CaliGuy Posted February 28, 2006 Share Posted February 28, 2006 Well, today is a craptacular day. Last night I had the first dream about my ex in a long time. It was brief in that I felt her poke me in the rib cage to wake me up. Of course, it woke me up and I couldn't really fall back asleep. So of course she has been on my mind all day. Mr. "NO CONTACT" is resisting all urges to email her. I need to remember to take her off the email list when I send out bulk email on Thursday letting our candidates and clients know we're moving to a bigger suite. The funny thing is I have been keeping myself extremely occupied with projects, the gym, hanging out with friends and for the most part, she has barely been on my mind (except for my birthday which of course she ignored and I expected). That reminds me, she would probably expect me to email her why she didn't send me a birthday greeting. The old me would have done that but the new, self-respecting me won't dare go there. Anyway, just letting you all know that I have my bad days too. Link to post Share on other sites
blind_otter Posted February 28, 2006 Share Posted February 28, 2006 Well, today is a craptacular day. What The f*** is going on today? Almost every single person I know has had an absolutely s*** day today. Including yours truely. Aliens. It's the only thing I can think of. Magnetic fields and aliens. Link to post Share on other sites
Author CaliGuy Posted February 28, 2006 Author Share Posted February 28, 2006 What The f*** is going on today? Almost every single person I know has had an absolutely s*** day today. Including yours truely. Aliens. It's the only thing I can think of. Magnetic fields and aliens. Something in the air? Something in or out of alignment? Last day of February? Who knows. Whatever the reason, I just want this day to end. Link to post Share on other sites
serial muse Posted February 28, 2006 Share Posted February 28, 2006 Aliens. It's the only thing I can think of. Magnetic fields and aliens. The earth's core may have stopped spinning. Unlike my mind. My day's been pretty s***ty too. I feel raw everywhere, like I can't stop flinching. Oh yeah...and I had an ex dream just a couple of days ago, too. He was kissing me, and then I woke up. Ugh. Link to post Share on other sites
Art_Critic Posted February 28, 2006 Share Posted February 28, 2006 Chin Up Cali.. you never know when the s***ty day is going to hit.. you had a birthday so she was on your mind.. then you dream about her.. It gets better. And DO make sure she is removed from that list.. in fact remove her NOw.. if you forget you will be breaking NC Link to post Share on other sites
Author CaliGuy Posted February 28, 2006 Author Share Posted February 28, 2006 Chin Up Cali.. you never know when the s***ty day is going to hit.. you had a birthday so she was on your mind.. then you dream about her.. It gets better. And DO make sure she is removed from that list.. in fact remove her NOw.. if you forget you will be breaking NC I know, I know. Maybe that's why I am argumentive today?? What an absolutely bad day. I'm contemplating skipping the gym tonight and just focusing on my pet projects. I have a ton of them in the garage and they keep me busy but I know the gym will help. At least it will release the endorphins. Plus there is a hotty at the gym that as easy on the eyes. Link to post Share on other sites
hurtbeyondwords Posted February 28, 2006 Share Posted February 28, 2006 gym hotties are great! gym tonight for me, I need some eye candy to keep my mind off of things.... and getting fit of course. Link to post Share on other sites
Author CaliGuy Posted February 28, 2006 Author Share Posted February 28, 2006 The earth's core may have stopped spinning. Unlike my mind. My day's been pretty s***ty too. I feel raw everywhere, like I can't stop flinching. Oh yeah...and I had an ex dream just a couple of days ago, too. He was kissing me, and then I woke up. Ugh. Sucks, doesn't it? I mean, I fully woke up expecting her to be there. I hate that. Link to post Share on other sites
Sassy Posted February 28, 2006 Share Posted February 28, 2006 Hugs to you Cali and remember it is her loss and someone else's gain! Link to post Share on other sites
Author CaliGuy Posted February 28, 2006 Author Share Posted February 28, 2006 Hugs to you Cali and remember it is her loss and someone else's gain! Thank you I try and believe that but sometimes it's hard. It's easy to blame yourself when you're the one with that big empty hole where she used to be and she has a new guy. Link to post Share on other sites
Ariadne Posted March 1, 2006 Share Posted March 1, 2006 Hey, Good luck Caliguy, hope you are feeling better now . And even the rain is gone , I was happy with that rain... Sigh. Ariadne Link to post Share on other sites
meltwithme Posted March 1, 2006 Share Posted March 1, 2006 except for my birthday which of course she ignored Would any1 that really cared about you do that? Anyways, I feel yah.... it'll be ok. You can't let it keep you down though. Link to post Share on other sites
trone Posted March 1, 2006 Share Posted March 1, 2006 Well, today is a craptacular day. Last night I had the first dream about my ex in a long time. It was brief in that I felt her poke me in the rib cage to wake me up. Of course, it woke me up and I couldn't really fall back asleep. So of course she has been on my mind all day. Mr. "NO CONTACT" is resisting all urges to email her. I need to remember to take her off the email list when I send out bulk email on Thursday letting our candidates and clients know we're moving to a bigger suite. The funny thing is I have been keeping myself extremely occupied with projects, the gym, hanging out with friends and for the most part, she has barely been on my mind (except for my birthday which of course she ignored and I expected). That reminds me, she would probably expect me to email her why she didn't send me a birthday greeting. The old me would have done that but the new, self-respecting me won't dare go there. Anyway, just letting you all know that I have my bad days too. Cali, This is a coincidence, that night I had the dream of my ex as well. usually in my dreams, I do not have clear pictures of people but her face was like crystal clear! I guess God is playing games on me. I had a pretty bad day yesterday, I did not even want to come to LS! Today, I have received an email saying, you should do whatever you can do for a person that you fell in love at the first sight. This made me think about it again, dont know if I should break NC! Link to post Share on other sites
skeptik224 Posted March 1, 2006 Share Posted March 1, 2006 I hope your day is a little better today, Cali. I could tell by some of your responses yesterday that something just wasn't right within you. You're human...you will have good days/bad days...it's inevitable. I hope you have deleted her from the e-mail list by now. Be strong. Remember Mr.NC, it's her loss by a long shot. Link to post Share on other sites
Author CaliGuy Posted March 1, 2006 Author Share Posted March 1, 2006 Cali, This is a coincidence, that night I had the dream of my ex as well. usually in my dreams, I do not have clear pictures of people but her face was like crystal clear! I guess God is playing games on me. I had a pretty bad day yesterday, I did not even want to come to LS! Today, I have received an email saying, you should do whatever you can do for a person that you fell in love at the first sight. This made me think about it again, dont know if I should break NC! Don't listen to stupid emails. Don't break NC!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Author CaliGuy Posted March 1, 2006 Author Share Posted March 1, 2006 I hope your day is a little better today, Cali. I could tell by some of your responses yesterday that something just wasn't right within you. You're human...you will have good days/bad days...it's inevitable. I hope you have deleted her from the e-mail list by now. Be strong. Remember Mr.NC, it's her loss by a long shot. Thanks man. I'm doing a little better today, that's for sure. I sometimes have to force myself to remember how she treated me and that tends to slap some reality into me. Link to post Share on other sites
Lishy Posted March 1, 2006 Share Posted March 1, 2006 It's her loss Cali - Don't lose sight of that! Link to post Share on other sites
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