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How can I learn to let go. I am so angry at the whole break up and what my ex did. nutshell-he was having an online affair with a girl from Japan and she came to the US to be with him for a month, he told me 2 days before she came we had been seeing each other for 2 years. We broke up because I wouldn't step aside and wait until he decided if he liked her or not. He has an Asian porno fetish and I am blonde and blue eyed. ( He hadn't dated Asian girls before so I found out gradually ) Anyway, there is so much more to the story but....that was in August so it is holiday time and my brother is getting married and I am alone and I hate it. My Ex was supposed to be here with me but he isn't. He is in Japan seeing that girl. I found out from his best friends that she was really unattractive and really rude and scanky. They met her and said all she did was make condescending comments to them and was mean to my Ex. I told them maybe this was his soul mate and they said NO WAY she is awful and he is obsessed with her being Japanese not her as a person. That he talks about me all the time and put his hand over his heart each time. They wouldn't lie to me because they are his friends and they have no reason to hide the truth from me. I just found all of this out because I ran into them at a bar a couple of weeks ago, until that time I didn't know what happened with the Jap girl. When she first arrived I was so insane I dropped in on them 2 days into it and I saw her, so I knew he was screwing her already. I don't want him back because he is an a**h*** but I don't know how to let go. I am so angry. I hate him, I hate her and I hate myself for hating them. I feel like he got rewarded for bad behavior and I am stuck alone. I was always very kind to him and loved him very much. Why do guys like bitchy girls, and why does it seem that the bad guys win. I keep thinking about him being in Japan and it makes me want to cry. I feel like he is in heaven and I am in hell. I wish I could let go. I haven't had any luck meeting someone new and am scared I will end up alone. Please if anyone has any advice I would love it. How do I get past this. Thank you.

[TRYtoHELP]

How can I learn to let go. I am so angry at the whole break up and what my ex did. nutshell-he was having an online affair with a girl from Japan and she came to the US to be with him for a month, he told me 2 days before she came we had been seeing each other for 2 years. We broke up because I wouldn't step aside and wait until he decided if he liked her or not. He has an Asian porno fetish and I am blonde and blue eyed. ( He hadn't dated Asian girls before so I found out gradually ) Anyway, there is so much more to the story but....that was in August so it is holiday time and my brother is getting married and I am alone and I hate it. My Ex was supposed to be here with me but he isn't. He is in Japan seeing that girl. I found out from his best friends that she was really unattractive and really rude and scanky. They met her and said all she did was make condescending comments to them and was mean to my Ex. I told them maybe this was his soul mate and they said NO WAY she is awful and he is obsessed with her being Japanese not her as a person. That he talks about me all the time and put his hand over his heart each time. They wouldn't lie to me because they are his friends and they have no reason to hide the truth from me. I just found all of this out because I ran into them at a bar a couple of weeks ago, until that time I didn't know what happened with the Jap girl. When she first arrived I was so insane I dropped in on them 2 days into it and I saw her, so I knew he was screwing her already. I don't want him back because he is an a**h*** but I don't know how to let go. I am so angry. I hate him, I hate her and I hate myself for hating them. I feel like he got rewarded for bad behavior and I am stuck alone. I was always very kind to him and loved him very much. Why do guys like bitchy girls, and why does it seem that the bad guys win. I keep thinking about him being in Japan and it makes me want to cry. I feel like he is in heaven and I am in hell. I wish I could let go. I haven't had any luck meeting someone new and am scared I will end up alone. Please if anyone has any advice I would love it. How do I get past this. Thank you.

Hi, My name is shawn, I have read your story I am soo sorry this happen to you, How old are you ? if you don't mind i ask, Even though i never been in a real relationship but reading about yours made me think, I was just wondering try to think how to help you get over this, I came up with three thing, one, Pray to god to help you get over this, two, Pray to god to help you find some one else who will care fore you love you treat you like you post to be treated, I mean really ask him god has a way of making thing happen, three, All I can do is from here is give you a VIRTUAL HUG {{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}, Me my self still looking fore some one, But I am still trying to straiting thing up in my life, My mom died this year, But I am still moving strong and that what you have to pic your self up be strong and remember keep the faith there always some one out there who love you, I am 31 and I hope soon to get my self together but I am taking one step at a time and that what you have to do keep your head up and smile, keep on moving don't let no one get you down, you are beautiful,thats just about it, all I can do fore you now but if you need some one to talk to, I am here fore you, <e-mail address removed>, Well bye fore now.