i miss her so much:'(

[Krishu]

well.. let me tell you my love story.. last year i started dating this girl.. and while being with her, i got to love her.. and i still love her.. we wer boyfriends like for 7 month.. and one day, she told me.. im sorry but i want to break up with you, cuz im in love with someone else.. she meet this guy one week before breaking.. and she just felt in love with him right away...

 

I was Hell Broken.. i cried for days and days.. i even went to jail for 3 days cuz i kicked that guy's butt.. i really loved her, and i did apologize.. i never did nothing wrong, i always tried to be the best boyfriend ever to her.. but it didnt work.. so i started the NC.. it was hell hard.. to ignore her on christmas, i didnt even call her for her b-day... i thought to myself.. I LOVE HER, but i dont wanna be a stone on her way.. and what am i suppose to do, if she putted someone else in my shoes..

 

It's been 6 month since that happen and i still havent move on.. i mean.. i've had 3 girlfriends since that:( but still.. i miss her so much.. and now i've realize that my life is not worth living without her.. This year i havent seen her, nor talk to her, no even ask to her friends abour her.. but i mean.. i cry almost every night for her.. and come on!! stop with that theory of TIME HEALS!! cuz it doesnt!! LOVE IS FOREVER LIKE IT OR NOT.. LOVE IS ENDLESS.. and im so broken.. cuz .... i miss her.. and dont know what to do.. WIn her bak?? i cant... im so hopeless, so broken, so weightless, so scare...

 

LAst week i sended her a email.. telling her that i still feel something for her, and that i miss her.. she answered me and told me.. that she was so sorry of what she did to me.. that she realize it was a complete mistake.. and that now she sees that she was only happy while being with me.. and that she want my friendship..

 

IM SO SCARE NOW!!! WHAT's the next step i should give?? what should i do.. ?? i mean?? friendS?? no way.. i wont be able to be her friend:( cuz i cant see her like one.. i LOVE HER!! and wow:o NO one have hurt me so much like she did!! so what should i do?? continue my NC??? it's been sometime.. i dont even know who she is now.. i dont even know who am i now.. but im so depress.. and im so scare now..

[Dinnj1]

this ones gonna take some time. You opened a door... but neither walked through, correct? Hmmm... sounds like the "love at first sight, knight in shining armor" she left you for, didn't turn out to be exactly what she thought he was. But is she still with him??? most likely. Her response, could be nothing more then bull****, also most likely. Either way, the door is open, you did your part. As far as I'm concerned, 'ball in your court'. Now, the question is, does she deserve you? She left your @ss hangin for some stranger... at the breakup, she expressed, she really had no concern for your feelings. Yes, you dated others during this 'break up' time, and you were sweatin' your ex the whole time. But were you sweatin' her because she's a greater love, a better person, a nice person? OR (again, most likely) were you sweatin her cause she dumped you cold turkey for someone else? There's a fine line between these two reasons. Sometimes, when the heart gets broken, the heart only remembers the good times, the sex, the smiles... the @ss. Completely forgetting the true colors that shined through leading to the underserved breakup. Your NC over the past couple months was suppose to help you realize, SHE DID YOU WRONG. SHE LEFT YOU FOR SOMEONE ELSE. Right or wrong, she did. Is this the person you want back? Someone who is capable of hurting you with no answers? New flash!!! Time does heal all wounds... if you let it. If you fight it, then forget it... you're doomed. The hardest part of a getting over a break up, is focusing on the "What they did wrong", instead constantly thinking about "What they did right."

[Krishu]

well.. yeah, she broke up with him on december.. i mean.. she did admit it to me that she was such a fool for have done that to me., and she told me to fogive her cuz she was a f***up girl.. but still im not sure if she does want to get bak with me.. she told me.. she wanted my ''friendship'' i hate that word!! i mean!! i dont think i can be able to be her friend..... i love her so much like to be her friend.. so what do i do.. about she not being to good for me?? ok.. she is way good for me.. she is like the best person ever.. and no one is perfect.. we make mistakes.. and forgiveness is all i got to ofer her.. Im so sure she did it ones, she'll do it again.. im sure she'll hurt me again.. but still.. i love her.. and want her so badly!! im so scare to call her cuz dont know what to tell her..

[crim]

She said that she wants to be friends. That's a good thing. I think you should be friends with her for now and see what happens. Maybe she would want you back, but be sure if she does. Remember she already blew you off once, you don't want it to happen again.

[Dinnj1]

and she told me to fogive her cuz she was a f***up girl.

 

aren't they all? Actually, this is where you should've agreed with her for at least being honest.

 

she wanted my ''friendship'' i hate that word!!

 

don't we all? Don't be her friend... Don't be her friend... sorry, had to repeat that. Reason being YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO. You have feelings, she doesn't, well at least she's NOT showing them. YOU ARE and YOU WILL if you become buddies... YOUR feelings will evenutally push her away. BELIEVE ME, I'm goin through it now. One cannot be friends with another if there are mutually onesided feelings involved.

 

she is way good for me.. she is like the best person ever.

 

I understand this feeling. Which is all it is... a feeling. Not necessarily the reality of it. The reality is... if she WAS the best person for you, then you wouldn't be in the position that you're in now. She hurt you, went with someone...instantly turning you into second best. Think about that.

 

Advice: don't make it so easy for her. If she wants you back, SHE'LL come to you and let you know. No sense in you throwin' yourself at her, cause it'll only scare her off. She left you, so let her come back. On her own. It can be done. But it'll take time.

[Simons]

Hey man, sit down with this lady face to face and tell her how you feel and what you want.

 

Tell her why you think you cannot settle for friendship. From here you will know what is in store for you. I am sure you know you cannot force somebody to be in a relationship with you.

 

We all make mistakes.

[Krishu]

well, thnx for the advises , and i think you are right simons, i should talk to her and tell her things clear.. And after all i been through with her, i just cant believe we ended this bad.. she was ALWAYS there for me when i needed her.. and now i got that emptiness inside me, that no one else can fullfit... No one does understand girls.. one day they love u, the other one they hurt u.. i guess if i get back with my ex i would be SOO SCARE!! cuz i dont think i could take it again she breaking my heart.. I dont know if u have ever been in that situation, i mean.. have you ever reach the bottom of depression, have u ever been like sooooo close to comitte suicide.. i was.. i cried so much that i forgot i was crying.. she hurted me SO MUCH, and she knows it, and she is SORRY ABOUT That.. but sometimes,.. being sorry doesnt fix anything.. you need to do more than that.. I still believe she is the one that needs to fix us, not me.. She broke us, she fix us.. but still.. im scare she wont.. so atleast.. what should i do.. i'm suppose to call her today!! and i have no clue what to say.. im so scare.. havent talk to her in ages.. :(