Headed for self destruction??

[stephInDaDistrict]

I have been in a relationship for 3 months. It was a love at first sight thing, we met at 3am while I was walking to the metro, and have literally been inseperable until about 1 month ago. Well we mutually decided to leave eachother. I left for 5 days and got advice from an older lady in my hood who told me to have a one night stand to forget about my boy. WELL IT DIDNT WORK. In fact it made things so much worse. I left before the boy even got out the bathroom. Well me and my boo got back 2gether and I told him the truth. He was so hurt and he told me the truth about some things but he told me he never slept with them. So then I left again cuz he said he couldnt accept it. Well make a long story so short, I stay in hotels alot cuz I dont like my family. Well it just so happens he does the same thing. Like I said it was weird... were so alike. The morning before we met, I saw him. IN THE SAME HOTEL PARKING LOT. We had gotten a room at the same place the night before we met. Weird, huh?? Well anyways, last thursday (last week) I got some advice (this time from a man his same age, LOL) I got a hotel room and the boy told me if I call my man in the morning, and he doesnt rush right to me, like "man where you at, Iam on my way.." then he didnt truly love me. (I hadnt seen him in like 5 days.) Well I called him and he rushed right to my hotel and we made up. This past week however, we started to stay with his mom to save some chalupa and we got in a fight and he smacked me. He told his mom, and she told him he was making excuses for himself. He apologized and even cryed. Problem: I have been in a abusive relationship with my ex. I know the patterns. But this is different. I feel his love and this connection between us. DO you think were going through something, cuz of our lifestyles or is he really just an a**h*** out to break my heart? Or was him smacking me built up anger from me sleeping with someone else?? At least I was honest, cuz I was ashamed and I love him.....