vi_pn_babe25 Posted April 25, 2006 Share Posted April 25, 2006 I don't do coke often, usually just on special occasions. But whenever I do it, I always get quiet, shy and pretty much anti-social with anybody. I don't understand why it's always problem but every time I feel the same way, while others are talking their heads off. So what's the deal with me?? I hope no one thinks I'm a druggie since I posted 2 different threads about similar things!! Link to post Share on other sites
confused6925 Posted April 25, 2006 Share Posted April 25, 2006 Thats weird that u said that because i was/is suspecting my fiancee of doing coke and everyone told me to look for a lot of talking and hyperness and i'll tell u what he was always as quiet as quiet could be. the thing that made me think he was on it was his pupils were dialted. every drug works different on everybody. coke just makes u quiet. u probably shouldn't even do it on special occasions. its not worth it. Link to post Share on other sites
blind_otter Posted April 25, 2006 Share Posted April 25, 2006 Different people react differently, and how much cut the dealer uses alters the type of high. You may have a low level anxiety disorder that is exacerbated by the cocaine. Before I quit using completely, I was very quiet when I was coked up. I think it is hilarious that people do coke casually. I used to do it casually. Then slowly over the years I was doing it almost every day. Link to post Share on other sites
Ladywithafan Posted April 25, 2006 Share Posted April 25, 2006 depending on how good the crack was...I'd either be very talkative or if it was bad...very quiet....and I think the anxiety thought makes sense as well... If you're trying to do the right thing with your life & do drugs and feel guilty about it, you can get nervouse & paranoid about your use... if you are ok with everything...usually the drug acts as the upper it's supposed to be & you're feeling good, happy, talkative, etc... Link to post Share on other sites
Author vi_pn_babe25 Posted April 25, 2006 Author Share Posted April 25, 2006 Thanks for your replies What you both said seems to make sense! I was wondering if it had anything to do with having a lil bit of anxiety, and also I've heard if you do high doses of it that it makes you quiet too, which I don't know if it's true. And true that if I wasn't so worried about what I was doing, because I'm truly a goodie goodie deep down, lol than I'd probably have more fun. Plus sometimes I think I get all wacked because I'll pop ephedrine, x, and do cocaine at the same time which isn't smart but it probably puts my brain in a trance or something. Oh and one more thing, whenever I do it with my guy friends, or anyone for that matter I never have to pay anything, is that bad of me not to offer any money or how does that work? lol Link to post Share on other sites
Ladywithafan Posted April 26, 2006 Share Posted April 26, 2006 Thanks for your replies What you both said seems to make sense! I was wondering if it had anything to do with having a lil bit of anxiety, and also I've heard if you do high doses of it that it makes you quiet too, which I don't know if it's true. And true that if I wasn't so worried about what I was doing, because I'm truly a goodie goodie deep down, lol than I'd probably have more fun. Plus sometimes I think I get all wacked because I'll pop ephedrine, x, and do cocaine at the same time which isn't smart but it probably puts my brain in a trance or something. Oh and one more thing, whenever I do it with my guy friends, or anyone for that matter I never have to pay anything, is that bad of me not to offer any money or how does that work? lol If you are trying to stay good and you continue drug use, IMO (this is what happened/s to me), I found it impossible to really enjoy getting high...don't know if when I used to smoke, it was better (I think so), now they put soap bubbles, more baby laxative..whatever...but because I went down so far...and worked soo hard to get where I am today...if I got high...I would not be able to enjoy it with the guilt of knowing how much I hurt myself in the process of trying something that was fun in the very beginning...but turned into the worst nightmare at it's peak... I'm pretty liberal...I don't judge...I don't say people should never try drugs...the consequences are basically what speak for themselves...there's bad heroin out & about (never tried it, hate needles, wouldn't snort it...a close friend of mine died of a "bad" heroin...which means it was "too good"...overdose...nothing like a funeral to really drive home this point... You can do a "too good" line of cocaine...a "too good" hit of crack...it doesn't matter...dealers aren't out to kill you...they're just putting 20" on their cars while you lend yours out as a rental....those of you who've been there...know what I mean... But, if you continue to play with fire, you will get burned...I have enough of a problem living with an active addict who smokes crack & has asthma......read my crack abuse posting....I'm not the only one who continues to have a relationship with someone who uses...doesn't mean I'm stupid, either...probably just won't give up hope...but w/o hope, you have nothing...so I continue... Good Luck & try some other avenues of enjoyment! Link to post Share on other sites
