other people what they think, if you don't want an honest answer, or opinion based on information that you have provided. People on this website respond to a thread, usually in an attempt to help each other; often through a difficult situation. This is no different. I am not trying to be hurtful, and I am sorry if anything I've written has upset you. If you want to believe that she means nothing to him, or he to her. That he is still all yours, and you can finally relax, and believe in your marriage. Perhaps you should stop searching for answers that you don't seem to want to find. Checking his messages repeatedly, throughout the day, searching for a glimmer of hope, could not have put your mind at ease. If all you are looking for is someone to agree with you, and reassure you, there might be a different question you could ask. JMO 1 1 Link to post Share on other sites
BaileyB Posted March 9, 2020 Share Posted March 9, 2020 (edited) What you are missing indigo night is that she is just one of many, and edith is focused on this woman because according to edith - sex is fine, but an emotional affair is not. And yes, we all agree with you that sex/no sex, he wouldn’t have continued this one affair for so long if there wasn’t some kind of emotional connection. Edited March 9, 2020 by BaileyB 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author edith Posted March 9, 2020 Author Share Posted March 9, 2020 Those are some wonderful insights, thank you so much. This really isn’t about burying my head in the sand, it’s about being realistic about what this long term affair really means. They mentioned in the messages that they did not meet in NY, which led her to ask why he changed his mind “last time” (the time they were supposed to meet in NY). It would take too long to explain, but this specific messaging app is the only one he uses with her. He forgot he was supposed to meet her in NY, couldn’t think of a good lie, and told her “I think I was supposed to go to NY on that day”. If she has half a brain, she is thinking “I mean so little that he didn’t remember he was supposed to meet me there. He probably has a bunch of other women.” That’s why she stopped replying. She realized at that moment that he can’t even keep plans with mistresses straight, realized she’s not the only one, and dropped him. Now, just ASSUME for a moment that he DID forget his plans with her. What would that mean? If she were that important, he would have been looking forward to seeing her, and if his plans changed, he would have reached out to her and rescheduled it. He simply didn’t reach out to her. I know it seems like I’m grasping at straws, but he told her such a ridiculous lie that I can’t get over it. Link to post Share on other sites
Amethyst68 Posted March 9, 2020 Share Posted March 9, 2020 15 hours ago, edith said: Yes, but it’s one that he only sees once every few months. It’s not serious. Why? Does that make a difference in relation to this long term affair and the fact he lied to her? Because while you're fixated on the one OW from the past, who seems to give great BJs and who he seems attached to you ignore the fact that he's having sex with a constantly changing supply of new OW and then coming home and having sex with you. It's only luck you haven't caught an STI yet, unless he has passed one on and you haven't told us. Fair enough, that's your private business. The other danger is the next OW is the one he falls head over heels in lust for, the one he decides he can't live without, he becomes emotionally attached and wants to be with her. From everything you've described about him he's at that middle age danger zone where it's likely to happen. Ignoring his cheating isn't going to help you. Why you've fixated on this one woman I don't know, you've got more than one threat to your marriage. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
BaileyB Posted March 9, 2020 Share Posted March 9, 2020 1 hour ago, edith said: If she has half a brain, she is thinking “I mean so little that he didn’t remember he was supposed to meet me there. He probably has a bunch of other women.” That’s why she stopped replying. She realized at that moment that he can’t even keep plans with mistresses straight, realized she’s not the only one, and dropped him. Well, that’s a huge assumption to make. That’s most definitely projection on your part. Why would she ever believe that he is seeing other women? And even if she did, why would that matter to her? It doesn’t seem to matter to you - pot-kettle. 8 1 Link to post Share on other sites
vla1120 Posted March 9, 2020 Share Posted March 9, 2020 Edith, it does not really matter what anyone out here thinks. You have picked out and justified the small details that fit into your theory that this is not an EA, and you have convinced yourself. I doubt anyone out here would have stayed with him all these years simply because they believed his infidelity was "just sex" and did not mean anything to him. No one would have stuck around long enough to be toiling over this idea now that this ONE woman (of many) MAY mean something more to him because they cannot seem to let one another go. Have you gone to therapy to determine why you think so little of yourself to allow this man to treat you this way for years? Here is my final answer. A cheater is a cheater is a cheater. Regardless of HOW he feels (or doesn't feel) about the woman he's banging (or not banging), he definitely does NOT care enough about you to be faithful. If you are willing to accept his cheating with one woman, then you should be willing to accept his cheating with ALL women so you stop driving yourself insane thinking about all of this! 8 Link to post Share on other sites
