She let me decide to remain friends after knowing I have feelings for her or end it

[SDKev858]

This was an ongoing battle in a tough situation that is out of our reach. We had a 14-hour, 3-session talk on the phone conversation. We have a lot of common interests and could talk for hours.

At first, we agreed we were friends; she claimed that I was in a friend zone. She was not emotionally invested as I am to her. She stated I wanted more, like being romantic. She was not looking for that right now because of a situation we are in. This was very hard on both sides because of a dark situation. I told her I didn't buy that. Friends don't allow deep hugging affection throughout the day and other affection to let it continue. Sex never happens; I don't see her that way when I deeply love someone.

She stated, I would have been a great dad and partner. I am confused and ask what she means by that. I am still confused.

She also stated. If I ever need anything in the near future, just ask me, and I'll do it. I am confused by what she means by that too.

I try to end it 3 times, and each time she avoids it or stays silent by ghosting the question. The 2nd time got more serious because of something I did. The 3rd time was the final one that we had a 6-hour+ conversation. I told her before I make a final decision, you need to be honest with me, and she paused. She said, Since I am more emotionally invested in this, you decide. (This was over the phone). She said, I will be "fine" with either option to end it or continue as friends.

Noted: When a girl says she's fine with it. That means she's not fine.

I texted her back with my conclusion to end it forever and told her how I felt. I think she was sad with my decision. She ghosted me for 1 week. I've noticed she was online a lot more than usual; what I've learned about her. She only goes online when she is bored or sad or avoiding something. I knew she was checking up on me in regard to my concerns towards my emotional depression. After I mention it in my post, when people are done with me or get what they need. I am tossed out.

She replies back on text. saying, I do care and definitely haven't tossed you aside. She read my text to break contact and mentioned to me that I understand you wanted to break contact. I don't want to bring you further pain. I haven't walked away and am still a friend to you.

I didn't reply back to her text; she went back online knowing I would post something on social media. Since she read my current feed, I was left speechless for 1 day. The next day she appears back, probably to snoop on me.

Should I continue to ignore her, since she only tries once to contact me? Should I wait for another reply? We had a 14-hour, 3-session talk on the phone conversation. We have a lot of common interests and could talk for hours.

Edited 10 hours ago by SDKev858