Really difficult situation, !

[supersonic]

hi, wondering if any of you guys could give me any help, my girlfriend and i broke up a couple of weeks ago. this sounds normal at first glance, however we are both at university, in halls of residence, and she lives next door to me in my corridor, so she's basically the other side of the wall! we have been together since last october (we met at uni), were really close, and we even talked of marriage someday. we slept in the same bed nearly every night, did everything together, and everything seemed perfect.

 

she broke up with me because i can sometimes be a little jealous and paranoid. i have been cheated on (by a different girlfriend) in the past, so i was naturally worried that it would happen again. i would ask her the most ridiculous questions, and accuse her of such stupid things. sometimes i was a complete jerk and it would make her upset. this only happened quite rarely though, and she has even said that 95% of the relationship was amazing.

 

when we first broke up, i did all the things you shouldn't do (telling her i love her and that i can change etc), but it was hard to give her space when

a) i live with her

b) we have the same group of friends, and

c) we spent pretty much every moment together for 7 months.

the last week or so has been a bit better though, i've been trying to go back to the 'old me', the me that she loves, and i haven't mentioned our relationship for a while now.

 

sometimes when we're in a group, i catch her looking at me, and she sometimes has to walk away. sometimes she looks really depressed, and other times she tries to act normally. a couple of days ago she told a mutual friend that she's still in love with me. i honestly believe i can change my jealous ways, this has been a real wake up call for me.

 

we are civil to each other, and yesterday we had our first private conversation for a week. it went ok, except that she randomly started crying when i said the last few days had been fun and i'd been feeling a bit happier. i didn't mention our relationship once, kept it to light conversation, but she cried anyway. today she seemed a bit cold with me, but i don't think i did anything wrong.

 

i'm really worried about her. i think that half of her is still a bit angry with me for the things i said, but the other half of her is really missing me and the mostly great time we had.

 

another problem is, we have plans to live with each other in the next year at uni, i don't know whether i should or not. it will be me, her, and 4 other people.

 

i guess i'm wondering if i have any hope of a second chance. any advice on what i should do for the remaining 3 weeks at uni? we have a summer break, then back in september. i honestly think it can be put right if she gives me another chance, we really loved each other (and still do).

 

any help would be awesome!