Should I stay or should I go?

[Kanejd]

I left my girlfriend about three months ago. She had depression and alcoholism and she wasn't getting better. I hung in there for about two years until I just emploded and left. We tried to work on spending time apart but I just needed to get away from the situation. The last day we were together, I dropped her off at the movies to go with her friends and I went to a party to meet another woman. I didn't cheat, I just told my ex the next day and it was over. I ended up dating this other woman three weeks later, not because I liked her, but because I was running away from my feelings and needed someone to cling on.

Over the next two and a half months, I was with this other woman and my ex kept calling me. She came out of her depression and stopped drinking and was becoming the person I wanted, but I was very skeptical. I just wanted her to stop contacting me so I could figure things out. I ultimately changed my phone number. She was dating a few guys, but nothing seriously.

Two weeks ago I was at a bar with my friend. My ex walked in and said she missed me and wanted to talk. I went outside with her and we ended up being together for the night. She said she missed me and was still in love with me. I wa confused and didn't know how I felt. But I couldn't stop thinking about her after that night. I started to feel again, I started to miss her and love her again; all those feelings came rushing back in. Shortly thereafter, I broke up with the other woman. My ex was still dating other men. She kep saying she just wanted a guy to hang out with that didn't want a relationship. She was saying this to me! I said if your in love with me, how could you date other guys? She said she had a serious trust issue with me but I was still her best friends. I said that I would like to earn that trust back. I didn't expect nor want to jump back into a full flegged relationship again, I just wanted to take it slow so we can still work on ourselves.

She still calls me every day, I see her for lunch everyday, we are intimate once or twice a week. She tells me she loves me... But how can she still date other men??? I'm a mess!!! I want to give her her freedom, but I can't take the thought of anyone else with her. I don't know if I should tell her how I feel and tell her if she can't stop dating other guys I can't see her anymore or just hang in there, gain her trust back, and see where it goes? Can anyone help please???