Need males perspective

[surrealrain]

Hey everyone, I'm new to the forum. I could really use some advice about my ex-boyfriend. So this is the story...A few months ago he told me that sometimes he's not sure if he loves me anymore, he told me that it scares him to feel this way, and he doesn't understand why. He had the decency to talk to me about it, and he kept telling me that he does care a lot for me, and can't imagine us not being together. We both thought that the problem was him being stressed out about work problems, and that once things got settled again that he would be fine. Things this past week were going great. He even asked me the day before he broke up with me if I would call to find out about the cabin that we talked about renting a while back. So I was under the impression that everything was fine. When I left his house the night before he told me that he loved me, and that he couldn't wait to see me again (I had plans for the next few days and wouldn't be able to see him). Well the next night he called me around 8ish, and we talked for awhile about how our days went, and he told me that he was feeling negative about us. So I told him to come over so we can talk in person.

So he tells me that he doesn't think he wants a girlfriend now, and that he knows in a few weeks he's going to miss me, but he wants freedom. He said he thinks it's best we end it now. I just don't understand how he can do this to me. We've dated for close to 14 months, and that's a long time to date someone to just realize that you don't want a girlfriend.

I know he was in a long term relationship before me, and with him only being 22 (I'm 20) and having dated his previous girlfriend thoughout highschool and college, that maybe he does want to try the single life.

Here is some more information to help you all get the full picture. I suffer sever depression. I'm 20 and have delt with it since I was 12. I go through spells of feeling okay for a few months, and then I'll spend a few months struggling just to do basic day to day functions. Anyways we met over last summer a few weeks after my finals, and so the whole summer was spent together, then when fall came back around I moved into the dorm again, and suddenly he was an hour and half away. But he never had a problem driving to see me. When I started getting into my depression towards the middle of the semester, he would come up just about every day. I didn't even have to ask him, he was just there for me. He told me that he worried about me. Anyways he was always there for me, and when I get into a really dark spell, I get controling. (I've always been a hermit, so I never had many friends, in fact outside of him I only have one, and she now lives and hour away), so when I get really bad, I need him to be there for me. He always understood that, but I think that it finally got to him. All I ask when he goes somewhere is to give me a way to reach him. Just in case I feel overwelmed and need to talk to him.

*yes I am getting treatment for my depression*

I'm just so hurt about all of this. He always looked out for me, and took care of me. I can't understand why he would walk away from the past year, after all we've been through. Another thing I don't understand is why he would leave me. He's average looking (although I wouldn't trade him for anyone), and I'm way beyond average. I can't even run to the store without getting guys hitting on me. So why would a guy give up a really attractive girl? I know that last part seems like a superficial question, but I need to understand it so I can save my ego.

I just want guys opinion about what he's going through. Why do you think he suddenly wants to be single? He even told me that he knew he would miss me a lot, and that he will regret it, but he just wants to be single for awhile. I told him that I wouldn't wait around for him, and he said he understands. Should I wait for him to get in touch with me, or should I call him? Any thoughts would be greatly appriciated. Thanks!