stillhere Posted August 12, 2006 Share Posted August 12, 2006 My day started as normal, went to work and saw my MM, got a few kisses, life was going ok. As usual, i think way to hard when it comes to my MM. A guy calls up, and asks me straight out when we are going to have sex, and he was serious. I was like WTF! I told him sorry, i had a BF, and we continued the conversation as normal without any sex talk. This guy is married by the way. On wed., my MM's brother handed me a business card with a phone number of a guy who is apparently obsessed with me (found that out today), he is married. And obviously my MM is married, so with these last few invitations, i started to beat myself up. This is why. Last year, on one of my attempts to leave my H, he told me that i'm gorgeous, but no one will ever love me, they only want to f*ck me. Although it hurt like hell for him to say that to me, i blew it off because i didn't think it could ever be true. So after i have attracted 2 MM's in the last week, i started to believe what my stbxH said. Apparently the only thing i am good for is a f*ck. I was supposed to see my MM tonight, and he was worried about us running into his W, so i told him that i wouldn't go see him. And then i started to cry. Of course he asked what was wrong, so i told him everything i wrote above and more (don't have time to write it all, you'd be reading all night). He did his best to comfort me. Told me that he isn't with me just for the sex, and that my stbxH was wrong, because he loves me, and always will. He told me that i'm an amazing person and that if he wasn't M, we'd be together, no doubt in his mind. He told me that he has never been so comfortable with a person in his entire life. He doesn't want to hurt me, her, or the kids. We know we will destroy many lives if we are ever found out, which is inevitable because i can't see us walking away from each other any time soon. He told me that he would call me tomorrow morning to see how i was doing. Since then, he has called me 4 times just to check up on me and make sure i was ok, and to say that he loved me. I guess i don't really need any advice, just someone to try and cheer me up. I hate being depressed, and i need to smile. Girls, help me out here. Link to post Share on other sites
consternation Posted August 12, 2006 Share Posted August 12, 2006 Stillhere.... please be warned, this is going to sound corny. One thing I got from your post - you seem to see yourself only through the eyes of the men around you... ie, these married guys hit on you, so you take it to heart, so you go to MM for reassurance, etc etc... maybe it's better just to think f*** what those di*ks think! What do YOU think of you? ps. and if some married guy rings up and asks for sex, tell him to get f***ed. Link to post Share on other sites
HokeyReligions Posted August 12, 2006 Share Posted August 12, 2006 ps. and if some married guy rings up and asks for sex, tell him to get f***ed. ...by someone else or do it himself. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Mascara Posted August 12, 2006 Share Posted August 12, 2006 Oh god, this is going to sound so new-age, but I believe that we give off certain 'auras' about our situation. Newly pregnant, newly in love, single, happy, miserable.... these are all situations I have been in and that have definitley affected the type of 'attention' I get from men. Maybe you give off an unidentifiable aura that you are seeing a MM? I don't know, I'm typing this and seeing how silly it sounds, but I can't put into words what I'm trying to say! Look, every OW goes through a stage of thinking 'is it just sex', and a lot of the time frankly it is, and that affects how we feel about ourselves and therefore how we project ourselves to others. That's all. I'd love to think I could say something here that would make you leave him and get out of that mindset... because when you are with someone SINGLE who desires and loves you, you will project THAT image to the world, because you won't have these doubts that you have - understandably - with a MM. But you're just not in that place yet where you can do that. Link to post Share on other sites
sassiex Posted August 12, 2006 Share Posted August 12, 2006 i know how u feel i feel like that alot !! my mm always says you are so beautiful so sexy and so horny cant keep my hands off you!! makes you wonder if you were fat and ugly ! bet this would not even be happening! but just think its a year youve been together and if it as onlt about sex he would be bored now !! so he must love your body and your mind x Link to post Share on other sites
Author stillhere Posted August 12, 2006 Author Share Posted August 12, 2006 i know how u feel i feel like that alot !! my mm always says you are so beautiful so sexy and so horny cant keep my hands off you!! makes you wonder if you were fat and ugly ! bet this would not even be happening! but just think its a year youve been together and if it as onlt about sex he would be bored now !! so he must love your body and your mind x Have you been talking to him? Kidding of course! That is exactly what he said to me "if you were fat and ugly, you wouldn't have this problem". He's right, and so are you..........so true. I'm not doubting his love for me, not one bit. I am the one he thinks about all day long, it's just frustrating to know that at a different time and place, i would be his one and only. There i go with all my "what if's". The part that i hate about myself, i understand his position as well, and i put myself in his shoes. I can understand why he doesn't leave. If i was him, i wouldn't either. He has more to lose than he does to gain. Although if he did leave, i'd be the "trophy girl" that he actually has a connection with, but it's more practical for him to stay where he is. I guess it's hard to explain. Anyways, today i'm feeling better, i'm trying to focus all my extra attention on my daughter. And i've come to the conclusion that i need to invent an MMR.........Married Man Repellant. I could make millions. Link to post Share on other sites
inarut Posted August 12, 2006 Share Posted August 12, 2006 stillhere, I've got a million bucks to invest in that repellent!!!!! ha ha. please read my last thread and let me know what you think. Link to post Share on other sites
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