SHortyAnGel Posted July 15, 2006 Share Posted July 15, 2006 Orite. I had this major drama happen w/ MM... I finally tried to break off what we had [ still to this day i dont know]... After 2weeks of no contact... i finally cracked... i told myself... thats it! enough... When he finally called me... it was on... i gathered my streagth... i basically said that i dont feel that he has the time or even the feelings enough to keep me holding on... i asked him why i was here... [ as in his life] he got all stressed and said that i do as i please.. & that if i left if i would like him to chase me... i just told him to forget it... & i was about to hang up the phone when he started to say stuff how he was so stressed @ work, i didnt understand & that he was stressed @ home.... [ really.. do u think i care?...].. i sarcastically said sorry that was adding to his headache.....he had to go.... he called around 40 mins later saying that we should meet up & was tryn to make arrangments w/ me to get out of work.. i was like hold on... he was ready to let me go a while ago..? whats w/ the change... i just said that couldnt & left i like that... USUALLY i would speak to anyone to get the day off.... ha!...i asked him straight.. what do you want?... he kept on asking me what i want... i simply said it doesnt matter...& he said that whatever he wanted was secret... [ huh?] He than called me on my way home... i proceeded to question him on his wants & motives.... i wanted to tell him straight what i wanted but couldnt as i was in the car w/ my mother... ..that went nowhere... all this took place a week ago.... NO CALLS from him nofin... & than to make me feel extra special... i saw him & his wifey across the street holdings hands..... i jsut felt like a knife went straight in my heart.... i controlled my emotions coz i was in public & i refuse to saw him how it affected me... BUT when i got home... i was a gonna... I just cant belv it... i guess i should have expected it.. but that doesnt stop the pain.... I WANT TO KNOW WHAT HE WANTS!!!!! & painful enough i know its not me... =[ ... just thought id vent here.... sorry! Link to post Share on other sites
movinon05 Posted July 16, 2006 Share Posted July 16, 2006 You know what? Who cares what he wants. You're trying to break free and he's in a messy muddle. You know you're better off without him. Start really thinking about what YOU want for YOUR life and focus on that. You can't hold your life up forever with someone like this. I held my life up for 7 years!!!!!!!!!!!!! Take it from someone who knows. Life is too too precious while we are here. Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Posted July 16, 2006 Share Posted July 16, 2006 Orite. I had this major drama happen w/ MM... I finally tried to break off what we had [ still to this day i dont know]... After 2weeks of no contact... i finally cracked... i told myself... thats it! enough... When he finally called me... it was on... i gathered my streagth... i basically said that i dont feel that he has the time or even the feelings enough to keep me holding on... i asked him why i was here... [ as in his life] he got all stressed and said that i do as i please.. & that if i left if i would like him to chase me... i just told him to forget it... & i was about to hang up the phone when he started to say stuff how he was so stressed @ work, i didnt understand & that he was stressed @ home.... [ really.. do u think i care?...].. i sarcastically said sorry that was adding to his headache.....he had to go.... he called around 40 mins later saying that we should meet up & was tryn to make arrangments w/ me to get out of work.. i was like hold on... he was ready to let me go a while ago..? whats w/ the change... i just said that couldnt & left i like that... USUALLY i would speak to anyone to get the day off.... ha!...i asked him straight.. what do you want?... he kept on asking me what i want... i simply said it doesnt matter...& he said that whatever he wanted was secret... [ huh?] He than called me on my way home... i proceeded to question him on his wants & motives.... i wanted to tell him straight what i wanted but couldnt as i was in the car w/ my mother... ..that went nowhere... all this took place a week ago.... NO CALLS from him nofin... & than to make me feel extra special... i saw him & his wifey across the street holdings hands..... i jsut felt like a knife went straight in my heart.... i controlled my emotions coz i was in public & i refuse to saw him how it affected me... BUT when i got home... i was a gonna... I just cant belv it... i guess i should have expected it.. but that doesnt stop the pain.... I WANT TO KNOW WHAT HE WANTS!!!!! & painful enough i know its not me... =[ ... just thought id vent here.... sorry! AnGEL, you sound to me like a strong woman who made the right decision for herself. He, on the other hand, sound like a weak confused and sorry individual who gets shifted by the wind of emotion. I feel sorry for his wife for she may not even know what kind of jerk she's stuck with. Link to post Share on other sites
Author SHortyAnGel Posted July 16, 2006 Author Share Posted July 16, 2006 Thanks for your reply... I am so lost @ the moment.... I have a friend here who has gone through exactly the same thing...HOwever in her case... she gave him a deadline.. he was out.. BUT instead to taking this chance of finally having a real relationship with her.... he is now constantly buzy.....& she is once again got competition w/ his job.... I dont want this to be me.... constantly hurting for the rest of my life.... I want to be strong... TRUST ME when i get home, under the covers... thats when the tears start to fall.... i have to put a strong front for my family... & i cant let my work suffer.... i worked to hard to get where i am right now.... His Wife knew about the A... BUT she doesnt knw that he came back to me after a couple of months... & becoz i was so happy to see him again i caved & took him back...i think she is taking pride that he went back to her " to work things out" BUT how can they work it out w/ he is looking for me?.... i asked him what i was offering him that she cant give.... His answer was he loved her... SIMPLY becoz she was his wife... but he IN LOVE w/ me... how does that make sense???... A part of me want him to call me again. So i can tell him just how much he hurt me.... I know it wont do any good for either one of us.... I dont know what step to take... I THINK I NEED SOMONE TO SLAP ME AROUND!?!?!?................. i Link to post Share on other sites
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