Aldexeer Posted May 21, 2023 Share Posted May 21, 2023 (edited) There is a lot of text potentially, so let me do the brief overview first, and I will highlight the details later on. As for now I’m 32 years old, moved from Russia to America in 2016. In 2018 I tagged along with an emigrant girl just like me. We got married in 2020. I decided to get bachelor in IT and therefore I stuck at Walmart for few years, they paid for my tuition. In 2021 colleague with an absolutely wild hips picked my attention, and we became lovers later on. She was married, so in 2023 we agreed to file for divorce with our spouses and move in together. At this point I had a mortgage on the house and green card case pending through my wife. I sacrificed all of it. I left the house to my wife to feel less like s***. She’s a good woman and did not deserved such a hit. My girlfriend broke up with her husband but not filed for divorce. We got together and signed a 1-year lease agreement for a very lovely place. One month after that, my girlfriend declared she feels suffocated, she’s done with me and she’s going back to her husband to give him a second chance. So I locked in the rental property I can not afford on my own being absolutely destroyed. I sacrificed literally everything to be with this woman, and I left with nothing. Now the details: One year after me, in 2021 at the same department appeared this girl, let’s call her M. As a man I immediately appreciated the shape of her, totally my type. But as the married man, I never gave it too much of a thought. I’m weird conservative type, she was quite unusual for American girls as well. Pretty soon after we started talking she said the feminism was a mistake, that’s how we have become buddies. She was totally interested in my, during our lunches I flared the lectures about history of Russia, Napoleon and Ancient Rome. We were getting closer and I couldn’t believe in the fact that American girl can actually be genuinely interested in such a things. To keep sanity during my mundane work I managed to listen ton of audiobooks. One day I mentioned the I was listening “Those Spoke Zarathustra” by Nietzsche. I truly think it’s the one of the greatest books. What she’s done about it? She went and BOUGHT this book, she’s READ it and she made a journal filled with interesting quotes from the book. We have discussed it for month if not longer. That is how we became besties. In the meantime my marriage was in the slow but steady decline. My interests and hobbies was boring to her and she had the proclivity to place her needs above mine. She was doing the good things for me, to be honest, but grudge was there already. M. Wasn’t happy with her husband as well. So during the lunches we occasionally vented about our significant others to each other. Gradually it reduced to the one simple thought, if only her husband was like and and if only my wife was like M. Inevitably flirt kicked in. It started as a borderline joke, but intensified during the time. So one time on the parking lot after work I jokingly pushed her to her car and pressed my finger to her lips to make her shut up. She looked me in the eyes and took that very finger in her mouth. After that we have come lovers. That have lasted for almost a year. Almost every day instead of the lunch we went to her place and [ ] like a wild rabbits on cocaine. And I just couldn’t believe that hot, cute, smart,sexy and obedient woman is totally infatuated by me. In the moments of passion she said that she’s my slave and she devotes her body and soul to serve me for eternity. I fell in love ferociously like a High-school boy. We decided to initiate two divorces and move in together. It was pain to say good bye every evening. And there was so much exciting stuff to finally try together. I went first, aborted the green card case, left the house to my wife, took only necessities and left. We signed the one year lease for a pretty place and moved in. She have changed almost immediately. Instead of looking for opportunities to be with me and do stuff together, she was looking for excuses. I’ve been thinking it’s just a lot of stress, so I tried to provide as much love and comfort as I could. I delivered nice massages and baths. Well, it wasn’t stress. On day two in the evening she said she needed to be alone and go for a bicycle ride. She’s got home one hour after dark creating the bullshit story that she was just sitting in her car after the sunset. Now I know she wasn’t alone, she was with her husband and [had sex with] him that day. So yes, she was sabotaging us from the very beginning. Yet it took me a month to actually confront her due this odd feeling I had about her. She said, I’m overbearing, she suffocates, she’s done and she’s moving back in to her husband to give him a second chance. I was absolutely destroyed, divorce and break up within the same month is a bit too much. However it doesn’t moved her. She packed her stuff and left. During the month my wife have found another guy, and completely shut me off. Looks like she was quite ready to get rid of me finally. It’s probably for the best for her. But here I am, absolutely alone in the city and in USA in general. There is absolutely nobody to have my back. My current mundane job won’t cover for rent. And I emotionally destroyed, even to take a shower takes some effort. How am I supposed to get my life together fast I don’t know. I pretty much never asked for help in my life, so I’m not even sure how to do it properly. But I believe it is time. Please help! Any opinion how to put my life back together would be appreciated. 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