I am still so lost.

[Isabel]

My boyfriend of 6 years broke up with me 6 months ago. I am still sooo devastated my it. Every day for 6 years he told me loved me. He basically did everything for me. The only person I hve to blame is myself. I never cheated or anything - that is not my style at all - and i never left him, but i was basically very reserved with my love and never showed him or told him how much i loved him. While he was working 3 months in another country i suddenly felt that something wasn't right and I was right. He broke up. Now it too late. This guy loved me soo much. I know he had been having out with a girl on a regular frindship basis while he was there but i think he now want to be more than friends with her. He is back in country but i think they e-mail and talk alot. I have only seen him twice in 6 month. I haven't contacted him mrer than a few time concerning practical matters and vice versa. We lived together fo 6 years. I am so lost. I have lost so much weight. I don't even look like myself anymore. He was the best thing that ever happend to me. I did this to myself. Guys i need you help and guidance.