New Attitude!!

[SadGreenEyes]

Get this...

As some of you may know about my current situation with my boyfriend of 2 years from my previous threads, then again, some of you may not.

Extremely brief rundown - Have bf of 2 years in remission from stage 3/4 cancer, he had many losses last year, and he is extremely hard to please. We fight a lot and have not been intimate nor have had sex since Jan 2005, yes, a year and a half ago. He at times especially when, he thinks he is provoked, can be cruel and down right nasty. I have been emotionally and mentally abused and obviously, neglected affectionately, which has lead to depression, frustration, insecurity, you name it. I have been speaking to a therapist for over 2 months now and she has helped me "see the light".

I have had to tolerate other women, "his old buddies", call all the time, at all hours, and will keep him on the phone for hours, with absolutely no consideration. I dont know how I have put up with this for 2 years. I have done a lot of crying. I have wanted to scream so freaking loud at the top of my lungs, because when I tell him what I think and ask him how he would feel if I had a few male friends who called me all the time, at all hours, and I bulls***ted with them for hours, AND ask him if he thinks that these female friends of his had boyfriends, if they would appreciate it or put up with it. Both answers were NO. Um hmm, that's what I thought, however when I bring this topic up, 9 x out of 10, we argue, Im wrong, etc and then he spews his venom.

One of these, I dont even want to call her a woman, "chicks" was friends with him for 13 years and was in love with him, but he never came out and admitted it for fear of looking conceited. I knew it, because I know women, Im one of them, and I know how we work. We are rule makers of "the game". We know how to place guilt trips, manipulate, we are incredible liars, and some of us have absolutely no regard and could care less when we're interested in a man, married, dating or not, some dont care. We want what we want and will do whatever it takes to get it...it gets us attention and boosts our ego's. This friend of his did everything she could for the first year and a half of our relationship to break us up. Would call him all the time, bash me, tear him apart, fed him guilt trips, suicide threats, you name it. She even called him and told him that they should run away together and have a baby....this while he's involved with me.

This morning the phone rang (we live together), it was early, 9:30...he was sleeping, I answered the phone...Hello? "Click".

Hmm, okay, time to *69..I did, actually got a number, called the number, of course blocking our number, Surprise, no answer - ah hah, but I got the answering machine.

It was a woman, of course. I heard kids in the back round. I tried the number a few more times, then had to do some errands. About 20 minutes later, I decided to call "Information", told the operator that I kept receiving calls from this number, who does it belong to? he told me the name - Wouldnt you know..it was his first fiance, from over 20 years ago.

I recognized the name immediately.

I called her house again - she answered.

I asked is so and so was there, she asked who was calling, I just said, she called my house and I just wanted to call back. She said she wasnt home, I asked when she would be back, she said, 'Oh, she's away for a week". I said, Okay, I said, I'll call beck next week and thanked her.

Now, I would think she knew it was me because I answered the phone, she could recognize my voice.

Her husband of 15 years called my bf back in Sept of last year. he asked my bf why he was speaking to his wife all the time....my bf's ex would call periodically, telling him she wanted closure. Isnt being married for 15 years and having 3 kids closure? I dont get it. So basically her husband, not in so many words, asked the they dont comunicate anymore. AMEN!!

My bf couldnt care less if he ever spoke to her again so it didnt phase him, however I know that she was the love of his life and he will always have her on a pedistal.

Now I am armed. I said to myself, you know what? f*** this! Screw these women. Im not going to get upset anymore! Im not going to cry any more! Im not going to tolerate this bulls*** anymore! Im going to fight fire with fire now! I will not let be played for a fool anymore!

last night I got my hair highlighted, Im using any pent up frustration towards doing house cleaning or whatever. Im not gonna sit around and dwell on this crap anymore.

These women dont know what the're in store for! I refuse to be quiet anymore! Mess with my boyfriend, you mess with me - fair warning!

Damn, that feels good to say! Feeling stronger every day!!!!!

[ashnicole]

Sounds like a few people need a nice, old timey ass whoopin'.

 

[Guest]

Whilst the various ex(?)-girlfriends and all are quite vexing I am more worried for you about this:

We fight a lot and have not been intimate nor have had sex since Jan 2005, yes, a year and a half ago. He at times especially when, he thinks he is provoked, can be cruel and down right nasty. I have been emotionally and mentally abused and obviously, neglected affectionately, which has lead to depression, frustration, insecurity, you name it.

I hope you won't subject yourself to this much longer. Take care!