Should I tell my ex how I feel?

December 3, 2005

My ex girlfriend and I have been broken up for over a year and have tried to remain friends. I did NC to her last April for 2 mos. cause she didn't want me back and I figured it was the only way to get over her and possibly make her miss me. Well she started calling in June and trying to slowly creep back in my life and I let her and we have been friends since.

I decided to change my life while we weren't talking by working out, getting a good job, going out, and dating. She could tell I changed from who I used to be when we started talking again. Well, in Sept. she asked me if I missed being with her, and questions like that, and I said at times, then she asked when I missed her, etc. I asked her the same question and she said she missed me too. Then we didn't talk for a week, then when she called again it was back to friend talk.

In Oct. she told me she wanted to tell me something and it was that she is still in love with me and has never fallen out of love with me, but at the same time she said she is in love with her boyfriend. I really didn't say much, and over the next month she would try to get me to tell her how I feel. I really didn't want to cause I was scared that she just wants an ego boost and she is with someone also. So I just kind of walked around that subject when she brought it up without saying much about the way I felt.

She told me in Oct. that her and her boyfriend were getting a newer apt. and that in 6 mos. when their lease is up that she wanted to break up with him and be with me, and I was like "whatever."

I am very much still in love with this girl, but am scared to tell her how I feel cause she likes a challenge, and is dating someone else. The other day she asked me directly if I loved her and I said "yes." A couple days later she tried to get me to say I was still in love with her and I couldn't do it cause I was scared to. She said "you want to say it, I can tell, but you aren't."

So we last talked on Tues. and we hugged and she went back to her apt. and she called me an hour later and we she told me to have a good night at work and thanked me for the loan (I loaned her a couple bucks).

Now she is being quiet again and I have not heard from her since Tues. I tried to call her yesterday, but no return yet. She doesn't talk to me around her boyfriend cause he hates me, but it is still unusual for her not to call.

Anyways my question is, should I tell her I am still in love with her and tell her I want to be with her again? Do you think she will still act interested in me if I keep being quiet about my feelings? Or if I tell her will she be like "okay, I have him hooked again, next."