I dont think I can get up.

[Koekie]

I dont even know where to begin. My hands are tired, its hard to type. Im shaking and still Im not able to cry. The pain just sits there in my throat, in my heart and in my mind. I keep seeing it in my mind over and over. His lips on hers, him touching her.

 

I met my bf 2 years ago. We were madly in love, its was soooo special. Then I found out he is still good friends with all his ex-girlfriends. Most of them still carry a torch for him and some even tried to break us up. Ive had trust issues because of a bad childhood and Ive worked hard at trusting him as for the first time in my life I thought someone was worth it. The night before last he fell asleep and I checked his phone. In the text messages was the following:

 

You were like a hungry lion, attacking the poor deer. Your victim was the happiest. ive never had sex. But kissing and playing with you seems much enjoyable.

 

It was from a girl whom he had a holiday romance with 6 months before we met. She came for a holiday and they went out twice.

 

Ive lived in England all this time and at that time I hadnt seen him for 3months. We also had a very bad year before but struggled to fix it. I thought we started afresh, but then found this. He said even though she was still here he didnt see her again and felt bad. She left. But the other day I noticed he sent her a sms. He refused to let me see it.

 

I know he feels like a dog, and i never saw him as the type of man who would ever do this. Im gutted. What next?

[slubberdegullion]

Koekie, you already know what to do next. But if you need verification from others that it's the right thing, then here goes:

 

He's cheating. Cheaters get dumped. So dump him.

 

Don't be afraid of the pain, because like all pain it will pass.

 

Don't be afraid of being alone, because no one is truly alone.

 

Don't be afraid of hurting his feelings, because he obviously doesn't care about yours.

 

Don't be afraid of disappointing family or friends, because you'll become stronger in their eyes.

 

Don't be afraid.

 

You'll be ok.

 

We're all here to help.

[JadeStar]

"I know he feels like a dog."

 

 

Yeah probably for getting caught. I'm sorry you're going through this. Hang in there.

 

 

 

Jade

[Koekie]

He thought I was sleeping and krept into the bedroom after I found out. He touched my hair and I could hear him crying. I told him its over and he didnt beg or plead, nothing.

[JadeStar]

He thought I was sleeping and krept into the bedroom after I found out. He touched my hair and I could hear him crying. I told him its over and he didnt beg or plead, nothing.

 

 

He probably didn't plead or beg for 2 reasons, either he doesn't care. Or, he may figure the best thing to do is to bow out gracefully, because he knows he messed up.

 

 

 

 

Jade

[yikes12345]

I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through. I can't een imagine what you must be feeling right now. What a jerk.

 

And slubberdegullion - I really like that little poem sort of thing you posted. Very strong and positive.

[purtyinpink_11]

He probably didn't plead or beg for 2 reasons, either he doesn't care. Or, he may figure the best thing to do is to bow out gracefully, because he knows he messed up.

 

 

 

 

Jade

 

I also agree with Jade, I think he probably decided to bow out gracefully, ashamed and all.

 

~purtyinpink_11

[purtyinpink_11]

I dont even know where to begin. My hands are tired, its hard to type. Im shaking and still Im not able to cry. The pain just sits there in my throat, in my heart and in my mind. I keep seeing it in my mind over and over. His lips on hers, him touching her.

I met my bf 2 years ago. We were madly in love, its was soooo special. Then I found out he is still good friends with all his ex-girlfriends. Most of them still carry a torch for him and some even tried to break us up. Ive had trust issues because of a bad childhood and Ive worked hard at trusting him as for the first time in my life I thought someone was worth it. The night before last he fell asleep and I checked his phone. In the text messages was the following:

 

You were like a hungry lion, attacking the poor deer. Your victim was the happiest. ive never had sex. But kissing and playing with you seems much enjoyable.

 

It was from a girl whom he had a holiday romance with 6 months before we met. She came for a holiday and they went out twice.

 

Ive lived in England all this time and at that time I hadnt seen him for 3months. We also had a very bad year before but struggled to fix it. I thought we started afresh, but then found this. He said even though she was still here he didnt see her again and felt bad. She left. But the other day I noticed he sent her a sms. He refused to let me see it.

 

I know he feels like a dog, and i never saw him as the type of man who would ever do this. Im gutted. What next?

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My dear Koekie. I've been where you're at and it's not at all pretty. You have to get up and keep going. Always remember that if he can, so can you. It's not worth sacrificing your health or your heart for someone who's not willing to be there for you 100%. If a man cannot show that he can be trusted, YOU need to move on. Do you know how many men out there would die to have someone like you by their side? So loving and caring and honest? Honey please. Pick yourself up, stand up for yourself, don't (and I repeat) DON'T let him see you die over him. He will see the change you'll make and it will be his loss and your gain. You will gain self-control and self-love because if you don't have that, you cannot give it to someone else. Good Luck...