getting lost in a whirlwind, family, weath or happiness

[Guest]

im 26 years old and have lost everything important to me. isnt this suppose to be the prime of my life? i feel its the most stressful and hurtful time? its wierd, am i headed for disaster? i find myself staring into an obis; when im driving my car, all i think about is my past or problems. its horrible, having that uncontrolable feeling, its like an expression of the weaker side of life.

 

i think the only thing that can help me is myself, but i dont know where to start. should i take care of the immediate future of the long-term? its complicated. maybe letting go of insecurities and driving forward is the best option but what about wiping out? i cant control myself, im completly lost, f*** me life is too complcated. one minute im happy the next im in a nightmare.

 

i guess the main problem with me is, im expecting way to much out of life and i need to take baby steps. im a smoo of the streets, riddled with problems and promise, contemplating every aspect of life, maybe a late bloomer, cornered at every turn with people expecting something.

 

you ever feel insane but dont know how to bust out of your shell? its a passion that can only be felt by the middle class kid raised by successful people and high standard. i guess its what you call the nintendo generation? you ever feel like your the man or the mouse?

[amaysngrace]

im 26 years old and have lost everything important to me.

 

life is too complcated. one minute im happy the next im in a nightmare.

 

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What did you lose that was so important?? You sound like you need to do a little soul-searching and also take it easy on yourself.

[ConfusedGal]

Hi,

 

WOW! You sound exactly like me!!! This is exactly how I am feeling. I am 27. I am a female, married for the last 3 1/2 years. On paper, I have everything. I am an attorney, and I have a great husband. But I cant get over my past trauma... I have never "LIVED"...And now I am 27, and life is just going by....I cant seem to get past the trauma my mom has caused in my life...I KNOW EXACTLY how you feel when you say you want to just burst out of your shell...Thats exactly how I feel. I feel like I am gonna just crack. Like I am just suffocating in my life...And I completely relate when you say you come from a background with high expectations...I am the same... I am a massively creative person who is stuck being a patent attorney because my parents pushed me into doing something "respectful" when I should have to art school or something... Everything from the outside seems perfect, but I feel like I am just gonna explode...I am seeing a psychiatrist. I want to LIVE...But I feel like I cannot do that living where I do. I feel like I just want to run away from everything...