I wish I have the same thing they have...

[l2hvn]

i've been battling with self-image problem for as long as i can remember.

 

one minute, i hate my body. the next i'm okay with it.

 

it's funny because i know there is nothing wrong with my body. in fact, i've always been a thin person. so it's not like i want to lose weight or anything. but sometimes, i would wake up and hate my body and wish i had bigger boobs.

 

i know how vain that sounds.... and how hard i am with myself.

 

i could've done the boob job when i used to go out with this doctor. he offered to give me one since he's a plastic surgeon. i said no. offered again. and i said no again.

 

it's funny how when the opportunity is right there on my hands, i couldn't do it. i thought i could, and i didn't. and was in fact scared of the thought.

 

but then i see all these women and wish i have the same thing they have... i'd feel better about myself, look better in clothes... and now i don't even have the money to do it.

 

my bf keeps telling me there's nothing wrong with my boobs. and he prefers butt more than anything. and i know i have a cute butt. but i wish i had bigger boobs.

 

i don't know. i guess i'm just venting and wondering if anyone else is on the same boat as i am.

 

well... anybody???

[l2hvn]

i don't go around throwing pity party for myself. i go out w/my bf.. w/ my friends and have fun.

 

in fact, they don't really know how i feel about myself. it's something i keep to myself because i feel embarrased.... esp. because i should know better what to do...

 

i just can't help but feel this way sometimes...

 

is this normal?

[Outcast]

It's common but not normal. To live as a fully functioning adult, you don't spend your life in envy. You appreciate what you have, forget about yourself, and focus on others. If your bf loves your body, that should be enough for you. You have been sucked in by the fashion magazines and the star-focused TV and everything else. Don't be another sheep in the herd. Forget what the magazines say about what you're 'supposed' to look like and be happy you have a guy who loves you as you are.

[slubberdegullion]

Forget what the magazines say about what you're 'supposed' to look like and be happy you have a guy who loves you as you are.

l2hvn, read and absorb well. Outcast is exactly right. You are more fortunate than you may believe.

[l2hvn]

It's common but not normal. To live as a fully functioning adult, you don't spend your life in envy. You appreciate what you have, forget about yourself, and focus on others. If your bf loves your body, that should be enough for you. You have been sucked in by the fashion magazines and the star-focused TV and everything else. Don't be another sheep in the herd. Forget what the magazines say about what you're 'supposed' to look like and be happy you have a guy who loves you as you are.

 

thanks outcast for the kind words... i know i am lucky. he wouldn't be with me if all he wants is a boobfest ...

 

as a woman, i can't help but feel this way sometimes... it's pretty hard to feel so self-assured when every millisecond i see curvy women on tv, in magazines, in my city. everywhere.

 

i live in a city where it's a melting pot of beautiful people. where vanity places high priority, unfortunately.

 

 

l2hvn, read and absorb well. Outcast is exactly right. You are more fortunate than you may believe.

 

thanks slub... i know i know... it's just that sometimes, i catch my bf look at other women, eventhough he tries hard not to get caught. men are men... it's not like we women don't look.... we're just pretty good at hiding it.

 

i feel intimidated by other women sometimes.. but then i keep telling myself, "hey, i'm a good person. i am pretty. i am young. i am fun to be with. i have a lot going for myself." then i feel better...

 

besides... i read a statistic somewhere that those who actually have breast augmentations are more likely to commit suicide than those who don't have one... kind of makes me think how stable they really are.