enviroment problem

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I am not sure if this is the reason, but it is the best thing right now.

 

I lived in a family, raised, and the problem is that the bond that was there back than is what makes my communication harder in the world. I'd talk but sometimes they wouldn't listen, or maybe because I dont feel that certain vibe as before. then I would just not talk anymore and start thinking. It is as if I was locked up with my 4 sibilings and know nothing but of them, and when I got out of that world things seem hard.

 

What could be the problem?

[Craig]

Could be anything, a number of things or not that much at all.

 

1. You could be going through big changes right now and change is unfamiliar, sometimes difficult (hard) and etc.

 

2. Perhaps you are continuing communication habits now that you learned while living with your family and they aren't working for you. To change this you must change your environment. I'm not saying move but am saying do different things and preferably with people. Find a community college and take some theater courses (acting, voice, etc.) that can help.

 

3. Start learning about communication. Go to your library and COMMUNICATE your desire to the librarian to learn about communication and then learn.

 

4. After you've learned a little more about communication go out and practice what you've learned. You won't have the results you expect at first but with practice and failure you will soon start to see results.

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Hey craig, I couldn't agree more. I mean having this problem occuring my communication level is rather vivid, like you can't tell if I am talking to you and most frequently, not understanding who I am from my typing. Right now I am improving though, but please read my other posts on General Relationships, people even stated that I sounded like a jerk.. that is not the point but.. if you just observe my writing and compare it with right now, i'd say it is more understandable.

 

Here is this thing with my new ability, something weird, because of my experience as a child ( as a child? see I am already projecting images.. ). And it works, it is as if I can imagine me as someone with fluent words and some-kind of rich butler, it makes me have that sort of personality quickly and ables me to type in that kind of manner. Here is what I am agreeing with though, you exclaimed that "It is a habit from your past.. blah blah.." and you are correct, could be.

 

This is getting annoying though, I am not sure who I am.. I should just keep improving the way I talk so I can figure this out like you said instead of projecting images. Please help more if you can, i mean really, this is crazy, i need help. It is like i'm not a natural human being and my mind isn't processing the same as everyone's... well... if I notice that too much I start getting these weird things and look awkward. That is if I am not projecting images.

 

And it is amazing to be human! haha, like, there is A MIRROR in front of my face and I can see how I am reacting to what I do to what I say. Usually it wouldnt be like that ( Again, If i am not projecting images.).

 

Anyway my older brother has this problem too, it is like he is hiding his true form or birth right, what he was as a kid. I'm not saying I talked with him, but I seen it.

 

ANYWAY I AM NOT SURE ABOUT ALL OF THIS. SO FROM WHAT YOU READ PLEASE BE 100 PERCENT SURE DUDE, I AM COUNTING ON YOU TOTALLY. AND TYPING AND SOCIALIZING WITH YOU IS ENABLING ME TO CREATE THE CHARACTER IN ME, THANKS. ( THAT IS IF ITS TRUE, SO DUDE, HELP.)

 

 

 

signed , me

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hey again, i have found out something new and sadly it is already effecting me. As you can see it is like I am not even talking to you.. but here is the thing.

 

My way of coping with the awkwardness I had, was to think a lot. I thought a lot actually, i'd just sit on my bed thinking...

 

I think when I am reading something, I fall back on that person I was before all of it. I hate reading words and thinking.. it is like I am reading and I am thinking how the world of the surface, how many inches it has on that line where the color of dark and clouds transparent. It is better to type it out, but believe me I think of the wildest things.

 

So if I think about weird things to cope with my communication thing, how am i supposed to overcome it because "I am using different parts of my brain", okay now that's weird too.. i probably thought that because my mind tricked me somewhere and i take seconds to think about it. It is like I am doing a problem and I am thinking, so how can I start socializing if I am only going to fall back on it. Maybe I am geting twisted with methaphors, or maybe I am not new to this socializing thing which I would call "using the front part of my head" than when I am awkward I use the back.

 

anyway yeah, whats going on. Or maybe because theres this problem thats why I am observing so much that little things make me think something is wrong, like how i could of just overreacted my methapor.

 

help. thanks.

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Wait just refuse to read the last message I just wrote, but do continue the others and this. They were just really thoughts of mine that I was processing because I am new at this whole life, look, and stuff. It is pretty weird, I can look at a girl and look straight at her eyes this time realizing she is there. Hopefully I Dont get insecure over the matter. I am starting to think efficiently not dwelling, or whatever.. I am using the front part of my brain as possible which I should explain in depth, like so.

 

 

Ok well im out. bye