WGirl Posted July 2, 2001 Share Posted July 2, 2001 Well, I have been doing some soul searching for almost a year. This board as well as the old Swoon and a few others helped me do that. Being 28, was not easy for me. I'm glad it's almost over. It truly was a turning point in my life. I got to know myself a little bit better. I got to try and help other people with their problems and give them what I thought was good advice. I posted some of my problems on the boards and got some good feedback. A lot of the problems I posted were things I felt I couldn't talk about with family members or friends. I didn't always like what I got for answers but I got to see the way other people viewed some of my problems. I was able to see things a little differently because of them. I made a few revelations in the year. I have decided to leave the past in the past for the most part. I think I've dealt with a lot of the demons that were haunting me. I still have some work to do. I think it is time to move on with my life and start actually living again. One lesson I relearned is that life is too short and it can be snuffed out at any time so you need to try and enjoy as much as you can and appreciate what you do have. Over the past year I've lost family members and friends. Some due to choice and some to chance. Some I have found again. Some relationships that I thought were lost were still salvageable. I am trying to start over again. Trying to explain what I've been through in the past couple of years and why I needed some time alone to do this soul-searching is no easy task. I am sure some people will think I'm nuts. I am trying to let by gones be by gones(as hard as that is for me) and wipe the slate clean. I am trying to accept some situations for what they are. I need to let go of some crazy ideas I had. I can't expect things to be perfect. I have all these dreams and I don't have the means to make some of them happen at the moment and I get frustrated. I need to go out and make my own opportunities and recognize opportunities when I see them. I need to try and reduce the negativity in my life and try to make positive things happen instead. I need to learn how to see the bright side of situations again. I need to forgive myself for things I allowed to happen in the past that have affected my current life. You can't change the past as much as you may want to. There's no sense of dwelling on it. Another thing I am learning is that I need to let go of bad relationships before they get worse. I have figured out what I want out of relationships and things I do to sabotage relationships sometimes. I am doing better in taking charge of my life. It has been hell going through this. I am done rambling for now. I still post and plan on posting but I don't think I will be a message board junkie like I was before. Link to post Share on other sites
Tony T Posted July 2, 2001 Share Posted July 2, 2001 It sounds like you've grown a lot. But don't think that process is ever complete. We grow and become wiser our entire lives, hopefully. Otherwise, life will just run over us and flatten us like a steamroller. You sound like a new, take charge person and that's great. It makes me happy that this and other forums have contributed to that process in some way. Good luck on your journey but don't think for a minute it's over. Remember, when you're green...you're growing and when you're ripe...you ROT!!! Keep growing and be happy always. Link to post Share on other sites
catt Posted July 3, 2001 Share Posted July 3, 2001 Dear WGirl, It sounds like you have had a really tough time but you seem to have gotten your priorities right over the course of the year. Looking out for number one seems to be what many of us forget about until we are too entwined in a problem or relationship to disentangle ourselves. I wish you all the best. Take care of yourself. Catt Link to post Share on other sites
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