mark clemson Posted March 9, 2020 Share Posted March 9, 2020 18 hours ago, edith said: Yes, but it’s one that he only sees once every few months. It’s not serious. Why? Does that make a difference in relation to this long term affair and the fact he lied to her? Edith, denial ain't just a river in Egypt. Not sure what else to say to you at this point. 3 1 Link to post Share on other sites
HadMeOverABarrel Posted March 10, 2020 Share Posted March 10, 2020 Edith, why don't you just call this other woman you're concerned about and ask her if there's an emotional connection between them and what it all means to her? Ask her if she'd like to build a life with your husband. You don't have any control over your husband's feelings, but at least this could help you make sense of the situation. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
IndigoNight Posted March 10, 2020 Share Posted March 10, 2020 Quote Now, just ASSUME for a moment that he DID forget his plans with her. What would that mean? If she were that important, he would have been looking forward to seeing her, and if his plans changed, he would have reached out to her and rescheduled it. He simply didn’t reach out to her. I know it seems like I’m grasping at straws, but he told her such a ridiculous lie that I can’t get over it. Edith Who are you trying to convince that she means nothing to him? Why does it matter? As long as you accept the terms of your marriage, what is the issue? How you choose to live your life is your business, and requires no justification. To answer your question: Assuming he blew her off, and gave her a lame excuse for doing so, what does it mean? That he blew her off and gave her a lame excuse for doing so. I could ASSUME that if she meant nothing to him that he didn't even need to bother with a lame excuse. Or, I could ASSUME that since he bothered giving her a reason, of any kind, that she must mean something to him and he didn't want to ignore her. I could also ASSUME that since she dropped him after over a decade that he has hurt her, and there must have been emotions involved between the two of them. The problem with assumptions is that there is rarely much truth involved when making them. Assumptions are based on our own beliefs and preconceived notions, and based only on what the person assuming believes or wants to believe. One should not rely on assumptions when seeking the truth. Your mocking of her (" he told her such a ridiculous lie that I can’t get over it") is telling though. I will just ASSUME it doesn't mean what I think it does. Because, otherwise I would be thinking that you're insecure, and grasping at straws to avoid the truth. The truth being that you really do not blindly accept that your husband sleeping with other women is okay. Like I said, assumptions shouldn't be relied upon. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Author edith Posted March 26, 2020 Author Share Posted March 26, 2020 (edited) So, they’re not in touch exactly, but I’m still monitoring everything he does. He has changed his Facebook behavior - he posts nothing, never likes anyone’s posts but his father’s when he posts our kids, but last week he started liking her pictures! It happens daily. And it’s not just pictures of her either - it’s pictures of her child when she’s nowhere in sight. He checks the messaging app - their conversation only - dozens of times a day to see if she’s been on, I guess. She has started posting clips of tv shows where the two protagonists can’t be together but love each other and can’t stay apart. She posts songs. He doesn’t like those because I guess that would be too much, but he keeps liking her pictures. I think it’s just a matter of time before he contacts her again. Am I right to be bothered by this? Not only is it proof that he’s not over her, but he’s trying to make sure he stays on her mind. Or am I making too much of it? Edited March 26, 2020 by edith Link to post Share on other sites
jspice Posted March 26, 2020 Share Posted March 26, 2020 don’t be silly. It’s nothing. I’m sure the “likes” are just slips of his finger when he means to like his dad’s posts. But you should keep checking the messaging app to see if it changes. Maybe more often than you are now. A couple of times an hour at least. 1 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author edith Posted March 26, 2020 Author Share Posted March 26, 2020 I can deal with people making fun of me on this forum, if they at least offer some valuable insight, which you haven’t done. I just have a feeling that this has progressed for him and that he’s in love with her. I could understand liking her selfies, but pictures of her child without her in it is what bothered me the most. And how he’s trying to keep himself relevant to her. Link to post Share on other sites
