pinksparkle Posted December 27, 2005 Share Posted December 27, 2005 It's been two weeks since I last talked to my ex. I am happier now that I no longer talk to him, however I do still love him. I was going through my room and found a picture that he colored for me, written on the bottom was: TO Gorgeous, Love Joseph. I cried on the spot. It hurts so much that he doesnt love me like I love him, but I know now that I am doing the right thing. I saw him three weeks ago and said some very hurtful things. I said that he was irresponsible and inconsiderate for other people. I used other people's names, making the situation worse. Before I left he asked when he was going to see me again and proceeded to tell me about his winning poker hand earlier in the week. I left after that, saying I would talk to him later. A couple days went by, I made things worse, and then started to talk to him over AIM. I asked if he was mad at me, and he said no, he was indifferent. He no longer cared if we were friends anymore. I told him that that was all I wanted from him, and he said he would think about it. Those were the last words said. He would think about our friendship. That was two weeks ago, and no word from him since. I am beginning to think that it is really over. There is no second chance for me. But I still think about him, and still love him. Time will heal, I hope. Link to post Share on other sites
Author pinksparkle Posted December 28, 2005 Author Share Posted December 28, 2005 Today was hard to get through and still no word from my ex. I work in retail, and he used to come and see me, watch me while I attended to my customers. I know that he is home for break so the chances that he would walk in are greater now than they were before. I look for him while I work,yet dread the actuality of seeing him. Is that normal? I think about him when business is slow and on my drive home. I just wish I had a sign from him that would tell me what is going on. I am telling myself that it is over, but I so want to get back together. I am sticking to NC, he will not hear from me first. Hopefully everything will be better soon! Link to post Share on other sites
AltplanB Posted December 28, 2005 Share Posted December 28, 2005 youve got the right attitude. I hope it works out for you. This **** happens and we all go through it. I am too. Link to post Share on other sites
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