We're over and its my fault but i want her back!

[leeroy1985]

Recently i have been under alot of pressure with my life and job and money... the usual problems in life but they have really got me down and i have been taking my anger out on my girlfriend of nearly a year.

 

Shes gave me loads of chances and suggested i seek anger managment or something, then on Monday we had an argument and she said that id have no-one without her (shes probably right because ive been drawn into a "all my friends were her friends before me" thing so ill lose them if i lose her) but it really angered me and i flipped (i know i was wrong) we argued, throwing names at each other and eventually she broke down and cryed but i couldn't stop myself from shouting and i blamed her and finished with her and took her home.

 

The next day i was talking to a friend and he really went all out telling me how bad ive been to her etc. and it really made me see what ive been doing and how much she meant to me. I cryed because ive really hurt the one person id never want to hurt and my head has just been a real mess but now we're over i feel im going to do something stupid, im really unstable now and i cant think straight or do anything.

 

So anyway yesterday she text me asking for her stuff back (clothes etc.) so i took them down to her house, we had a talk for about 2 hours and she said she still loved me but hse couldnt be with someone that hurt her as much as i did and that i chose this when i finished her! Now that i have lost her i have realised what i have been doing and i want the chance to prove that i can change and be like i was in the first 3 months of our relationship because this anger thing really isnt me at all!

 

Well i phoned her last night and broke down in tears telling her how sorry i was and that i dont want to live without her etc. and she told me that i could come to see her on Thursday and i had to show some sign of change and show her how much she means to me and she told me to phone her tonight when i finish work. She gave me a kiss on the lips (a kind of prolonged kiss) and went in telling me she loved me as she walked off.

 

Im so confused now.... what can i do to get her back? Does she even want me back? Ive been a real arsehole and i want the chance to prove to her and her friends that i really am a nice guy. This is the first time ive been in this situation where ive had feelings this strong for a girl and its really unhealthy, i cant sleep, i havent eaten since Monday morning and i must of smoked about 100 cigs! What can i say to her on the phone? What can i do on Thursday to prove that i can change? Whatever i do i cant lose her. Weve been together nearly a year and i dont want to throw all that away without a fight. What can i do? Someone help me!!!

 

Thanks in advance

[leeroy1985]

Anyone got any advice PLEASE!!!

[kitten chick]

To be honest, I think you're really lucky that she's giving you a chance. I think you can show her that you're serious about changing by finding out about anger management programs in your area and show her that you've enrolled. (Since it seems like you'll be seeing her tomorrow so since you're short on time maybe just show her a brochure or printout of where you will be enrolling) I think a small token would be appreciated in this case as well, perhaps some flowers or something of the sort.

 

I would apologize again and rationally talk to her about what issues you two are having. You know how you acted the first three months, try to channel that behavior again. It's a very emotional time for you so it's going to be extra difficult to do this but you're going to have to show her that you're willing to work on this problem, not just for her but for yourself.