Ladywithafan Posted August 11, 2006 Share Posted August 11, 2006 Because I'm not "wired to be a cocaine addict" even though I've gotten high in the past like there's no tomorrow...I can only explain the constant return to the behavior of getting high as insanity (thinking the same action will produce a different reaction, but it doesn't). I'm not sure if it's the coke or crack that makes the individual insane (in regards to the need to get more until there's no money left or physical exhaustion) or the personality of the individual and the basic thought that no matter what they were using, they would continue the pattern. I watched a friend last weekend go into some kind of seizure that I've never seen before. I stopped by to pick up a scrabble game, got a drink of water & some asprin as I had a bit of a headache, they were smoking & then all of a sudden, started licking their pipe & dipping it in water. Repeatedly, then started to shake and convulse. Another person threw water in this person's face & then whisked them off to the shower & used a combination of water & ice to bring them out of it. I had no idea what to do & was glad I wasn't the only person there. All I wanted to do was leave fast. It totally freaked me out. That showed me what one of the ends of drug use is...a deathly freak out in to oblivion. It doesn't happen to everyone...but you never know when your number is up. I kept thinking, what if this friend died? There have been others on this site who have experienced the death of a friend or loved one due to cocaine...it's so pointless... I wish I had the magic words that made sense to tell everyone who's hiding behind a substance to stop the madness but unfortunately that's not possible. Everyone has a different bottom and some people's are more easily recognized. I don't know whether it's best to sit & be there fore someone or walk away and have no contact. I've tried every way I can think of with some of the people I know. Nothing works. Wish I could help Link to post Share on other sites
vi_pn Posted August 12, 2006 Share Posted August 12, 2006 I totally understand how you feel...for me, it's deciding whether or not to put myself in a position...where ultimately I can get hurt as well. When I'm around him, I try hard not to give into temptation of doing it..but sometimes think I have to "get where he's at" in order for him to be calm or less paranoid around me. But the last time I did it with him...will be my last. Because like your friend, I almost died from taking a number of things all at once..it was almost too much for my heart to handle. I had to get out of there because I didn't want a big drug bust to go down..all because I foolishly made a bad decision. But oh my god...my heart was pounding out of my chest..and yes that can happen, but this time was different. I counted 60 heart beats in 30 seconds...that's why I thought I was going to have a heart attack, so I hopped in a cold shower, it helped a lil..I wanted to sleep and not think about it but I couldn't. I honestly needed to go to the hospital but I didn't because I knew I didn't have health insurance at the time and I was scared of getting in trouble. All I did was preoccupy myself by watching tv or listening to music so I wouldn't focus on my heart. It finally ended after 2 hours but it was the LONGEST 2 hours of my life. Now you probably understand why I get so worried about my particular friend. I don't want what happened to me..happen to anyone else, especially someone close to me. For some people...it may seem ridiculous to why I would care so much about someone who seemingly doesn't care about his own life..but it's much more than that. Luckily I didn't become addicted...but for those who are...please get help...before you dig yourself a 6ft hole in the ground. Link to post Share on other sites
Pink Amulet Posted August 12, 2006 Share Posted August 12, 2006 My best friend had a stroke because of her extreme meth use. This did not deter or frighten her. We just discovered, she shot up in the hospital bathroom with him. Unfortunately some people are too far gone to be frightened. Link to post Share on other sites
Brittjean06 Posted August 12, 2006 Share Posted August 12, 2006 Cocaine ex. blah there all horrible drugs. Kid at my school gave his girlfriend some E and cocaine and she died of this. He is a sophmore in higschool who has been behind bars for 5 months. My ex was a really big " substance abuser" and I got in too that seen and boy did I have my consequences From both. I wish I had never done either of them it wasn't worth the problems I have now. I easily get hot flashes, instead of getting just nervou and the butterflies I tremble. Its all not worth it, drugs make you do crazy ass things like biting all the skin on your finger nails off. It feels like all the calmness out of my body is gone, the serotonin? I guess Im used to it now and take vitamins Link to post Share on other sites
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