married man

[WHATS WRONG WITH ME]

I Feel In Love Two Years Ago With Someone Who I Met On A Casual Basis, As To Say, I Was Taking My Kid The Same Place He Took His Kids And Thats How We Met. I Saw Him Across The Room Kindof Thing And We Started Talking And Bam!...i Was In Love Before I Knew It. I Had Been Divorced For Some Time, Under The Impression Id Never Really Met Someone And Not Really Wanting To. He Started Flirting With Me And I Started Looking Forward For Our Conversations If He Was There. I Was On Cloud 9 For A Year Or More Just Couldnt Take My Mind Off Of Him. Then One Day My Daughter Started Talking To More Kids And She Found Out He Was Married. I Was Crushed. I Mentioned It In A Conversation That I Didnt Know He Was Married And He Said Yes He Was And Changed The Subject. I Withdrew From Him For Awhile Durning That Next Year, I Stopped Talking To Him As Much And Shortened Our Flirtatous Moments. He Begin To Ask Me Why And When I Said B/c Your Married, All He Said Was Thats Too Bad. ? I Felt So Confused, I'd Never Been So In Love But I Had To Stop It B/c It Was Going To Led To A Kiss Or Some Sort Of Encounter Like That I Knew...it Came Pretty Close I Belive One Day But I Looked The Other Way. I Was Always The One To Say I'd Never Allow This To Happen To Me...i'm In Love With A Married Man. So Knowing That It Was Wrong To Feel This Way, I Stopped Going To The Skating Rink With My Kid. Since Then, I Have Been Very Very Depressed. Thinking Its For My Good But Also Wondering How Come These Feelings Won't Go Away. I Find Myself Looking For His Car Or Seeing Someone Who Looks Like Him And Feeling So Sad? I Cant Explain To Anyone Whos Never Been Here, What Its Like To Feel Like You Met The Man Of Your Dreams And Just To Be Let Down. Get Over It And Go On With Your Life, Right! But Its Been A Year Already And Sadly I Can Say, Im Still In Love.