blind_otter Posted April 26, 2006 Share Posted April 26, 2006 Thanks for your replies What you both said seems to make sense! I was wondering if it had anything to do with having a lil bit of anxiety, and also I've heard if you do high doses of it that it makes you quiet too, which I don't know if it's true. And true that if I wasn't so worried about what I was doing, because I'm truly a goodie goodie deep down, lol than I'd probably have more fun. Plus sometimes I think I get all wacked because I'll pop ephedrine, x, and do cocaine at the same time which isn't smart but it probably puts my brain in a trance or something. Oh and one more thing, whenever I do it with my guy friends, or anyone for that matter I never have to pay anything, is that bad of me not to offer any money or how does that work? lol I don't know what to say. I always offered at least some money for my drugs. I was friends with the dealer, we went to university together, ironically. There were always chicks hanging around his house, or other dealers' houses that I knew, who didn't pay for their s*** and when they weren't there, the guys collectively referred to them as cokewhores. My exhusband is in federal prison for drugs. I knew a lot of the dealers in the area because they bought quantity from him. So, to avoid that label, I always paid at least something for my own s***. Regardless though you seem pretty happy with your choices, so whatever. I can't condone that and I think it's a mistake. Later. Link to post Share on other sites
littlekitty Posted April 26, 2006 Share Posted April 26, 2006 My personal experience was that the first few times on coke made me feel like 'the king of the world'! The heavier and more prolonged my usage became, the less social we became. We'd do a few lines, head out to the pub. Stand there feeling coked off our faces, and end up going back home to the safe enviroment where we could snort away to our hearts delights. Personally the thought now makes me feel sick. Link to post Share on other sites
Ladywithafan Posted April 26, 2006 Share Posted April 26, 2006 I don't know what to say. I always offered at least some money for my drugs. I was friends with the dealer, we went to university together, ironically. There were always chicks hanging around his house, or other dealers' houses that I knew, who didn't pay for their s*** and when they weren't there, the guys collectively referred to them as cokewhores. My exhusband is in federal prison for drugs. I knew a lot of the dealers in the area because they bought quantity from him. So, to avoid that label, I always paid at least something for my own s***. Regardless though you seem pretty happy with your choices, so whatever. I can't condone that and I think it's a mistake. Later. When I used to go to the houses back in the day....sure, I'd get offered hits...once in a while even took them..but...98% of the time, I paid for my drugs...because the only girls one would see getting high for free means they paid for it the other way.....we call them crackwhores... Once, even went to buy some rocks, forgot I had already given my bf money and there I sat with none...dealer..."that's ok...you can have these rocks if you...", my reply, "I don't s*ck d*ck for my rocks...oh, I must have given him a 20 min. lecture on how I don't have to pay as I have my own $ and if he wanted me to do that, with 2001 prices, it was going to be very expensive & he couldn't even afford me...believe me, by the time I was finished with him, he looked utterly bewildered... Link to post Share on other sites
tinktronik Posted April 26, 2006 Share Posted April 26, 2006 I must say , I never paid for drugs , they were just always around. Usually I'd get a call from a group of friends asking me to come hang out to do such-n-such and it would be mentioned that they were smoking out. This was when I was a virgin though .I guess people liked to hang with me .The rest of my circle was loaded with money though , I didn't have any. And I never got any drugs directly from a dealer. Link to post Share on other sites
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