Is he afraid of me

[afterall93]

I was divorced from my husband 15 years ago. We were very young when we got married. Love was never an issue. Lack of money and responsibility of a child and immaturity were! He has never re-married although he came close twice. We have always been in touch as we have a daughter who is 23 now. We raised her together even though we were not together. About 6 years ago we had a conversation where he stated to me about another couple we knew were about to re-marry each other for the 2nd time. He told me he didnt understand them because "you can never go back". That comment pretty much sealed my fait. I guess in my heart I always thought we would find our way back to each other. Shortly after I got engaged and eventually re-married. After 5 years I realized I didnt love this man and filed for divorce. When I told my 1st husband he began to cry and said that divorce if sooo hard and that I hurt him more than anything in this world. He said he only dates losers because he doesnt want to get hurt again. I was the one who ended the marriage because of all the problems and unfortunately I wouldnt give him another chance at the time. I then decided to be honest with him and told him I knew he was my soul-mate and that I have never been happy without him. He also told me that when he said you can never go back he didnt mean us. That pretty much blew my mind. I wish I knew that then. Now I have opened my heart to him and I can see that he backed off. He said that he loves me and I will always have his heart but he moved on after I re-married. My daughter said the move on part is bull. She said "daddy never moved on" and began to point out different things he has done over the years that say otherwise. When he said He moved on I said to him I dont understand you. You say one thing and then another. He just went through a severe break-up with another loser and she is trying to take his home and he said right now he is bitter against women. He also said to me he doesnt know how he feels and that he is confused but reminded me how he chased me for years. Right now I'm not calling him and trying to stay away until he takes some time to think. I told him I was sorry for putting more stress on him during this difficult time and he told me he was "buzzed" the night we talked but he remembers every single word we said to each other. It's very difficult to tell you everything with this thread but I hope I can get some in-put from the guys. I am so confused myself. I also told him that I wanted to tell him long ago how I fealt but I was afraid he would blow me off and that's what happened. He replied that he wasnt blowing my off. Since I havent called him he spoke to our daughter and she told me the first thing he asked her was "how's your mother?" Nothing makes sense to me lately. GUYS PLEASE HELP! Women too if you have had this experience. THANKS