Does he really want a second chance?

[a754]

I know its long but please help!!!

 

My ex boyfirend and I were together for a year. It was the best relationship of my life.

 

That was until our communication broke down when i went to america for a month. We tired to keep in contact but it was pretty hard. Then when i got back he said he didnt feel the same way about me anymore and didnt think we should date anymore. I knew he didnt cheat on me while i was away and it wasnt because of another girl, he said he just needed to sort out his emotions. I was heart broken. we both cried, talked and went our seperate ways.

 

but things just didnt feel right. I see him pratically every day and still do. Then about 2 months after breaking up with me, he began telling people, "Ive made a mistake" and kept coming out when i was out and basically acting like a lost puppy.

I didnt know what to think. Eventually i text him and said "what do you want? I still want to be with you?"

He didnt reply for ages, and then when he did it was a, "i think we should just stay good friends." But then why was he acting like this?!?!? i ignored it and yet again tried to move on.

 

Then he was out with me and my friends one night. I met a guy and we kissed and exchanged numbers, and he witnessed it all. I didnt think my ex wanted anything so didnt see a problem in moving on.

But then the next day he was asking me about "that guy" and was obviously upset. He told one of my best friends yet again that "he'd made a mistake." I was so confused!! why did he keep saying that and not doing anything about it? and why couldnt he just tell me himself!! I chose to ignore it, because he was the 1 who had to tell me.......and he never did.

 

About three months went by. I was of course myself around him. I acted like a friend and we were getting on so well. We could just sit and be friends and laugh. It was great and I was finally accepting that there wouldnt be an "us" again.

 

Until about a week ago.... he told me "ive made such a mistake. I never should have said we just be friends because I still fancy you" I was taken aback of course and thought, yh sure this is just a repeat, so i didnt let on that i still liked him. Then on valentines day he text and said "i meant everything i said. happy valentines."

 

Then he told my best friend, "ive been such a t**t, i never should have let her go"

 

I knew then that he was being geniune, and because he had told me himself this time,I decided to text back and said "I do want us to be more than friends, but I want you to be sure its what you want, because i dont want to be hurt again." .......no reply

 

I waited about a week in hope of something, but nothing. So i rang him to basically ask what was going on. he said, i dont know. I dont know if us going out again would be worth it!!

 

so now i lie in wait to see what else he has to say, but i know ill have to be the instigator because hes just too shy. I dont know whether hes backing off because hes scared of hurting me again..., or because he wasnt being genuine in the first place. But he keeps saying he wants me back, and has been for the past 6 months. Why now, is he backing off when i tell him that i want the same thing?!?! im so confused. I want to be with him so much.....i still love him and never stopped loving him. HELP!!

[JosiePosie]

Love this person enough to let him go. He needs to stop playing these childish games and get his head straight. Until he SHOWS that he is ready to reconcile, than take it slowly. Don't wait for him, live your life. That's what it is there for.