How to sustain and survive the distance?

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Hi to every body out there. My name is Derrick and I am somuch in love with this new found love that I have in my life. I just cant tell her enough just how much I love her and she calls me everyday. We are connected and have certain atraction for each other like never before. She is 41 years young and I am 32 years young. I dint plan on getting involved at first but I just cant help that feeling and finaly surrender to it and now it all seems like I am walking on clowds every day now for a month and she also feels the same. The thing is that I got to know this fantastic and lovely lady in the point of my life where my finacial status is not realy stable yet and I cant affort to go to her in Australia or even when she is down in Singapore. I realy feel so bad about it and dont want to let her down. She knows about my situation and she is making an effert to call me and even fly down to visit me. She is not all that rich but will find a way to do so.

She have a real heart of gold and a strong will. I love her for who she is and her personality. I love most of all is the way she have made me to learn how to give my self a chance once again to love after a few years, she makes me feel so special. She is my precious and my queen of hearts and there can be no other. I just feel in me and its like vevry thing is telling me that she is the right one for me. Its not the brain talking but mostly my heart and something in side me is saying to go for it all the way even tho I did gave up on relationship a while ago. I love her like never before. She makes me feel like no other ever did and making love to her is out of the world. I just want to make her happy and never want to see her sad at all. I will do almost any thing for her. She is the love of my life and we have so much in commen. We can read each other thoughts........its amazing when we are to gather or even if we chat or message.

 

My parents dont know a bout her yet and they might be a bit jugemental about her but she so makes me feel extreemly happy. She appreciates me and treat my heart right with no lies at all. our religon is diefferent but its fine with us, just dont know how to break it out to my parents cause we are realy serious. I have never felt so certain about any other girls before like what I do fore her. She is a devorcey and have 5 beautyfull angles but they are with her ex in Indonesia......its realy complicated even tho she trys to bring them back to Australia.

 

At times I just wish that I was was in a way better financeial possition to treat her more right and I would take her hand to marry at any time and give her the best I can and just see her happy cause she alredy have gone through enough. I realy need more support in advice and may be so motivation. I realy want all to turn out good for her and me to gather.

 

i use to do well before I met her but now times are bad but she is still with me and wants me to marry her and have kids to gather, I also so much want that with her......and only her. I am so crazy for this woman and to me she is my dream come true. everyting I ever want in a woman. The most beautyfull woman in the world to me and she have that amazing smile. She is so sweet and lovely.

 

Derrick-