Prudence V Posted March 26, 2020 Share Posted March 26, 2020 3 hours ago, edith said: Am I right to be bothered by this? Not only is it proof that he’s not over her, but he’s trying to make sure he stays on her mind. Or am I making too much of it? Edith I don’t know what country you’re in, and whether you’re under lockdown or not, but here we’re all basically confined to our houses, unless our work is considered essential and can’t be done from home. As a result, people are suddenly reaching out to precious ones they’ve not seen in ages, reestablishing the contacts that are valuable to them, that they feel they’ve let slip, or taken for granted. Perhaps something similar is happening - now that he can’t physically meet up with her, he feels the loss and needs to let her know how much she matters to him. Her not-so-subtle messaging (the songs, clips, etc) sound like the same. In times of enforced isolation, people’s minds and hearts reach out to those who truly matter to them. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
jspice Posted March 26, 2020 Share Posted March 26, 2020 4 hours ago, edith said: I can deal with people making fun of me on this forum, if they at least offer some valuable insight, which you haven’t done. I just have a feeling that this has progressed for him and that he’s in love with her. I could understand liking her selfies, but pictures of her child without her in it is what bothered me the most. And how he’s trying to keep himself relevant to her. You don’t really want insight. I have given you some before but you choose to go around in circles with this ridiculous notion. And then if people say “ yes, he loves her”, are you going to leave him? No. The bottom line is he doesn’t love you. He sticks his dick in everything that moves but you’re fine with it. Do you even care that he doesn’t love you? He doesn’t even respect you enough to try to be a good husband. You don’t respect yourself enough to take care of yourself, why would you expect him to treat you better than you treat yourself. He probably does love her. If she freed herself up he’d probably leave you in a split second. what kind of quality of life do you have? But go ahead and get another 30 pages of “insight” only to stay exactly where you are. In my twenties I spent hours, days posting over websites, stalking profiles of women who threatened my relationship. I did it for two years. Even in my twenties, I realised this man couldn’t possibly love me and I stopped. He can be someone else’s problem. you're getting something out of this martyr act of yours. 6 Link to post Share on other sites
NuevoYorko Posted March 26, 2020 Share Posted March 26, 2020 What's the difference whether he "cares" about this or that woman he's banging? Granted, I have only skimmed your thread, but clearly you don't have an actual real time relationship with your husband. He's doing whatever, and you pretty much have a full time job of getting your hands on his phone / computer multiple times per day to investigate. Then you post about it and ask the same questions over and over, the answers to which you ignore. Some how this is serving as a marriage to you. My advice , though I get that you don't really want any, is to either get a therapist and work on why you have chosen to invest years in this kind of thing, or just acknowledge to yourself that you're into it and roll on. I hope you choose the former. 6 Link to post Share on other sites
stillafool Posted March 26, 2020 Share Posted March 26, 2020 On 3/7/2020 at 6:55 PM, edith said: They’ve had oral sex 6 times, but no intercourse because she’s against it. And the dirty talk is nonstop when they’re together. And you still kiss this man? 7 Link to post Share on other sites
stillafool Posted March 26, 2020 Share Posted March 26, 2020 On 3/7/2020 at 7:24 PM, edith said: That’s exactly how I feel, I think it’s ridiculous. At the same time, I think it has helped to keep him from being emotionally involved with her. And I’m really looking forward to hear what people think of his lying. He Oral sex goes both ways most of the time. He's emotionally involved. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Starswillshine Posted March 26, 2020 Share Posted March 26, 2020 Seems your husband is quite obsessed with this woman. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
BaileyB Posted March 26, 2020 Share Posted March 26, 2020 (edited) 6 hours ago, jspice said: You don’t really want insight. I have given you some before but you choose to go around in circles with this ridiculous notion. Indeed, she wants reassurance. Perhaps validation. But not insight. There has been a lot of good insight provided in this discussion. A lot of good advice given,, and it is dismissed because it doesn’t provide the reassurance and validation (related to her decision to stay in the marriage) that edith is seeking. Edited March 26, 2020 by BaileyB 4 Link to post Share on other sites
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