Hope I am in right place!

[only4me1014]

Sorry if this is not in correct place,but it looked like the only place it could go.

Glad to be here first off,but at the same time:sick: !!

Background I being the W had the A almost 2 years ago now will be in May '06 this year! I have been 100% Faithful to my H since then and plan to be as long as this M last! Every since the day I confessed to my H that I had an A he has been one hard man to get along with and NO I did not and do not expect it to be easy to get through by a long shot but for peat sakes it seems his rage is just as bad now as it was 2 years ago.Its like he keeps rehearsing it in his mind! It seemed we went through a period of him being ok then the next thing you know he goes stupid on me!!

 

Please don't think I am taking his hurt lightly because I am not but it seems to me that after all this time of me proving(sp?) myself to him that I am faithful and will continue to be that some trust would have formed by now but it has not AT ALL!

We can't even have discussions about other normal problems that most married couples have without that BULLCRAP coming and smacking me in my face!

Please tell me when does it give,or when do you throw in the towel?

I have said,done everything in my power to prove things to him for trust to build and it does me no good.

 

Please don't get my wrong I love my husband dearly and I want this marriage to work but is their a point in time when you realize that nothing you say or do is gonna help anyway?

Has anyone dealt with this before of still feeling like it just happened:( ?

If so how do you deal with?

I have gotten to the point now that I have an attitude about the whole mess with him,I was so patient with him for the year and so many months but now as we are almost at the 2 year marking I am getting fed up to my neck with it!

Please any and all advice even if against me is appreciated.

Thanks for listening maybe I just needed to rant and rave a little,because he is gone to bed tonight mad again as usual:( .