Do you feel the same?

[hurtingurl09]

So i was dating this guy for about 2 months. He was awesome I had just gotten out of a really rough breakup and he was supportive of it. We got along sooooo good! He was really helping me get over the pains of my last relationship.

 

He was known to be a player but with me he was so different he always called me and wanted to be with me and show me off when we were out together.

 

Things were going great until i left for Florida for 2 weeks. I came back to rumors of him cheating on me.

 

I talked to the girl and she said that he invited her over one night and they kissed and whatever.

 

I know i had only been with him for 2 months but wow did that hurt me soo much!! I had fell for him in those 2 months like nobody's business.

 

Now he's saying that he can't sleep and has a horrible feeling in his stomach because without me in his life he isn't complete. He said he could never hurt me again because this made him realize how much he cared for me, he could see himself with me in 5 years and he was pretty much in love me. I fell for everything he told me.

 

All the things he was saying to me made me feel bad for breaking up with him and made me feel sorry for him until one of my friends saw him leaving the bar with some girl not even a week after we had broken up. So i told him to leave me alone and that i hated him for hurting me like this even after he knew all the things i had been through with my ex.

 

Now all i do is think about him and all the things he said to me i still believe him cuz i felt those things too. I'm not eating and it is all really having an effect on me badly! Not just missing him but the fact that he cheated too. In my last relationship i had suspicions of him cheating as well although never confirmed. I don't know what it is about me that let's guys think they can just walk all over me.

 

Someone please tell me that I'll get over this pain and learn to trust again and that i will get over him. I want to be with him so bad and the only thing that kept me from not being with him was my friends.

 

The thing that i hate the most is that i will never know why he did it if he felt the way he did why did he hurt me like this on purpose too. I just don't know what to think about myself i feel like trash my confidence is down the drain and i don't know if ill ever truely get over this.