I feel like I should be on the springer show!

[pbtd_man]

I am getting married July 14th. I was once excited about that. I was helping plan everything until my side of the family got envolved.

 

It all started with the fact that the wedding is on July 14th. That's a friday when my mom and sister foudn out about that I thought I was going to get mobbed. I was told that we being selfish and not thinking of other. My sister started yelling "I'm working on my master and you can't miss a day of class for that and I have 2 other weddings to take pcitures for" I replied with I'm sorry I thought weddings were about the bride and groom really more so the bride but I guess I'm all wrong about everything and it's really about the groom's sister. she came back with no one is going to go to your wedding. The part I loved was everyone in the room except my mom and sister said no matter when I had it they're going to have to take off so many days so it doesn't matter they'll be there.

 

Well my dad is a preacher and the way it's been most of my life I've had a preacher not a dad. We can talk all day about computer stuff together but really I don't see us being all that close. So really I don't want him doing our wedding so I just said he's done everyone else's wedding so really it wouldn't be special at all for him to do ours I bet he'd like to sit down, watch, and be a parent. My mom hit the fan "I've just pictured all my life your dad doing your wedding" trying to put a guilt trip or something on but I'm like "great mom Christy's paying for it she's got somebody" Well it wasn't before too long I found out she called Christy's mom and told christy's mom how she just cryied for 2 hours straight when she found out he wasn't doing or wedding" that was just the first time she's gone behind my back. I can't believe my mom is doing this to me. If I'm not mistaken I thought mom's are supposed to help out not tear everything down. anyway thankful Christy's mom is being a real mom so when my mom would call up wanting to do something with the wedding or wanting something done her mom would ask well what do they think about it. well anyway this goes on forever

 

All of the sudden one day I get a call my sister is getting married. That WOULD be great if she had know the guy for more than two months, if my mom wouldn't say "it's ok by the time they get married they'll have know each other for 5 months", if my parents wouldn't have given me trouble about wanting to get married after dating for over a year, if my mom wouldn't have wanted my sisters wedding to be a week before of after mine, if her wedding would be alot farther than aug 5, if my mom wouldn't have asked my to come back from my honeymoon early for her wedding, if my mom would quit twisting my arm about letting someone stay in the house I'll own in about 10 days, if neither Christy nor I were in her freaking wedding I would be perfectly fine with it.

 

One of my problems is that I have put up with all this crap my entire live. I can tell you with out a doubt in my mind my sister is getting married only because I am. That's the way she is and it's sad but it's her life to live. And I feel bad for the way I feel about my entire family but it's like come on!!! every action has an equal and opposite reaction do you not expect me to get mad or blow up after so much of this crap. I live 4-5 hours from my sister and 9-10 away from my parents and I wish I could double both of those distances. and they wonder why I get upset?!?!?! if you beat a dog pretty soon it's going to run away. Is it odd that a superior being would do the same...I don't like this....I'm not able to stop this....I think I'll leave. to me it seems like 2 and 2 but whatever I guess.

 

I'm up late because more crap is going on I don't know what to do. I've tried everything I can think of but it's not working. Maybe it's because I'm too simple. I don't like things to be drawn out. I like to be happy. feeling like this just gets old. And because of that I give in to things I prolly shouldn't. anyway thank you and sorry about the length