Not impressed with what's out there

[Panhandler]

Eh, come on lets face it, everyone is looking for a little something more than they can find out there in the real world. It's unrealistic to find what you really desire anymore, and you sort of go with the flow along the way and do what feels comfortable. For me finding a steady girlfriend that I like more than another is hard for me, and it eats at me sometimes.

 

I am pretty much hard to resist seeing this girl or that girl, or getting it on with this girl in my convenience. The worst thing though is that not a lot of girls in my area are my age, so it makes it hard for me to find people at my maturity level and to sustain relationships, when one girl is still in the have fun party lifes changing fast mode.

 

I mean I know I'm a real catch, but I always feel like maybe next year I'll be a super catch, or the year after my life is gonna pickup that I will be chasing away hundreds of woman. I mean I have a pretty positive outlook on life, but then with having so many shallow sorts of relationships, I don't fill my life as I want. Cause maybe I'm seeing this girl and the only time she has for me is twice a week, and sometimes that's not even constant.

 

Then I'm seeing another girl and maybe she's in another state and we have sex every few months, and that is great but doesn't last. Then I am seeing another girl here, or there, or sorting out new girls, and somedays I feel like no girls want me. Then I feel like every girl around me wants to jump me, but I am not in the mood to make relations cause there's too many around.

 

It drives me crazy, but sometimes I envy the guy that has one girlfriend and in a solid relationship and they have time together. But, then I realize that I bore quickly of women cause few meet my high standards, and I need a lot of them to keep interested and happy, but that fails to completely satisfy me, cause I feel like I need showpiece women.

 

Since I go out with women and I don't really take them out in a social jewelery on my finger sort of way. I feel like I am not really showing off my attractiveness when I'm displaying a catch up to my standards on my arm. Then I always have to worry about not fullfilling my relationships to the many girls I'm seeing that I would somehow lose them to someone else, or they'd be depressed.

 

It's a real struggle for me to deal with, and yet I don't feel satisfied no matter what, because nothing seems to satisfy, and it's so much beyond women at a certain point. I know friends of mine envy me and they know I am getting all the girls, cause they see them waving to me and leading me on all the time. Or they see me talking to girls that they go ga ga over, and I know I'm in a terrible area too where there's not many girls my age.

 

So it's incredible screwed up right now, but I can't find anything up to my showpiece standards, so I'm playing with a few, but not all of them are consistently there when I need them or to the level I need them.

[Yamaha]

Are you just whining or do you have a real question?

 

You sound like someone who women need to stay away from so maybe it's best if you don't have a steady gal.

[Panhandler]

Hmmm....I'm not sure, I'm just trying to state my feelings and situations. I just feel incomplete and girls tend to bore me after a certain time and I need the flexibility of more. My grandfather was the same way 100's of kids all over the world. I understand what you mean though that it can be damaging to some girl, as I fear that she'd feel heartbroken or insecure, unstable if I left her.

 

But I try to give esteem and character to those girls I'm around so that they have better self-esteem and just wind up better down the line. But I'm really confused sometimes as to wether I should just look for a more dedicated relationship and let it mature. Rather than having lots of shallow relationships with girls I just enjoy but have trouble having relationships with. I mean my problem is that the girls I date usually aren't at my maturity level and aren't ready for a commited relationship. Because their lives aren't secured and they are busy, and that detracts from the possibility to have any solid relationship, though perhaps a few of them I actually long to have some relationship with.

 

I would say I do go more steady with some girls than others, and I feel like I am just lustfully attracted to girls I had sex with before. Even if they have other boyfriends they always wind up seducing me to make out again.

[Yamaha]

Do you see women as an outlet for your lust or someone who as feelings and dreams?

[Panhandler]

Oh I see them as people with feelings and I treat them with much respect and care for them. In fact most of my relationships are rather soft core and that's why I think I feel unsatisfied with them. I generally just have sex with with one girl every few months when I am in my hometown that I started to do so with about two years ago. I have moved away from hard core sex a lot because it's generally stressful for the women, since I rarely use birth control.

 

But I do a lot of making out and teasing and it seems to be pretty fun for the girl friends I have, that aren't having really hardcore relationships, cause our relationships are too sparce unstable to trust and dedicate that passion my way. Seems that I am attracted to mostly innoccent type girls, but few of them are really good looking around here.

 

But I am at a point in my life where I have a lot of free time for the next few months while I am starting up my business. I have money and I have free time for studying and planning my success and enjoying my other hobbies. But I want to have more time having sex with someone I care about and meets my standards, so I have a sense of completion and satisfaction inner peace and tranquility sex gives me.

 

My girlfriends are all prude and I don't blame them they like softcore stuff, and I like that too, it's less stress for me and I trust them more outside my time with them. But I feel like a lot of girls are after me, and want me, and I can't satisfy all their desires, yet I see what they are left with when I'm not there and I feel bad for them, and wish things would work out.